How comes you're being taken off the meds? Did you want to come off, or has he just decided?
I'm sorry but I don't know what to suggest, cos I know you've had a lot of fights trying to get treatment. It makes me angry that they won't help you.
Why is he reducing your appointments?
Not too bad at the moment thanks. I was meant to be referred to some kind of counsellor, but they decided I was too complex so my doctor did nothing more about it until I made her. Silly woman. Apparently they suggested I get referred to the community mental health team but she didn't think to go ahead and sort it out. Anyways got an appointment for next month now so will see how it goes.
And you're my obsession, I love you to the bones...
Pom (Beccy? sorry I always forget) How are you liking you (not so) new home now? Have you got used to MK yet? I also used to have the same with the depression coming on, but mine used to come everyday at about 6pm! lol. I have no idea why these things happen! Very strange. Hope you're ok.
x
Hi Ellie, yeah it is Beccy .
I'm not sure about the move tbh - I don't love MK, I quite like my house but I'm not sure about the area.
I had a really bad day at work today :( I was told by my mum if I leave my job, the first thing that will have to go is the dog, so that means I can't sign off even though I want to kill myself because of work half the time. And secondly, my boss told me that me and my co-worker (the only person who actually makes the day barely bearable) have to take seperate lunch and tea breaks.. so not having the best of days.
"John, being brave is going where no man has gone before and with Lizzy Stark, that is NOT what you'll be doing!" - Aunt Polly.
“I told him I was going to betray you, and betray Lyra, and he believed me because I was corrupt and full of wickedness; he looked so deep I felt sure he'd see the truth. But I lied too well. I was lying with every nerve and fiber and everything I'd ever done...I wanted him to find no good in me, and he didn't. There is none.”
it's complicated because we run the phones, but when we go on our breaks (15 minutes in the morning, half an hour for lunch and then 15 minutes in the afternoon) the sales guy takes our calls for us, (which is about 1 or 2 phone calls on average) but apparently he's not doing enough work so my boss said to me that this guy didn't need the hassle of looking after hte phones and needed to concentrate on his work. But there are 2 directors who (including my boss) who could easily answer the phones but don't want to because they are arrogant. So now me and this girl have to spend our time all alone. Stupid.
And yeah I am looking for another job. I work in admin (and receptionist) but I hate answering the phone so it doesn't really work. But now I'm too scared to tell my boss that I don't like answering the phone.
"John, being brave is going where no man has gone before and with Lizzy Stark, that is NOT what you'll be doing!" - Aunt Polly.
“I told him I was going to betray you, and betray Lyra, and he believed me because I was corrupt and full of wickedness; he looked so deep I felt sure he'd see the truth. But I lied too well. I was lying with every nerve and fiber and everything I'd ever done...I wanted him to find no good in me, and he didn't. There is none.”
Hi everyone.
How are you all?
Well i've got a week off college now, got to love half term.
xxx
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
How is everyone? *hugs*
I feel pretty **** :( and I'm fast realising there is only one way out - and it's not a happy ending.
-sigh-
"John, being brave is going where no man has gone before and with Lizzy Stark, that is NOT what you'll be doing!" - Aunt Polly.
“I told him I was going to betray you, and betray Lyra, and he believed me because I was corrupt and full of wickedness; he looked so deep I felt sure he'd see the truth. But I lied too well. I was lying with every nerve and fiber and everything I'd ever done...I wanted him to find no good in me, and he didn't. There is none.”
I'm just going to jump in the bath but i am around if you wanna talk about it hunny.
I'm not feeling to good but i get to see my dad tomorrow for the first time 8 months.
xxx
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
Just work related depression really :(
Thank you btw :)
Is seeing your dad a good thing? (sorry to sound a bit presumptious, it's just sometimes it can be a hard time for people, just wanted to make sure you'd feel safe) xx
"John, being brave is going where no man has gone before and with Lizzy Stark, that is NOT what you'll be doing!" - Aunt Polly.
“I told him I was going to betray you, and betray Lyra, and he believed me because I was corrupt and full of wickedness; he looked so deep I felt sure he'd see the truth. But I lied too well. I was lying with every nerve and fiber and everything I'd ever done...I wanted him to find no good in me, and he didn't. There is none.”
Yer it is a good thing to see him! If it was a few years ago i'd be worried but since he met my soon to be step mum he changed and with him living the other end of the country we get on better.
I should feel safe as long as i can keep flashback etc under control.
I'm sorry work is getting you down hunny.
Have you throught about asking your doctor to sign you off for a little while?
xxx
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
pomeranian - daniella has a good idea about the signing you off for a little bit - maybe you could ask about that possibly?
Grace - thats really crap about your doctor trying to reduce the amount of appointments when you're not ready. even if you do have attachment issues then (imo) surely its better to work through them rather than basically punishing you for it by reducing your treatment. i hope you manage to sort it out, and if you do get reduced app's that it works out.
Im not having such a great time atm. my boyfriend tonight was going on about this girl he used to see (said he only saw her a few times though but whatever) and then i got all jealous and pissed off and he's just ignored me - he cant be bothered me. and its making me feel really really ****. sorry thats a really crap reason to feel ****, i wish things like this didnt affect me so much.
Meg and Daniella - I am considering being signed off, or at least asking for something like that - even just a couple of weeks or something.
Meg - I'm sorry your boyfriend has been making you feel like that :( *hugs*
"John, being brave is going where no man has gone before and with Lizzy Stark, that is NOT what you'll be doing!" - Aunt Polly.
“I told him I was going to betray you, and betray Lyra, and he believed me because I was corrupt and full of wickedness; he looked so deep I felt sure he'd see the truth. But I lied too well. I was lying with every nerve and fiber and everything I'd ever done...I wanted him to find no good in me, and he didn't. There is none.”
I was diagnosed about 2 years ago and it took me a very long time to come to terms with it. Now I don't even see a therapist anymore. It was very difficult but I'm glad I've learned to manage.
But Ive had ''DBT'' & it hasn't helped me to be able to control it fully! How do i learn to deal with it to help my relationship be normal!! I just wanna be a normal person :( xXx
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