Helpless girl (is there another name I can call you.. This doesn't suit you sweetie) I care about you because you are valuable and special and you are not what you think you are! Who told you that you are darkness/evil? Your parents? A trusted adult who lied and hurt you? It sounds like you have encountered God before and think He's done with you. So not true! That is a lie! You are never a lost cause with the one who loves so much. We are all sitting here thinking of killing ourselves and he did that for us. He let people murder him just to rescue us from death. So no way does death or darkness or evil live inside you! Listen to me and all the people here who are calling out to you... You matter to us. You are important. And whatever decision you have made is not permanent. I'm so so sad that you are feeling this overwhelming pain. I've been diagnosed bipolar and it comes with it lots of horrible thoughts and ideas and voices and stuff too. Do you have those symptoms? How do you really know who to listen to?
erm really dont want to, really scared of being locked up. i tend to bottle things up. find it very hard to tell people how i feel. the crazy thing is i got out of a really bad place, only to put in a worse one. cant seam to catch a break.
God has a purpose for you, even if you don't know what it is yet, he has one for you. I don't even know my purpose yet :)
For all you know, you could be a doctor someday that saves lives of babies who are sick or may help animals get better or something, you never know! There's a whole world full of opportunities, please try to explore them a little bit, travel to a new place, do something new, before you decide to give up?
The world is so big and full of cool little stuff, you just have to go out there and find it!
1 Corinthians 10:13 No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.
Isaiah 41:10 So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
shadowed, keep talking to us here, but please also consider telling someone *there* who can help you. I understand the fear of being 'locked up' but that isn't necessarily going to happen; sometimes hospital and such is necessary, but it isn't a first option and it isn't the end of the world. The most important thing is that you are safe.
mum.....and if u want to call me something different....call me sammie....its my nickname.....but i knw for sure that god hates me with all his heart....he doesn't even think bout me....and i know for sure fr sure that the devil is inside me...hes inside me right now as we speak......i know who to listen to...which is the devil....bc i know its the right thing to do for me....and doctrs and such have been wanting to put me on bipolor...but im too young...so im just odd and mood disorder.....i need to watch wat i say now....the devil is getting angry.....so ill try and answer ur question as much as i can...and i always answer truthfully...i never lie...lying hurts and is pointless
........Its a war inside my head that's tearing my flesh off my bones........
shadowedsoul, i am so sorry you're having such a rough time. Please stay safe. do you want to talk about it on here? you can also pm me. can you please keep talking to us on here? just need to know that you're safe...
sammie, is there something else they can put you on? is there something else they can do? I'm here to help in any way i can okay?
cutiepie how are you doing?
"Best Friend, Angel of the get-through, all living is storm chasing." -A.G.
Sammie, I am crying for you. God does not hate you at all love. He is trying to talk to you through me and cutiepie and others. He will never push himself on you but He waits at the door and knocks. He is aching to be the One inside you. All you have to do is invite him and he will kick the devil out. He is soooo much stronger than the devil. And the devil lies to you if he says you will be with him when you die. God has already spoken that the devil will be cast into a lake of fire. God wants you with him and he's speaking to you this way because he does not force anyone.
I'm not giving up on you! Please keep talking to me. I'm out in my car now but I'll keep checking for your posts because you are worth it
im worth it huh? i know im not worth it...im not worth anything.....and i believe with all my power that the devil is so the way to go....
xxeraynxx......im not on any meds...bc everyone thinks i made my med doctr belive that i don't need them any more...and so since i don't need them any more..he stopped my appointments....which im soooo glad for.....but he said to call him in case i think i need to be put back some....and im not gonna call him....im not gonna take any more meds....they don't help me....they don't like me and i don't like them.....
but mum....u shouldn't care for me......no one can care for me...im helpless....im worthless...im no good....im nothing, nada, zilch.......
........Its a war inside my head that's tearing my flesh off my bones........
im sry mum.....i didn't mean to hurt u...im so sry.....gr8....im such a jerk!!!! this is y i dnt chat with people....this is y i dnt have any friends....im a loner and im a jerk.....all i do is hurt people....i can't.....i can't handdle this any more....i....i can't handle this pain any more.....i can't...i just can't.......
........Its a war inside my head that's tearing my flesh off my bones........
Sammie I care about you too!! can you call him and tell him that you dont like the meds and ask if he can do something else for you? can i ask why you dont like them? I hate taking all my pills but they will help most the time. Keep talking to us sammi
Shadowedsoul keep talking to us lovely, what are you thinking about?
"Best Friend, Angel of the get-through, all living is storm chasing." -A.G.
thank you guys. i just need to hang on untill mid feb. hopefully thing will get better then. just feel so damn worthless and a failure. damn it im i such a waste of space.its not ment to be this screwed up. cries.
Sammie, please don't feel guilty. People care, and always will, but that's agood thing, it isn't your fault, you don't need to feel bad. We want you to keep talking to us.
Shadowed, why do you think things will get better then? I really hope they do. You are not a waste of space at all, what makes you think that? You are worth so much.
erayn, I'm not great at all but thank you so much for asking. No doubt I'll survive. How are you doing? Hope you're alright.
erm because i have screwed my life up, and now people are still screwing me over, and take great pleasure in doing it. and people keep telling me im stuiped and bullying me, because i find it hard to stick up for myself. sorry that sound pathetic
Sammie you didn't hurt me. It just hurts when people we care about are hurting. I want to help you. And see... You just proved you are not evil, because you cared about me. That means a lot to me love.
i can't sustain being safe any more....im blowing up.....im erupting.....and the only person who is in danger is myself......i just can't belive wat a selfish punk ive become.....im such a.....i can't think of the correct word....all i know is that i loath and dispise myself.....thats it...im done!!!! i had enough of being safe!!!!!
........Its a war inside my head that's tearing my flesh off my bones........
"Best Friend, Angel of the get-through, all living is storm chasing." -A.G.
