Hey guys, nice to meet you all. Just diagnosed recently and looking to see if ya'll have advice from your experiences. Theres two main issues.
1 - Only rarely do I feel completely and utterly suicidal but since being diagnosed with BPD nobody takes me seriously when I express how afraid I am that I'll hurt myself.
2 - Was discharged from hospital last week and told to engage with crisis team and get a CPN referral. Did as told and they said no because apparently I am NOT suffering from a mental illness and therefore do not require the services of the CPN or the crisis team. I was given some numbers for stress management and told to take more responsibility for myself.
I am furious and confused. The psychiatrist was so caring and informative, diagnosing me with an ILLNESS. Now the community team insist I don't need their help with my DISORDER.
You need to go to your GP who should be able to sort out a mental health referral.
How is everyone?
xx
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
When I was in hospital, my mum asked my consultant psych if I would have another CPN once I was discharged. He said no, I needed to see someone more senior. He said that he was going to see me once I was discharged.
I was discharged. I went to my first appt. with him and he told me that was it. He told me to enjoy my life and goodbye.
I give up.
.alex.
She says you're a masochist for falling for me,
So roll up your sleeves.
And I think that I like her
cause she tells me things I don't want to hear,
Medicinal tongue in my ear.
When will it stop?
Just want to let you all know I'm reading and thinking of you all. Not in a place where I can be of much use support wise and don't want to take the mick by posting and not giving back.
But yes, in as much a non-wierd stalkery/lurker way, I'm here if you need me, and I'm thinking of you all.
Ev xxx
Whatever Happened to our Inner Glow?
<3 Sarah, My brilliant, beautiful, RAWR little sis
Sorry that I haven't been around for ages. I've been trying to settle back into uni and make things work. Not going too great though. I know trust has to be earned, but it's hard to trust yourself when no-one around you trusts you.
I can't get myself to take my meds. I want to go to depot cos then I know I have taken the meds, and they know I can't OD, but I can't on the meds I'm on atm. It sucks
"Keep your heart open to dreams. For as long as there's a dream, there is hope, and as long as there is hope, there is joy in living."
I have been diagnosed with BPD and BiPolar. How ever at my last med management meeting the ARPN said ".....well, that is if you really are BPD and BiPolar." I talked to my therapist and demanded that I see a Psychiatrist. I want a final diagnosis once and for all. I would rather know the beast that I am dealing with.
today has been tough. I have SO muchwork to do. Why did I even think that an Oxford degree would be possible considerin my mh issues? They gave me the option to transfer to somewhere else last year; I barely scraped through my first year exams, and now I'm scared.
I need to keep going, but I still want to hide.
"Keep your heart open to dreams. For as long as there's a dream, there is hope, and as long as there is hope, there is joy in living."
I have as much support as they can give me; pretty much 24/7 support if I need it. In all honesty the university has been brilliant. I just hate the fact that I need to use it. I wish I was able to support myself. :(
"Keep your heart open to dreams. For as long as there's a dream, there is hope, and as long as there is hope, there is joy in living."
I totally understand what you mean; Cambridge offered me a place but said they were troubled about taking me due to my MH issues. I'm now doing a masters at Royal Holloway and really having trouble asking for help.
If you got in you ARE good enough to be there; use the support you have, take advantage of whatever you can get hold of. You CAN do this, you've already proved you can get here. Keep going! xx
Whatever Happened to our Inner Glow?
<3 Sarah, My brilliant, beautiful, RAWR little sis
Just wanted to pop in and let you all know that I am reading and thinking of you all.
I'm sorry that I'm not in a very good place to offer any support and don't want to be a hypocrite in posting.
I am here if anyone needs me or wants to pm me.
love to ya all.
I'm friends with the monster that's under my bed
Get along with the voices inside of my head
You're trying to save me, stop holding your breath
And you think I'm crazy, yeah, you think I'm crazy
im tired, had a bit of a bad day yesterday and today find out some git has stolen over £1000 on my credit card but thats now sorted and i have a new colouring book lol
