I'm friends with the monster that's under my bed
Get along with the voices inside of my head
You're trying to save me, stop holding your breath
And you think I'm crazy, yeah, you think I'm crazy
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
i'm really struggling...for over a month i have been waking up every morning thinking about oding and shing and hoping that today is my last. i've had a nice xmas- been spoilt rotten and i am still having these thoughts. i must be really selfish or something... but i'm getting closer and closer to doing it.
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
how do u deal with the repercussion's of ur actions even though they were positive... i actually stood up for myself and the situation i was in with a friend and now the friendship is over but i keep having wobbles did i do the right thing sud i sort it out (which i doubt cud be/ dunno if i wanna) but i miss it and certain events keep upsetting me.... i dont do well with endings at the best of time let alone after so long and the way it was done ( iwas using my dbt skills and standing up for myself) but i dunno if it came out wrong :( ne advice how i can get through this
hey everyone...im posting here because after almost 2years of having a diagnosis of Bipolar, i saw a new Dr today while in my first IP stay, who believes i actually display the symptoms of borderline personality disorder. im feeling very confused and scared, and alone
silentdancer, there's a lot of people here you can talk to :)
I have an appt. with my doctor on the 3rd. Everyone keeps telling me to be honest about how I feel but what's the point? I don't like her. She's an honest to god fruit loop. I don't know how she manages to keep her job.
She received a letter from the hospital asking her to take several different blood samples. She has the list right in front of her, puts the thing in my arm. When she takes it out... she realises she forgot to actually take any blood. Twice. She was the one who put me back on meds. I went back a month later for a follow up. She claims she never put me on meds and she has proof; there's not a thing about it in my notes. So who the eff else printed and signed my prescription then? She called the chemist, asked them to look through my files there. Holy s**t, there it is. My prescription with her signature on it. So we talk. She ups my dose. Another month later, she's confused... apparently she's never put me on meds! And it started over again. And that's the bear bones of it. Just a couple of things.
And this is the woman I'm meant to tell in a couple of days that literally every. single. day is an even bigger fight not to kill myself? That every day it gets harder and I definitely cannot do this forever. I've already asked for another doctor but no one else will see me. I hate her. I want my old doctor back. He was amazing and lovely and had a brother with bpd who killed himself and... ugh. Now I'm stuck with Fiona the Fruit Loop who just keeps upping my meds to get me out of her office and then forgets about it by the next appt.
Ugh. No need to reply. I like rambling away.
.alex.
She says you're a masochist for falling for me,
So roll up your sleeves.
And I think that I like her
cause she tells me things I don't want to hear,
Medicinal tongue in my ear.
When will it stop?
hey cheryl,
well done for standing up for yourself darling AND a huge well done for usinmg the DBT skills thats fantastic, as for the friendship think about it in the long run, was it a positive or negative for your well being? i don't just mean did u have fun but was this person helpful to your mental health?
