The Borderline Personality Disorder Thread

[Left in the centre]

hey hun sorry to hear today's been so bad, hopefully tomorrow will be better though, sounds like a sensible plan you have job wise though.

kitkat - try just making lists of everything to do and give yourself time slots, i set myself 2 major tasks - work wise- today and i reached them so that helped me.

me - ive spend the entire night listening to other people's problems, which i dont mind its just draining, my friend broke down and told me if his family didnt care he'd top himself.... which broke my heart because i genuinly think he's amazing and .. just like howcan he feel the way i feel so much. but he's never been this low before and i realised im kinda glad of bpd making me down, because at least i get used to it.

[Kitkat :)]

I'm doing one assignment now, so one to go once it's finished. Urgh. All this BTEC stuff is so confusing... merits, passes, distinctions, referrals... Arghhh.

[x-dying-inside-x]

hi everyone.
how are you all?
xx

[MrsCoulter]

Laura - thanks :) I think by making small goals and steps I won't find myself jumping into something too soon. Although I was okay earlier and now I'm feeling crappy again. I know how draining it can be to listen to other peoples problems as well Laura, and it's also hard to hear a good friend who you think is amazing, feeling that low :(


Kat - how is the assignment going :)?

[one_step_closer]

I'm going away next week on a residential trip with the Prince's Trust. I'm really scared about it because I need time to myself and my mood is so low at the moment. I'm finding that nothing is soothing me and I really want to self harm.

How is everyone else?

[x-dying-inside-x]

Hi hunny!
It there not anyway you would be able to grab some time to yourself like going for a little walk on your own?

I'm not too bad, i had a slip up on friday with my self-harm, i was 8 days off being self-harm free for 6 months.

[Kitkat :)]

Aww sorry to hear that Daniella :/ but try not to dwell too much on it, you can still carry on with being free from self harm (:

How is everyone today?

[x-dying-inside-x]

I'm trying not to but i'm angry at myself!

How are you hunny?
How is college going?
xxx

[Kitkat :)]

Yeah I know how you feel, I found really red scratches on my arm the other day.

I'm okay, getting bogged down by coursework and the confusing grading system that's involved. College is alright thanks (: how's college going for you?

xxx

[x-dying-inside-x]

Yer it's going ok, i've put in for a subject change from business to sociology. I'm not liking business at all.

I don't have a clue how btec works babe, have you asked megan?
xxx

[Kitkat :)]

Ohh okay.

Well I kinda get it, it's just confusing what with all the mertis, distinctions, referrals etc. I'm just taking it as it comes really (:

Hope you get that subject change (:

xxx

[whirlpools]

I *think*, from when I was at college, Distinction = A, Merit = B and Pass = C, a referral means definitely need to speak to tutor to get more advice. If you're doing a BTEC National Diploma, you'll come out with three grades at the end, a combination of distinction, merit and pass, equalling three A levels, essentially.

[Bleeding Angel]

Im fuming, totally.

I bought stuff from this site i use and spent like £40 on clothes and i sent it to my new adress, changed it on my paypal and the site, thought all weekend something bads going to happen and it did. **** knows where they sent it and who signed for it, it says its in glasgow, despite my address being in dundee, and the postcode comming up Dxx when the **** did that mean Gxx.

Im fuming and ive got a horrible feeling they are going to say not our problem.

[Bleeding Angel]

Still fuming, its been delivared to dundee but the wrong halls, they didnt even bother looking at the numbers and its been delived to the halls beside me and not my halls, they didnt even bother comming up here and checking the numbers, i still cant locate it, the office is in touch with the guy in charge of the next halls, but no ones in in that flat. I dont know why they signed for it if it says the wrong address on it and no one by that name lives in that room. I got told the delivary drivers going to try and go back and get it.

But what happens if they cant locate it, or they have openend it? the company was just like nothing we can do, and ive spent like £5 on calls.

[Bleeding Angel]

I love how quiet this place is, strange having a convo with yourself. Well i finally got my parcel intact, still pissed off esp with having to spend a £5 on calls.

[Kitkat :)]

Sorry to hear you had all that hassle with the parcel Mari, thank God you finally got it sorted though.

[whirlpools]

Yeah that sucks Mari, glad you've got your parcel though, seems like the person who received it must be quite honest, so that's good.

It is quiet around here these days, not so long ago it was really busy.

I've been up to the Jobcentre, need to meet with the disabilities lady, but worried I'll have to go through Pathways to get a job - I don't want this to take ages, I found a job as a "Buffet Host" in Pizza Hut that I want. Likely it'll be filled before I get to go for it though.

[Kitkat :)]

Hope you get that job Laura, fingers crossed (:

I start work experience tomorrow... At a youth centre in Bromley doing admin work... I'm not good at admin work, ahhhhhh.

[Bleeding Angel]

have you applied for it?

Im sure it will go well.

[Kitkat :)]

Oh yeah, my college arranged it, I'm just nervous, meeting new people, getting into a new setting... Mainly because I'm not used to working in an office-y type place, but I'm sure I'll get used to it.