The Borderline Personality Disorder Thread - Page 8

Bleeding Angel · 06-05-2008, 02:16 PM

ha ha thanks ann, il poke you on msn when your around.

Im planning to go to the doctors to get my meds reviewed, but they dont like doing anything because its the cpns jobs and hes a ugh.

But it does seem like bpd is runing my life.

smile5 · 07-05-2008, 07:48 PM

I dont know whether what im going to talk about is to do with BPD, but I will just like some feedback or support. I am really ashamed and embarrassed about this and dont like myself for it.

Basically I daydream (make up stories in my head) about bad things happening murder, accidents, abuse, deaths anything really, but at the end of it I am always being looked after or cared for by someone. These people are usually therapists, teachers, sports coaches etc. When I watch tv I get attached to the characters and think its me being looked after. Its just comforting

Also when Im around people like therapists, sports coaches etc, I look for their attention so I can tell them how I am feeling. Maybe my hope is they will comfort me. I never make anything up, just say it how it is, but it just makes me feel like an attention seeker.

The only thing I ever talk about to friends (well only one) is my health, I have nothing else to talk about. When they talk I dont have it in me to take much notice. It makes me feel so selfish.

I just dont like what I am learning about myself. If people like friends knew what goes through my head they wouldnt want to know me and would be shocked.

pixiedust · 08-05-2008, 09:52 AM

Does anyone know of any good sites to do with BPD or any books I could read? Thanks x

Sugar and Spice · 08-05-2008, 12:34 PM

www.bpdworld.org is a good one. It gives info on the disorder, different forms of support etc etc.

Queer Fringe · 08-05-2008, 04:16 PM

I have all the bordeline personality disorder traits...but CAMHs refuse a diagnoses or assessment...grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Bleeding Angel · 08-05-2008, 04:17 PM

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Originally Posted by smile5

The only thing I ever talk about to friends (well only one) is my health, I have nothing else to talk about. When they talk I dont have it in me to take much notice. It makes me feel so selfish.

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Ido that alot, its like we have to talk about my illness, they say that i have to talk to people in my own terms.

duno just feels like its runing my life

Sugar and Spice · 08-05-2008, 04:47 PM

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Originally Posted by Queer Fringe

I have all the bordeline personality disorder traits...but CAMHs refuse a diagnoses or assessment...grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

I know it is frustrating, but CAMHs are always going to be reluctant to diagnose PDs. To diagnose them in teenagers is controversial because it is widely accepted that personality is not completely developed until shortly after the teens.

Bleeding Angel · 08-05-2008, 07:23 PM

yeah QueenFringe thats because your 14. you DONT get a diagnosis til you are 18.

i wish people would read things ive said before

Queer Fringe · 08-05-2008, 08:30 PM

Well what about my 13 year old friend who has been diagnosed with bipolar disorder? Sorry I didn't read all 8 pages...

Heidi Tiger · 08-05-2008, 08:33 PM

Bipolar is a mood disorder rather than a personality disorder, it can be diagnosed much younger. It's thought that a lot of teens show some traits of personality disorders but the majority of these grow out of it

Queer Fringe · 08-05-2008, 08:42 PM

Yes, but Bleeding Angel said that you don't get a diagnosis until ur 18, BD is still a diagnosis?

Queer Fringe · 08-05-2008, 08:43 PM

I should probably leave...before everyone...like, hates me...so yeah...sorry for butting in...err, bye...

Stellata · 08-05-2008, 08:47 PM

Noone here hates you...

Even if you don't have the diagnosis, it can be good to educate yourself about it, and learn strategies to help yourself through when you feel you're edging into those kind of symptoms/behaviours.
Far better to catch the possible traits now, rather that later, and find ways of coping.

Bleeding Angel · 08-05-2008, 09:19 PM

No one can speak for your friend but is highly unlikely to be diagnosed until you are 18, because under the age of that your mind is still growing and developing, so anything you can be diagnosed with can change.

Maybe your friend didnt get diagnoised but had it mentiond in passing? and even if they did, it depends how bad they are and it might not be a definate diagnosis.

Sugar and Spice · 08-05-2008, 09:25 PM

No one hates you Queer Fringe.
Tbh, it's only PDs that they won't diagnose to under 18s. For other disorders (mood disorders, anxiety disorders etc) diagnoses in under 18s is legitimate.
That will be why your friend recieved the diagnosis of bipolar and why CAMHs aren't diagnosing you with BPD.

Bleeding Angel · 08-05-2008, 11:30 PM

Id say it would be much better not to know, I dunno, ive only knowen for a year and i think its just ruined alot of things im my life.

sorry i didnt mean anything against you, im just not in a great mood :P

jsthoping · 09-05-2008, 09:17 PM

i'm just of the bs that comes with it...think i need to go in for intentvise dbt for about 30 days...

Bleeding Angel · 10-05-2008, 02:16 AM

that might help anything thats worth helping in some ways is worth it.

Bleeding Angel · 12-05-2008, 12:08 PM

More people should vistit this thread, its so empty

Heidi Tiger · 12-05-2008, 12:51 PM

Perhaps they should!
I've strongly denied having BPD but I'm gradually coming to terms that this is me. And at the moment I'm in a bad patch, I'm so volatile. I can go from giggling and hyper to slitting veins open within hours. It's getting kind of scary, the other night I passed out in A+E twice from bloodloss. But I'm not getting much help at the moment, I'm being referred on to 2 places but haven't heard anything. My next psychologist appointment is a month away. Not sure how to cope in the interim.