The Giant Bouncy Castle - Page 804

crazykat · 07-01-2011, 03:33 PM

Very true, keep at it *hugs*
Have you had done much today?

on edge · 07-01-2011, 04:30 PM

everything is all to much just now, why is life so cruel?
just want to disappear.

*sends hugs*

crazykat · 08-01-2011, 06:50 AM

I know it's hard right now but you will get through this *hugs*

on edge · 08-01-2011, 11:02 AM

*hides in the corner* dont feel safe no more need to hide away so he cant find me and hurt me again

Asanunu · 08-01-2011, 12:01 PM

*Hugs jo*

No, Kat. Not really much to do. Spend most of the day in my room, hiding away.

I know its not healthy...but...

I need to find a counselor. Either that, or I'm going to wind up inpatient again.

But seems like every place around here, you either need insurance or cash out the ass, and I have neither...

Like the only place I do know of that is free wouldn't take me. Apparently, I didn't meet their criteria. Which I dont understand...

Well..Yes, I do. They only have records of a 5 day inpatient stay. Which honestly wont tell them much...

Its frustrating..

crazykat · 08-01-2011, 12:34 PM

*Hugs Jo* Is there someone you can talk to so you can be kept safe?

*Hugs Asanunu* Good luck with finding a counsellor, could your doctor give you a referral maybe?

on edge · 08-01-2011, 12:36 PM

*hugs tight* no i have no-one im so scared he hurt me yesterday dont want to be hurt again.
*hides deep in corner*

crazykat · 08-01-2011, 01:36 PM

You need to tell someone, what about the police? No one should be allowed to hurt you

Asanunu · 08-01-2011, 01:49 PM

He suggested the place I went to...

Honestly feels like I'm on a damn wheel you know?

This whole world involves money. Money this, money that...Dont have enough? Too bad..

Unfortunately, without insurance, and without any real place to go, I've really got no choices...

Asanunu · 08-01-2011, 01:51 PM

Jo, kat is right...No one has the right to hurt you.

:huggle: You should tell someone hon. You dont deserve that kind of treatment.

on edge · 08-01-2011, 02:01 PM

im to scared to go to the police i tried that once before and he made my life unbearable so i dropped all charges, he knows i wont tell . he can do what he likes to me and knows he will get away with it. im just weak and stupid just here to be raped and abused.

crazykat · 08-01-2011, 03:01 PM

Can you not get an intervention order taken out against him, that way he is legally not allowed to go near you otherwise he will go to jail. If you tell the police you are scared the same thing will happen as last time they will put things into place so you are kept safe.

Asanunu · 09-01-2011, 12:36 AM

Hon...

You could find somewhere else to go, get a restraining order, and file charges. If he breaks the restraining order, he'd go to jail anyways.

NO ONE is on this planet to be treated like ****. No one is on this planet just to be raped and abused.

:hug: Hon, he deserves justice placed against him. You dont deserve this.

crazykat · 10-01-2011, 03:44 PM

*Leaves hugs for you all*

Louise · 10-01-2011, 05:16 PM

how are you kat?

on edge · 11-01-2011, 10:25 AM

*comes and sits quietly in the corner* very, very low today

*hugs*

crazykat · 11-01-2011, 10:55 AM

Not the greatest, how are you Louise? *hugs*

*Hugs Jo* I hope you feel a bit better soon

on edge · 11-01-2011, 11:08 AM

*hugs kat* i cant see me ever feeling better, ive just had enough of this crappy life now, want out.

crazykat · 11-01-2011, 11:09 AM

Things will get better, it might just take time. However I really think that if you accessed some support it would help things alot for you

on edge · 11-01-2011, 11:17 AM

my dr has now got me a cpn and she is trying to arrange some counselling to help with loosing my baby. but right now everything just feels to much, ive got the funeral this week and i dont think i can face it. thats without all the abuse that keeps happening.

i feel that ive lost all my fight.