It's this thing called World of Difference a charity hosted by Vodafone.
Basically, you know all those charities that allow you to work abroad teaching english, or help build a school, well usually you need to pay for yourself, like airfare and so on to get yourself out there. You pay and the charity organise your flight and accommodation and so on but you pay for yourself.
World of Difference pays the money for you. It's for people like me who want to do the charity work but can't afford it.
There's a limited number of spaces available and you have to apply and be interviewed and everything for it.
Also you have to set up your contact with the charity in advance. You have to contact the charity and organize for World Of Difference to make your payments for you.
It's made easier because they have a list of Charities and you can narrow that list down based on what you want to do; Marine conservation, education, archaeology etc. and narrow down where in the world you want to work.
So I've run myself through the Charity matching and have this long list of charities in front of me. All I have to do is read through them and see which project I like the most and make contact with them.
There's the problem. I can't do it. I just stare at this list and whenever I start trying to look through even one of the entries on the list I just feel overwhelmed. My throat feels tighter just talking bout it. It's too much to look at. I think about this kind of adventure but when it comes to choosing one I just can't do it.
And i'm being so stupid, because even if I chose one, and made contact and got them to agree there's no reason I'd be picked as one of sixteen people who get this grant.
Still, i can't even read one full entry on that list of charities.
It's not dumb at all Adam
I worry about making decisions all the time, and it is scary to be considered for this sort of thing.
Please don't let your worry/fear of rejection stop you, love, it'll be fine ^_^
Life is about love, last minutes and lost evenings,
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And the aching amplitudes that set our needles all a-flickering,
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Wow, I didn't know anything about that. It looks amazing, you should go for it!
It does look quite overwhelming, though. But like said, if you start somewhere it might get easier to look through them. Or maybe narrow down your search more?
...I've done like half a past paper for Chemistry tonight. Shiiit.
Life is about love, last minutes and lost evenings,
About fire in our bellies and furtive little feelings,
And the aching amplitudes that set our needles all a-flickering,
And help us with remembering that the only thing that's left to do is live.
You're going to be fine, Anna, you're going to do great <3
It's getting late, lovely, don't stress yourself out too much.
*cuddles*
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
I'm sorry for constantly whining about these exams >.<
Life is about love, last minutes and lost evenings,
About fire in our bellies and furtive little feelings,
And the aching amplitudes that set our needles all a-flickering,
And help us with remembering that the only thing that's left to do is live.
Don't even think about apologising, Anna.
I understand completely <3
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
That doesn't sound dumb at all, Adam. I can see why that's overwhelming. Try and calm yourself down. Read through the list slowly, taking your time. You are in no rush *cuddles*
As Cath said, just pick one at random, and start there?
Or pick ones that have lots of photos that might help you understand more about the project without having to trawl through all the details?
Trouble with trying to pick at random is even after I narrowed it all down to the projects i'd like to do there are over 10 pages of charities, with 25 entries on each page. And they're in alphabetical order, so if I only chose from page 1 I'd only have Brazil and Bolivia to choose from. No choice of China, or Mongolia, or Vietnam.
And there are no pictures. it's just blocks of text. I have to read through them all but I just can't manage it. I just tried and I couldn't get though entry one.
It's just so dumb. I want to do this, but I can't even bring myself to make a decision on where to go and what to do.
How do you choose? How do you pick between teaching English in Brazil and digging a well in Ghana? Or taking part in a archaeological dig in Mongolia? or tagging sea turtles in Australia?
I've not even applied until I've chosen one. And even then I'd have no grantee of getting an interview, then I'd have to impress at the interview to be 1 of 16.
How would I even impress at the interview, I can't even get past this simple first step.
It's too much. it's just too much. I'm just totally overwhelmed.
Don't be fooled by my smooth skin. The deepest scars are the ones unseen.
Remember compliments you received, forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how..~ Baz Lurhman.
Letting it get to you - You know what that's called? Being alive. Best thing there is. Being alive right now that's all that counts. ~ Doctor Who "The Doctors Wife" 06.November.2011
That doesn't sound dumb at all, Adam. I can see why that's overwhelming. Try and calm yourself down. Read through the list slowly, taking your time. You are in no rush *cuddles*
And there is a rush Gabz. the deal has to be struck with the charity and my application filled out by the 17 of June. Might sound like along time but how long will it take to talk to the right person at these charities and get it all worked out. Paperwork can take days.
I might not have enough time even now.
Don't be fooled by my smooth skin. The deepest scars are the ones unseen.
Remember compliments you received, forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how..~ Baz Lurhman.
Letting it get to you - You know what that's called? Being alive. Best thing there is. Being alive right now that's all that counts. ~ Doctor Who "The Doctors Wife" 06.November.2011
What about the places you want to visit on your round the world trip?
you could narrow it down by only including those in your list of possibles. Try not to stress over it, it's meant to be a positive thing!
Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do you want?
Adam, you are putting way too much pressure on yourself. Reading large blocks of text can be overwhelming to everyone, especially when tired. Take a step back to relax. Paperwork will certainly not take that long. You have plenty of time.
You enjoy English, right? The teaching English one sounds amazing <3
I'm so stupid. I dream of this sort of thing. it's a life changing opportunity and I want to do it so much. SO WHY CAN'T I CHOOSE!
why can't I even read an entry without feeling like my head has been hit against the wall. it's too much and I just feel like I want to run from it. run from the choice and try and forget it.
Don't be fooled by my smooth skin. The deepest scars are the ones unseen.
Remember compliments you received, forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how..~ Baz Lurhman.
Letting it get to you - You know what that's called? Being alive. Best thing there is. Being alive right now that's all that counts. ~ Doctor Who "The Doctors Wife" 06.November.2011
You enjoy English, right? The teaching English one sounds amazing <3
English as in the language, not the literature thing.
And what do I know about teaching?
Why'd I even choose that?
so stupid.
Don't be fooled by my smooth skin. The deepest scars are the ones unseen.
Remember compliments you received, forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how..~ Baz Lurhman.
Letting it get to you - You know what that's called? Being alive. Best thing there is. Being alive right now that's all that counts. ~ Doctor Who "The Doctors Wife" 06.November.2011
Why don't you put it to one side till tomorrow after you've slept. When you've got the most mental energy take another look at it then. Think about what you want to get out of the trip and choose the one that is the most likely to fit.
Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do you want?
I'd just forget about it. but my dad is the one who gave me the website.
He's expecting me to do something.
He's been on at me for ages to do something, anything, even voluntary work. Anything other than sit at home and be unemployed.
Don't be fooled by my smooth skin. The deepest scars are the ones unseen.
Remember compliments you received, forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how..~ Baz Lurhman.
Letting it get to you - You know what that's called? Being alive. Best thing there is. Being alive right now that's all that counts. ~ Doctor Who "The Doctors Wife" 06.November.2011
I'm so stupid. I dream of this sort of thing. it's a life changing opportunity and I want to do it so much. SO WHY CAN'T I CHOOSE!
why can't I even read an entry without feeling like my head has been hit against the wall. it's too much and I just feel like I want to run from it. run from the choice and try and forget it.
The fact it's your dream is why it's so difficult. This is obviously important to you. Any one of them would be life-changing, lovely. If you run away, you'll regret it.
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Originally Posted by Feel_Good
English as in the language, not the literature thing.
And what do I know about teaching?
Why'd I even choose that?
so stupid.
I personally think you'd make a very good teacher. You'd be passionate and friendly *cuddles*
I agree with Dwarf. I recommend you sleep on it <3
