It had been about half a year...but things have just been so hard lately...I finally gave in...and I'm seeing two separate counselors tomorrow, one here at school along with my regular therapist...and I don't want to tell them I cut... *cries* But it helps so much!!!
and...my roommate walked in while I was in the middle of it...luckily I was out of sight and covered my arm quick...then quickly bandaged it while she wasn't looking...but still...major close call, and I'm freaking out...what if she would have seen me?! oh man...
I know I shouldn't have done it...but...it just helps so much...*hides*
...just feeling so fragile and vulnerable right now...
i just wish i had someone to talk to here at school. and i'm even scared of being honest with the counselors tomorrow, because i was doing so well and now.......they'll be so disappointed in me.
*hides in safe corner with comfy blankets and pillows and teddy bears*
i'm sorry for posting so much...it's just...i don't have anywhere else i feel safe right now.
...just feeling so fragile and vulnerable right now...
i just wish i had someone to talk to here at school. and i'm even scared of being honest with the counselors tomorrow, because i was doing so well and now.......they'll be so disappointed in me.
*hides in safe corner with comfy blankets and pillows and teddy bears*
i'm sorry for posting so much...it's just...i don't have anywhere else i feel safe right now.
Aw I'm sorry, if you ever need something drop me a PM, ok? *hugs*
It had been about half a year...but things have just been so hard lately...I finally gave in...and I'm seeing two separate counselors tomorrow, one here at school along with my regular therapist...and I don't want to tell them I cut... *cries* But it helps so much!!!
and...my roommate walked in while I was in the middle of it...luckily I was out of sight and covered my arm quick...then quickly bandaged it while she wasn't looking...but still...major close call, and I'm freaking out...what if she would have seen me?! oh man...
I know I shouldn't have done it...but...it just helps so much...*hides*
*hugs* it'll be ok, everyone does things they wish they hadn't, i don't know about the counsellors, but i'm sure no one here is disappointed in you. i'm sorry you're hurting. hold on there xxx
Sometimes I code days like Red, Amber, Green. Today went terribly, I took an OD at college and collapsed. They sent me in an ambulance to A&E where they kept me in for 8 hours (!)
They're making me IP for a while. Just came home to pick some stuff up (and quickly go on RYL) then I'm going in.
Catch ya all later x
I wish I could help more people on RYL right now, but I am so lost in my own BS and issues...I don't think I have ever been this confused in my life...EVER.
I feel so poorly about myself at the moment...I just want a hug from a non-threatening person...
I am normally so careful. I was careful. I thought I could trust him...
zowie sorry you're struggling. *hugs*
