I spend hours online helping other people. I think about specific people I don't even know from websites all day. I somehow think these people really care about me, and they are really helped by what I say. I think if I help these people, somehow it's going to make me better. Safer.
I want to think people out there do the same thing to me.
I want someone to think about me all day, then come to check on me. That's really needy of me, but I don't care.
I care about other people. Hear that? I care about YOU! The one person out there that might read this, I love you, I care about you. When you feel like everything isn't enough, I'll be here.
I wish someone would tell me that.
And I wish I would believe it.
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I'm feeling so lost. I've never felt this needy; I've never felt like I needed someone else. But now all I can think about it how I wish someone cared about me like I know I care about other people.
I love you, I know we have never spoken before, but know that I love you for being on here.
I'm like you, I wish I made an impression on people and could help them.
Also Taz, yeah I have, BUT I need to get over my phobia of presentations first, and I don't think I can tbh.
*hugs Madison* I LOVE YOUUUUU <3 :) If you ever need to talk, my PM box is always open.
*hugs Hannah* Sorry to hear you didn't get the job :( How are you doing battling the urges?
*hugs Julie* when you posted that, it was 6:15am my time :P How are you doing?
*hugs Katy* Well I don't really know what to say then =/ Nobody that I know of is taking English. You're smart though, I'm sure you'll figure something out :)
If someone ever says to you "You need to stop thinking so much," call them ignorant in your head and keep thinking deeper. It is this mentality that breeds stupidity and sheeple. Your mind is the most important tool you have. If you stop using it, it will atrophy.
anyone around? really struggling keep having flashbacks cos its the anniversary of something.
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4 years ago today I tried to kill myself and failed, so i'm feeling a bit like a failure because i'm still struggling now even after people told me it would get better, it isn't, I've had enough.
*hugs Katy* Sorry to hear about the flashbacks hun :( Remember that you're not a failure in the slightest <33
*hugs shoez & in another life* How're you both doing?
If someone ever says to you "You need to stop thinking so much," call them ignorant in your head and keep thinking deeper. It is this mentality that breeds stupidity and sheeple. Your mind is the most important tool you have. If you stop using it, it will atrophy.
Urgh. I have my clinical make up session today since I missed a day earlier in the term. =/ I was really happy to be done dealing with the elderly. I just don't feel I have it in me to go through another 8 hour shift with a fake smile plastered to my face. :(
If someone ever says to you "You need to stop thinking so much," call them ignorant in your head and keep thinking deeper. It is this mentality that breeds stupidity and sheeple. Your mind is the most important tool you have. If you stop using it, it will atrophy.
tada magic i dunno how i got this -------> Í
hi julie 'm 26 i love hugs i have people in my head and they will talk to u. they will behave and they wont hurt u they are...
owen nearly 10 and doesnt like being touched
amy 11 quiet and shy
kate 15 has lotsa anger but is nice
so basically i'm that weirdo who talks to herself...hi...
*hugs Kat* I'm in a lot better place in my head today than i was yesterday, or infact have been since thursday, i'm not triggered at the moment which is good. Still a bit weirded out though :/
Just stressing out over my uni work which is never good, was hoping to finish an essay today, but am 2 days behind which doesn't help matters, speaking of which, I am currently in the library now with some friends attempting to work, been here since about 1ish and I am getting somewhere, albiet slowly.
*Hugs Katy* Glad your feeling a bit better than yesterday. Sucks about the work though, I know how you feel though am really struggling to get all mine done too. I've been better, can't really focus on anything. Have been dissociating a bit today too.
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
If someone ever says to you "You need to stop thinking so much," call them ignorant in your head and keep thinking deeper. It is this mentality that breeds stupidity and sheeple. Your mind is the most important tool you have. If you stop using it, it will atrophy.
tada magic i dunno how i got this -------> Í 
