cant do this any more...
want to rip out the tube and just let me die
just want quiet... but dont want to disappoint my foster parents...
i think i need to tell someone how im feeling before i do something...
but i dont think i can.
I want to crawl into my dream world and stay there, so that the pain yesterday brought won’t carry on to tomorrow.
DriftedAway- Thanks. Your nice too.
I'm sorry your strugling. Anything we can support you with.
I'm not so great atm, but I will live, or not, either way.
Hugs xx
whysosad- Oh hun. Sorry your feeling that bad. What tube is that hun. Are you in hospital? Is there anyone round that you could speak too? HUgs
Last edited by getting_by : 30-11-2011 at 10:56 PM.
Reason: Stop double posting
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
the ng tube... for the feeds... im on a continuos one at night... its 'keeping me alive'
thats what they say.
i was, but they said thye couldnt treat me properly until my situation was a bit more stable and dad has been sentenced an everything.
only my foster parents... and i dont want to upset them.
I want to crawl into my dream world and stay there, so that the pain yesterday brought won’t carry on to tomorrow.
i not nice. im just screwing things up. am. just did.
sorry youre not good. you can get better.
alyssa... talk to someone. can only help. thats why they and you are there.
These kicks take me far away my dear; Far away from myself Far away from my troubles
Far away from heaven
They wont hun. They will understand your struggling- they took you on in the first place hun, they must really care for you. Seriously, try them .They might suprise you.
DriftedAway- it might feel that way now hun. But you wont have. Ppl make mistakes and slip up all the time. Admittedly, ours tend to be impressive slip ups, but people will understand. Its important to move on and not dwell too much on the negatives
x
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
It is hard hun. I know. I find you just have to hang onto those tiny bits of light in the darkness. The things that even for just one moment, make life slightly more bearable.
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
I really can't see the point in anything right now. Why stick around so I don't 'hurt' a few people when all they do is put me through hell. They want someone to be at their beck and call but they're not willing to help me at all. I'm just so tired of this now. I...blah, sorry. I hope everyone's okay <3
x Katie x
Katie...... Hugs you. I want you to stay alive for you. But if you're not feeling strong enough, then whatever reason you can hold on to, even If it's to stay alive for mean people or for us, I'll take it. Don't want you to die. Please please reconsider your plans. We need you Katie. The world does need you. I'm sorry people treat you badly. They suck. Life sucks but it's still worth sticking around for. It can be great too. It really can. Oh Katie. If only I could put my arm around you and make you feel better. Squishes sweetie.
I'm sorry. I just don't know what to do. My GP thinks I'm getting better. My nurse thinks I'm better. My psych know's I'm getting worse but he is fully booked up until after New Year. My CPN has given up on me...he doesn't even call anymore. My boyfriend just makes a joke out of how 'crazy' I am. My 'best friend' just wants me to do her favours and doesn't give a ****. I just feel like there's no point...I hope you're doing okay Mum24 <3
Can you tell your gp and your nurse that you're not doing better? your bf needs a kick in the a$$. Sorry. Makes me mad. Your friend too. If your psych knew things were getting desperate would he make an emergency appt? I'm so sorry Katie. But no matter what, I still care about you and am not giving up on this.
I'm ok.. Sort of. Leaving for appt with dr and husband now. Scared.
Rachel and Libz <3
Good luck with the appointment Rachel - I hope it helps your husband help you.
I have an appointment on Monday with my GP and I've written something to take along to admit how much I'm struggling. I feel bad because they were happy with how much better I seemed...but it was all just an act. My psych physically doesn't have enough time - he's high up at the place so he has a lot of demands on him.
*leaves hugs for you all*
I'm glad you have an appt with your gp Katie. Soooo glad you've written a letter too. Good job. Hugs sweetie. Make him understand and don't worry about disappointing him. They are there for you. Don't worry. We are Hereford you too. Hugs tight.
I'm in the waiting room right now. Eek.
Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
