Thank you Claire, it was just a little something to bring you luck xx
im really not feeling too good. my anxiety is really high and im not sleeping
my appetitie has gone which happens with anxiety..im just shutting myself away.
I have a date to meet the reverand, its been changed, but i have a date,
I am so scared, scared beyond belief..but i will go
Can you try and do some relaxing things to try and ease your anxiety? Also doing a bit of relaxation stuff can often help anxiety. Also I know you probably know this but shutting yourself away will make you feel worse and will make your anxiety worse. I understand your scared about seeing the reverand but it might help to talk to someone so I am glad you are giving it a go. Take care
Kat xxx
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
Im going to try to get my daughter an appointment online tonight...if theres another one going i will take it, failing that i see him next week anyway..
...not good, but having come so far i dont want to back track
I managed to get an appointment and he was really understanding.
As id been off the chlorpromazine for he week he said he could prescribe me a new med so i am now on pregabalin, twice a day, I hope it helps
the only downside is that it can cause weight gain which i really dont need, but ill see how it goes
I hope that the new meds help a little, thinking of you.
k x
Doubt yourself and you doubt everything you see. Judge yourself and you see judges everywhere. But if you listen to the sound of your own voice, you can rise above doubt and judgment. And you can see forever.
hey ribeeena, maybe you just needed to cry? a champagne bottle will only hold its cork for so long and once you begnin shaking it, you stand no chance, it just needs to get out.
you need some daily support, and your husband wants to be there for you, but how can he unless he knows everything?
matthew only has to breathe a bit funny and i know he's panicking or having a bad nightmare, and we sort it there and then. I stroke his hand to keep him grounded and I hold him. then we talk about it, whether its daytime or 3 in the morning.
Mand, South Wales, Full-time working, single mother to 2 scarily independent girls.
I AM A PROUD PLUMERIA SISTER
Thank you kat and mand xx
Good to see you Katkin, how are you? xx
things arent good, the meds have helped me with my anxiety but have made me brain numb, in that i dont feel anything...no emotions what so ever. maybe this will settle down but i really dont like the feeling. I feel like i could just sit and stare into space all day and wouldnt really notice
i cant think clearly....sleep is good now though
maybe it will pass, i hope so. I see my doc next friday so i will mention it to him then
Rowie numb is good! youknow why you go numb? Overload! The brain says this is too much and i need to sht down. Follow what the docs say. If they change then follow the detox to the letter.
Letting go of sickness is scary as ****.
~Phoenix~ is my Little Sister of Awesomeness and Self-Delusion :P Bitter Angel is my Mitten Animad is my Top Trump All Im Living For - Is my beautiful and special daughter who isnt called Kim but will moan if i dont add her :P
I have just sent an email to the reverand i was due to see on the 1st of december. The way i am feeling right now, there is no way i can face seeing him and face upto my demons. I just couldnt imagine talking to him...words dont come easy right now
Im not up to travelling all that way. I just want to shut myself away
I feel i should cry but im empty...these pills have taken away any emotion that i had. I feel foggy all the time and sad..depressed maybe. I dont want to mix with anyone, i dont want to see anyone i dont want to take part in anything I want to shut myself away and let everything just drift past me
maybe ive let myself down. maybe ive passed up a good opportunity....but there you go..im not in the right frame of mind and i just want to stay in my home and go nowhere
i need to feel
im desperate to feel
i need to harm to feel something
i need to feel im alive
that im here
im almost scared as its been two weeks and i rarely allow my arm to heal
but its something i have to/want to do
i havent told my hubby that theres no need to go out on the 1st
im not sure how he will feel or what he will think
maybe he will be disappointed in me, in a way i am of myself
but i dont have any regrets
It is not the 'right' thing for you to have done Rowie, that makes it sound like it is ok for you to be doing that to yourself and it isn't. You don't deserve it, regardless of what you think or what the destructive part of you tells yourself. I hope a+e is not too bad. Let us know how you get on and how it goes with your doctor tomorrow *hugs* x
