*Cuddles Ally extra tight* Yeah I know its been ages. I've been better, but don't worry about me I'll be fine. Oh hunny I am so sorry I don't know what to say, is she getting treatment? *Massive cuddles again*
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
Thanks for the hugs Kat I really need them *cuddles back*
You know where I am if you need support ok? please make sure you're taking care of yourself *cuddles*
Yeah it's hard to know what to say I dont even know what to say. She's having surgery on Tuesday and then radiation or chemo depending on the results. She's my whole world, I dont know what to do.
Sorry I'm dumping all this on you I just dont know what to do :'(
Thanks hunny it means alot. I'll get through this tho, my doctor sent me a really lovely text message today and said she would try call me tonight if she could. She's soo sweet, I really don't deserve to have someone as good as her.
Well it sounds like your mum will be in good hands, so at least thats something. My step mum Karen (It feels weird calling her my step mum but anyways) had cancer last year and now she is in remisszion from it so anythings possible sweetheart. So don't lose hope, if your mum is anything like you then she is a fighter so she will pull through this. You and your family will be in my thoughts tho and if you ever need someone to talk to I am just a PM away or you can even have my mobile number if you want (Just let me know). Please don't feel sorry you are not dumping this on me. Its actually helping just to talk about other stuff, its helping keep me grounded.
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
Really glad that you're doctor is helpful, she sounds great, and you do so deserve to have someone like that, you're a kind caring beautiful person *squishes*
glad that it's helping you to talk too, but if its too much tell me k?
I know she's in really good hands, I know she's a fighter and stubborn as all hell, she keeps saying she will be ok. I just cant help fearing the worst and I am so so so scared that I am going to lose her. I just need to hurt myself to deal with this but she told me if I did it would break her.
Yeah she is wonderful and yeah I will let you know if its too much but its not. Talking/typing helps as it keeps me busy and helps me not dissociate so easily. Its natural that you would be scared hunny, I think any one would be. Try and stay safe hunny, you don't deserve to be hurting anymore than you already are. *Cuddles Lots*
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
I'm trying so so hard to stay safe for her, I know that even if I cut and dont tell her she will know, I just want something that I can control, you know? Everything's just so out of my control. I'm staying on here so I dont dissociate either and hurt myself, waiting for my meds to kick in
Oh and yes I'm poking my head in again, too. I'm trying to figure out my future and going back to school, it's interesting, yet frightening at the same time so I'm in a bit of a strange mood. I will clean my whole apartment this weekend though, as the parental units will visit, yay, joy, lol.
