It sounds as if it was a really positive docs appointment ldc...well done for bringing up your issues...he sounds really supportive xx
my hubby just doesnt understand some of my issues, although i have tried to explain them to him...he thinks hes being helpful by bringing me food when ive already said that i dont want anything..i think i need to talk to him again, bless him
Thanks Ev..although its annoying my hubby is keeping tabs on my drinking...he says that ive had enough and wont let me have anymore.
I just want to hide away from everything...
Mergh. I think that's probably the best way to describe it. The friend who couldn't come round yesterday is here, which is nice, but I desperately want to just drink myself into oblivion and go and shut myself in my room and... well you know.
My OH does that too. It makes me SO angry!
I'm currently putting cds on my laptop so I can burn mixed cds for my (very late) 21st bday party next month. Any suggestions?
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Ive sat my hubby down and told him that i dont want him to bring me foods from their dinner...if i choose not to eat thats a choice ive made and its a choice that shouldnt be broken.
Im afrais im not too good with music...what are you going to do for your late 21st??
Eurgh I fell asleep during supernanny last night and now I'm paying for it.
Hope you are okay rowie xx
ev - im not great with party music either lol but cheesy is always good for a dancE
"John, being brave is going where no man has gone before and with Lizzy Stark, that is NOT what you'll be doing!" - Aunt Polly.
“I told him I was going to betray you, and betray Lyra, and he believed me because I was corrupt and full of wickedness; he looked so deep I felt sure he'd see the truth. But I lied too well. I was lying with every nerve and fiber and everything I'd ever done...I wanted him to find no good in me, and he didn't. There is none.”
Hi everyone (im sorry i havent got all your names together yet)
I saw the psych and my case manager yesterday. i am upset cause i was trying my best to comply and they still said im being difficult cause i didnt go to the doctor and get a mental health care plan. i explained that i had uni all week etc and will go this week but then they said that i have to want to be treated etc etc. i do want to be treated and i said it to them, i just dont understand why the psych seemed frustrated with me. i even started meds again when i didnt really want to because they suggested it.
Every time i see them i feel more and more hopeless and suicidal. Not sure why. i thought i was doing ok and being cooperative but maybe im deluding myself? dont know
Im sorry i feel like i just come in here and talk about myself but i dont feel i can offer suggestions as i dont know you guys well enough plus im not exactly being very successful at the moment!!
Hope you are all ok for the weekend though. i just took my little girl on a bike ride. Take care xx
Hi Hun. It sounds like you were co operating to me. Sometimes officials just don't get it :(
******hugs******
I'm off to my nans for the weekend.
Xxx
"John, being brave is going where no man has gone before and with Lizzy Stark, that is NOT what you'll be doing!" - Aunt Polly.
“I told him I was going to betray you, and betray Lyra, and he believed me because I was corrupt and full of wickedness; he looked so deep I felt sure he'd see the truth. But I lied too well. I was lying with every nerve and fiber and everything I'd ever done...I wanted him to find no good in me, and he didn't. There is none.”
I went out this morning, like outside the house! Woop. Though then freaked out and went home after a while, but I did go out.
On Monday I'm flying out to see my family for 3 weeks, which will be nice. Nice to see them and to be a bit "looked after" for a while. Unfortunately, though I love my Grandad, he'll be out there basically the whole time I'm there, and I'm not allowed to have any scars uncovered incase he might see. I understand not worrying him, but I'm ok with (at least some of) my scars, and I don't see why I should essentially walk round in a burka in the south of France (currently 37C) just to keep essentially my mum happy. I'm going "home", but I won't feel comfortable for about 90% of the time. My mum also pretends she doesn't smoke around him (has about a 40-a-day habit) so my brother has to pretend he doesn't aswell.
I'm a grownup and I live on my own! I just feel like I'm being forced to almost take a step backwards. Grr
I'll be online though.
Wannabefree, it sounds like you ARE cooperating; could you speak to just one individual about this, perhaps someone who is involved in your care that you feel easiest with?
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Maybe get some camoflage make up? it might help you be able to walk around how you like. I guess your family just want to hide things so he wont be upset about it.
Ive had a strange day, was in town getting stuff an i went to sit to smoke and rest my back. This woman was sitting there as well and she started asking me about god and what i beilve and if i wanted to accept jeasus into my heart, to be forgivin and to go to heaven. Im just sitting there going erm i dont know. She then asked if she could pray for me and it was liker erm ok, so she stood there put her hand on me and prayed (i thought she ment later on tonight, not right in the middle of town with me there) after that she went. She was part of the church people that like to stand in the middle of town and preach, when i say that i mean ram religion down your throat.
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
Hi all, I will get back into replying properly soon.
I'm really pissed off. I wanted to watch some free stuff on Lovefilm but yet again my 64 bit version windows thwarts me as you can't update to the required flashplayer. Argh. Really need distraction right now.
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
I'm a bit cross, and feel like me and the OH are going to have a fight tonight. He's been shocking all week and I feel like I'm just getting no support. And he just won't listen!
How are you doing? x
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I just don't know what more I can say, or how I can say it. I feel like I've had this conversation so many times, and it doesn't change. I've bought books so he can try and understand what's going on in my brain, I've directed him to websites, I've talked to him myself, yet he STILL doesn't understand why I might be upset at, not only being left to do all the housework ( and pay the bills, the rent, buy food etc), but having money taken from me, and him staying out at the pub every night and not coming home til gone midnight.
I feel like I'd almost be better off alone; the guy I've been with for nearly 6 years clearly doesn't give a flying. Maybe the psychs are right, and this wont work
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