Chapter 252 Gerard and Frank sat on the floor of the kitchen in each others arms for what seemed like hours before they finally broke apart. Gerard looked deep into his fiancées eyes and gently wiped the tears away with his thumb.
"Come on, lets go up to bed" said Gerard slowly getting up and reaching out a hand to Frank, who accepted it and let himself be pulled up. Gerard slid his arm around Franks waist and guided him out of the kitchen, up the wooden stairs and into the bedroom. He watched Frank lay down on the bed and close his eyes. Gerard still felt horribly guilty as he rid himself of the shirt and trousers. He knew he was truly lucky to have Frank with him. He walked over to the bed and looked at the man he loved so much, Frank was lying there softly breathing in and out in a peaceful sleep. Gerard smiled and stroked some of Franks jet black hair out of his face before he sat up and reached for the hem of Franks shirt and lifted it up and carefully pulled it of Frank, making sure he didn’t wake him. He put the shirt on the chair in the corner of the room before he moved to Franks bottom half and carefully undid the button of Franks jeans before sliding them of and placing them with the shirt. Once the clothes were carefully put away Gerard made his way back to the bed and slid under the covers, wrapping them over him and his fiancée. He inched his way closer to Frank and wrapped an arm around the smaller mans waist and bury his head in the soft flesh of his neck. Gerard let his arm trace the curves of Franks body and stopped when he felt the scars on Franks arms, remembering the times when he found Frank in the bathroom harming himself, he still felt guilty from that. He remembered blaming himself. He blamed himself for everything that went wrong in Franks life, he blamed himself for overtime Frank was sad, hurting and upset.
Gerard let his hand leave the marks on Franks arm and wrapped it back round Franks waist and cuddled closer, letting his nostrils be filled with the scent of the man he loved. Gerard fell asleep breathing in Franks scent and listening to the gentle heartbeat of the man he loved.
Back at the Kaulitz house, the twins and Amy were sitting in the living room. The twins on one sofa, Amy on the other.
"I can’t ****ing believe you two" said Amy, giving each twin a glare.
"You would understand if you were in our shoes" argued Bill
"Well I’m not, and it would be better if you had been ****ing honest with me in the first place, I thought you would especially Bill, since we’re engaged and all that." Snapped Amy crossing her arms.
"I know but I knew you wouldn’t understand" sighed Bill
"Yeah Amy sometimes it’s best to keep these sort of things between brothers" said Tom biting his lip.
"How can it just be between you two, when it effects the whole ****ing group" cried out Amy, obviously getting angry at the twins.
"Look I’m sorry ok? You just have to understand that it’s gonna take a ****ing long time for me to even think about forgiving him" said Bill getting up and walking over to the sofa Amy was on. "I swear from now on I’m going to be perfectly honest with you"
"Ok" whispered Amy
"Ok?" questioned Bill raising a pierced eyebrow at his girlfriend
"Yes Ok" said Amy ‘as long as you apologize to both Gerard and Frank and atleast try and get along with them, I’m talking to you aswell Tom"
The twins exchanged glances before Bill turned back to Amy "Ok we will try" said Bill reaching out to hug his fiancée.
DILLIGAF
"it’s when you’re acting selflessly, that you are at your bravest"
- Four.
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Chapter 253
Frank woke up and blinked a few times before realising it must still be early since it was dark outside. He turned to the dark silhouette of his fiancé sleeping next to him and sighed. As much as Gerard hurt him, he couldn’t bear to lose him and he knew deep down that even if Gerard hurt him again, he’d always take him back, no matter how bad things got. He carefully slid out from Gerard’s arms and wandered into the bathroom. He turned the light on and stared at himself in the mirror. His reflection became distorted as more tears cascaded down his cheeks but he didn’t understand why he was crying. He sat down in front of the mirror and let his tears fall. He didn’t hear Gerard enter the bathroom behind him or close the door so that they wouldn’t wake Jaidon.
“Frankie, why are you crying?”
“I don’t know Gee.”
“It’s my fault isn’t it? I’m so sorry Frankie, you don’t deserve to feel like this or be treated like this.”
“No, no Gee it’s not you. It’s me.”
“No Frankie, I keep hurting you and I know I do and I keep on doing it. I don’t deserve all the second chances you give me. If you want to give up on me I understand.”
“No Gee! Don’t say that. I’ll never give up on us no matter what. It’s just me. I haven’t been happy for the past few weeks but it’s not you, it’s just been a hard time for everyone.”
Gerard pulled Frank up and into his arms, holding him tightly,
“I’ve been a dick Frankie, I know I have. I’ll make it up to you somehow.”
“You don’t have to Gee just…just don’t hurt me anymore please.”
“I won’t Frankie.”
Gerard took Franks hand and looked down at the scars on his arm before looking back into his eyes,
“I don’t want things to ever get that bad again.”
“They won’t Gee, we just have to…I don’t know try and make afresh start again I suppose. All that matters is you me and Jaidon.”
Gerard smiled warmly before kissing him gently and leading him back to their room. They settled back down together and Frank rested his head on Gerard’s chest, listening to his heartbeat as Gerard fell asleep. He couldn’t get to sleep himself; he just lay there trying to ignore the sick feeling creeping into his stomach. The sick feeling that told him this wouldn’t be the last time he got hurt. He guessed he just had to accept Gerard for who he was, despite his faults. At least things hadn’t gone all the way with Simon and at least there wasn’t a risk of it happening again.
Frank sighed as he felt the sick feeling worsen the more he thought about things. He turned back to face Gerard before starting to drift off to sleep, hoping so badly that today wouldn’t be any worse.
Chapter 254 Gerard woke up with the sun peaking through the partly closed curtains on the other side of the room. He looked to the side only to be greeted with a empty bed.
"Frank?" he called out, but there came no reply.
Not liking the situation, Gerard untangled himself from the mass of duvets and got up pulling on a shirt from the chair in the corner of the room before making his way out of the room.
"Frank?" he called out again.
This time he heard noises coming from the bathroom, Gerard made his way across the hallway to the bathroom and slowly pushed the door open. His eyes widened at the sight infront of him. Frank was kneeling infront of the toilet with his head in the bowl.
"Frank baby, are you okay?" asked Gerard rushing over to the toilet and wrapping Frank in his arms.
Frank nodded "Yeah, I just feel a bit off today, that’s all"
Gerard responded by rubbing circles at the bottom of Franks back. "It was probably last night that’s making you feel off, the whole night, being on the roof in the cold rain didn’t help either. Plus you haven’t eaten in days"
Frank nodded "Yeah I know, I’m really hungry"
"We’ll sort you something out" said Gerard as he hugged Frank. "are you feeling better now?" asked Gerard, pulling away from Frank a little.
"Yeah" said Frank quietly.
"Come on lets get downstairs and watch a movie or something to relax"
Frank smiled and let himself be pulled up and guided downstairs to the softness of the sofa.
"What about Jaidon" asked Frank going to get up to see his son but Gerard gently pushed him back down shaking his head.
"You stay here and rest, I’ll go look after him" said Gerard kissing the top of Franks head and heading out the room.
Before Gerard reached the stairs there was a knock on the front door, turning round Gerard went to open it, on the otherside was the black haired boy he was with the previous day.
"Hey" said Simon
"Hi" replied Gerard with no emotion in his voice "What do you want"
"Erm…" Simon said not knowing what to say.
"Look if you came round to see if I told Frank, then the answer is yes, yes I did tell him" said Gerard staring at the black haired boy in front of him.
"Oh ok" said Simon "that’s good"
"good?" cried Gerard with wide eyes "you think its good? We came very close to splitting over it and you call that good?"
"I..i.. I didn’t know. I'm sorry" said Simon shuffling from one foot to the other.
Gerard sighed and shook his head "Don’t be sorry, it’s all my ****ing fault. It always is"
"I’m sure that’s not true" said Simon smiling a little
"Wanna bet?" said Gerard, looking up to meet the deep brown eyes of the boy infront of him.
Before Simon could respond a pale looking Frankie sped by behind Gerard and raced up the stairs.
"Is he ok?" asked Simon looking concerned
"Hes fine, just sick from being out in the rain last night" said Gerard "Look, I’ll talk to you later ok?"
Simon nodded "Yeah I’ll see you later" he said before turning round and walking away from the house. Gerard closed the door after watching his now friend walk down the stone path before making his way up the stairs and into the bathroom to check on his fiancée.
DILLIGAF
"it’s when you’re acting selflessly, that you are at your bravest"
- Four.
♥
awww =[ they are awesome!! im tryin to go to the Manchester one on saturday...but got no way to get there =[ but im tryin to go to others aswell *fingers crossed*
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EEP!!! its on a friday too!! =P
O_O oooooo im ask my dad when he comes for me later!!! oooo
PLEASE SAY YES DAD!!! i must see Amy and my boys again!!!! xD
*tackles Amy*
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=O say what!!
oh yeah my dad said no to manchester...because his poor car will be exhausted! =S he thinks of that thing as a freaking person!!....*backs away from dad* and also because i havent given him enough notice...twonk
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