You're still the only light that fills the emptiness
The only one I need until my dying breath
And I would give you everything just to
Feel your open arms
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I missed having light and colours in my self portriats. So heres one to break the mould I got myself in. I've been pretty happy today, I've been really greatful for everything, even just the little things. It feels great to notice things now and again. So in truth, this shot is really about happiness. I enjoy days like this, when you can just sit and comdemplate about all the gret things in life. I actually sad at this spot for awhile just basking in the sun and thinking about everything in my life, that I love or that I need to change and etc.
You can't really see but I am actually smilling in this picture. Such a rare phenomenom in my images. Also I have no idea whats going on with that intensely coloured bokeh on the right? It annoys me.
Today was my first real attempt at playing with studio lighting, I directed it all and took all the shots. I think it turned out quite well. I'll upload a final from it later today after I finished this bowl of pasta & cheese and go sleep. My brothers birthday in 2 days and the same day England play their final match of the group phases, if they lose they probably will go out. They have really sucked.
I relaly like this one (not that I dotn relaly like your others too!) - i can see the smile, to me it kinds of looks like a revelation, like th darkness has lifted and you're seeign all the good things agian for the frist time in a logn while. It's uplifiting :)
"I would be almighty in my own world of art, even if I had to paint my pictures with my wet tongue on the dusty floor of my cell." -Picasso
"No, painting is not done to decorate apartments. It is an instrument of war." - Picasso
'I have scars becuase I have a past; but they, like my past, do not define my future'
Today was a realyl good day, I was inspired by varius images I saw today at an art exhibition at a Uni. There was some good work there. Then I went for a very long walk to this field again and it was so hot, the field looked bright white in the sun. It was definatly the wow factor. :) I was just wondering through the area which I havn't really explored before and It's such a nice place easily the most beautiful place around here. Then I went home to watch the England match and we got through the next round. :D
Went round my friends and had a massive game of football, I managed to accident to hurt the keeper in the worst place ever, but followed it up with a goal. ;) But I also got a massive lump on my leg from a foul. Just rewards maybe? But fun times.
Okay once more it's not me, people said I should take less of me, It's not strickly a 365 of self portraits now, more like mostly self portraits with a little bit of friends.
Today I have my good friend Annie at my house, we got a little bored and she wanted to get Vimto so we decieded to go to the shop with 10 mins untill it closed so I thought why not take some candles and get some shots, so we did. I think they turned out pretty good.
The most brilliant thing happend in todays lessons we were playing with lighting and I got to leap frog over a teacher for a picture. I think my life is now complete. How many pupils can say they have jumped over a tutor? :D
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At the moment, I feel like my life is on a crossroads, there is so many options to go for. But the problem is, each road has other parts breaking off on them, there not as simple as I thought. Do I go what I want, or whats best for me? While on taking the right path, will I wonder in the wrong direction? I'm at a bit of a loss. I need someone right now.
I'm currently really suffering from sleep deprivation, so I'm going to get as much as possible tonight. I dno't have to be anywhere untill 3:15. :)
Todays game; England vs Germany was quite laughable. England were a sorry excuse of a team with the embarrasing defeat of 4-1. But my hats off to Germany, what an brilliant team! Good luck Argentina! It's really a game to watch people. I think who wins that one will the cup even though it's just the semi finals.Go Argentina!
This is yesterdays image, I didn't get a change to upload it is, so here it is now. I went to the beach yesterday for the day, I decided to take my 365 in Annies eye. 'cause she has an intense eye. We couldn't find the two people who were ment to meet as lack of signal and dead phones. So we did the ole fashioned way, I wrote in giant words in sand ' Annie is here' and they found us in 10 mins. We were previously looking for them for an hour. It was great!
I have actually really grown to accept more things and how people are, what they do. Everyone is so different and it's impossible to put someone in a box as eventually that box will be completly smashed so they are so much more than what you expected, it's great when that happens but it makes me learn to not pre-judge people so much. I don't intent to, It just sort of. . Happens.
I really need to sort myself out and concentrate more on my 365, It's getting pretty bad.
It's official I really do love my friends they are so great! Okay, for my birthday awhile ago my friends went thought my Flickr contacts and emailed some of them and asked if they would make a happy birthday picture for me and they put them in a book for me which was 70ish pages long. It was about all the things they love about me and remind them of me. It was so nice as I read thought it I was simling for the whole time. they really are amazing. The book is going in my place where I keep all the things that mean alot to me.them, there is a chance in the summer I can spend more time with my friend Joy.
I wish when I got home was abit better. But I won't let it keep me down as today was just that good.
Give me back my innocence cos I wish to dream again
Like I never outgrew my old playground
Where the sun sets slowly with a golden crown and the leaves sing lullabies 'round vacant swings
Give me those wings, I wish to fly again.
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I thought I would upload early today, I've had a bit of a long day, but I'm suprising feeling good, I have to take my little brother to the hospital in the morning to get his cast off. At the moment I'm really trying things that I need rather than what I want. it's difficult but I'm very sure it will pay off. :)
I was asked today where I was from because in their words 'You don't look like anyone I've ever seen before' I'm not sure to take that as a compliment or not? Do I really look that strange? *sigh*
I've been adding old pictures for awhile, I'll taking new ones soon I promise. Tomorrow I have a wedding to photograph, Which should be really fun and I'm looking forward to it. Also I just love being able to wear my suit! Even though I'll die of heat.
You were there by my side on the frontline
And we fought to believe the impossible
When I thought that I fought this war alone
We were one with our destinies entwined
When I thought that I fought without a cause
You gave me the reason why
You gave me the reason to try
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Today I have been thinking alot about the people in my life, and how they seem to shape my life more than my own personal decision, I'm not sure If thats best. I have an opinion on that a best friend is one that annoys the hell of out you to get to you to do the best thing and is real with you. But I'm sure there are times that they are wrong and you should know when to agree of not. I should not let people shape my whole life, when there is something inside of me is shouting GO GO GO while they are telling me the opposite. I think I should go with my heart decision. :) I'm not quite sure that makes much sense. Maybe I'm just feeling rebelious. :)
I have this thing where I am a people pleaser, I try my best to make everyone happy, I can't help it; It's almost compulsary for me. But the problem is I seem to sometimes lose myself on the way, so I get really confused about what I want, I'm learning, not everyone will like me and I can things what I want without letting people down. It'll take a long time to lose that mentality, maybe I won't lose it. I guess It's not a bad things. Sorry for long ramblings today.
These are really awesome - you're so talented!
Please, keep posting! :]
& thanks, because these have distracted me nicely :]
It didn't matter in the end how old they had been, or that they were girls,
but only that we had loved them and that they hadn't heard us calling,
still do not hear us calling them from out of those rooms where they went to be alone for all time,
and where we will never find the pieces to put them back together.
I'm really glad my photography distracted you. :) Don't worry, I shall keep posting, I'm doing a whole 365 before I stop posting, well unless I get told to stop. :p I'll post a new picture In about 15 mins. And thank you very much. :)
I wanted some simplicity today.
The concept is easily figured out by the title but I think there is more behind it, whether it is for a person or just life in general or a lack of control. Maybe all three. I'll leave you Flickr people to decide.
It has come to my attention of how I always sound depressed when I write these things, I just wanted to say I'm not always I'm more condemplative and I think alot. I've been wanting to say something on here for awhile, But I'm not sure It's a) too personal or b) too long. It's something that happened awhile ago but still on my mind alot as an why?
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