The Borderline Personality Disorder Thread

hugs chick ur defo not a horrid person chick. u just have friends that dont appreciate u chick. hugs please dont b to hard on urself xxxx

[Bleeding Angel]

Ive been there, but you learn that you dont want these people to be your friends if they cannot accept you for who you are. I dont think anyone really hates themselfs, but i think its more hating what the illness causes you to become and the things it made you miss out on. Theres bad stuff to life but also alot of good and the bad stuff never stays forever, sometimes its all we focus on.

Just because one part of you ended doesnt mean another one cant begin. People come and go in life and it hapens to everyone, but you have the ability to change things and that what you should focus on, you can meet new people, make new friends. You are not an awful person, its just some people feel they cant handle a mental illness or that they are too young to deal with it or they want to have fun without being brought down, they are all horrid excuses i know, but if thats thier attitude would you want to be friends anyway?

But claire, no matter what you think, you are not on your own.

[x-dying-inside-x]

Hunny you are a lovely person.

When i got ill most of my friends walked away from me and when i think about it now they couldnt have been close friends because if they were they would of stayed by my side.

Your more than welcome to pm me or txt me anytime you wanna talk hunny.
We are all here to support you!
xx

[~Grace~]

You are not an awful person Claire.

Its easier for friends to turn their backs on us rather than helping out a friend whose struggling with an illness. Its happened to me too. That makes them the awful shits not you or i or any of us and i say bollox to them...

You have us hun...we'll always be here

Love you xx

[ferretmonster]

thanks guys but the thing is, they arent awful people, we were so close or so i thought and they have mostly had personal experience of mental illness, and they are still friends without me, despite their own issues, its just me they dont want anymore

hugs chicken i can undestand how that feels. have u spoken to them about it

[Bleeding Angel]

Claire it was the with my friends, they all knew about mental illness, experianced it, but still chose to shut me out, and it hurt like hell. But sometimes your better off not going back there or talking to people, because it can make things worse.

[Left in the centre]

hey guys. sorry im exhausted to read through everything but

yes od's are harmful you can feel fine and your body might be tolerant and prolonged and high doseages will be harmful eventually. everyone reacts differently too them.

stay safe guys.

im going on holiday tomorrow for a week so wont be around . i should be excited but im nervous i might be down but ive got it covered. going with friends who know "what im like" .

speak soon guys x x

hope u have a nice time sarah x

[MrsCoulter]

Quote:

Originally Posted by Bleeding Angel

Sorry but that is a completly irresponsible thing to say. Just because you feel ok doesnt mean its not doing any damage, and just because you have went before and found it pointless getting help doesnt mean its never going to affect you. Your liver can revcover afters overdosing, but it takes 6 weeks, if you keep overdosing on top of that, then it can get get to the point where you have liver faliure, esp if you drink on top of that.

Im tired of peoples attitudes that if they od just because they arnt ill or get ill and feel fine the next day that there is no damage. If people keep oding and adding to the damage it strains your organs and they cant recover. And the sad fact is, by the time you realise you where wrong all along, its too late.

I agree to some extent. You only have to see veronika decides to die regarding odd (I haven't seen the ending tho). And I know of people on kidney dialysis for the rest of their life because of ods. I mean I know I can't really talk because I took an overdose and didn't see anyone. * hugs to all *

I've had an ok day but when I got to bed I just decided I had to cut.

[lostinlife]

Hi everyone
I haven’t been round all week just wanted to pop in and say hi.
Hellz, sorry to hear you have having such a bad time. Try and be patient with yourself and give yourself time to heal. We all have lapses. In time you will rediscover your inner strength.
Ferretmonster, congratulations on your winning bonus. Sorry to hear about the difficulties you have been having with your friends. If they are unable to see the goodness in you that’s their problem. Not yours. Believe in yourself and others will follow.
Wigglemuffin, welcome to the thread
~Grace~ wishing you better day today
Littledarkcloud sorry to hear that your appointment didn’t go well. Is this a new therapist or was it just a difficult session. Try not to let the disappointment distract you too much. Easier said than done I know.
Left in the centre enjoy your holiday. Have a great time.
Pomeranian are you ok?
After such a bad week the last two days have been really good. Just found out that I have been referred to psychotherapy. Not looking forward to it.

((Hugs)) to everyone

[x-dying-inside-x]

Hi everyone.
how are you all?
I've been talking to an old school friend who i've known for years and we have desided we are going to book a holiday for next year in september. I'm really excited thinking about it!

The psychotherapy might really help you hunny!

I hope you have a good holiday Sarah.

[~Grace~]

Hi lostinlife...im really glad youve had a couple of good days and that youve been referred to psychotherapy.
Its a good and positive thing. I know its scary and the unknown, but if its going to help you then it has to be a positive step xx

Daniella...going on holiday next year sounds a fab idea xx

Sarah...hope you have a wonderful time away hun xx

Hugs and love to all xx

[Bleeding Angel]

Tired so tired, i had an oh no moment last night. My back just hurt like hell and hurt to move when i was sleeping so i was expecting to wake up this morning unable to move, but its ok.

Tired of pain killers.

[x-dying-inside-x]

Did they say how long it will be until your back starts to get better hunny?

How are you Rowie?

I need something to look forward after i've finished my exams and before i start uni so a girls holiday for two weeks and then mum wants me to go away with them for two weeks aswell.

[Bleeding Angel]

they said 6 weeks, so its been a month so another 2 weeks, but i highly doubt it.

[~Grace~]

I really hope the pain eases for you soon mari, hows the Tens going?


Why is it when things dont go my way i get a huge rage inside of me...enough for me to hurt myself
I feel like a child throwing a tantrum..maybe its the inner child in me if i have one

[ferretmonster]

hi guys,

mari x hope it gets better soon hun

rowie, just remember i lubs ya please try stay safe xxx

lostinlife glad thngs have improved for you last few days

[~Grace~]

Hows my lovely Claire? Hope youve had a good day hun....mwah xxxx


Ive done something and im so angry with myself..I went out and binged with my family. I hate myself somuch for it..Sighs..such a good day in some respects and a bad day in others...

and

I see my doc on wednesday about the higher dose of meds. To see if theyre working and im not sure if he is trying to pull the wool over my eyes, so to speak...he reckons my moods will be stable if the meds are working, but how can the higher dose work after just a week? What if i say that I feel stable and he knows that im telling porkies just to stay on them? Im just so scared hes going to take them away from me.

Its strange you know, I fought tooth and nail not to be put on meds at the beginning of all this, and now i want to be on them and i dont know why....maybe its clarification for me that i am ill. That seems to be really important to me right now...I dont know why. Gedtting better really doesnt seem to be an issue for me with the meds, and yet it should be...

I dont know, there are times when i just dont make sense

[youngatheart]

Evening everyone. I havent been around all week as I have been at my parents house, they have been on holiday. Rowie~ its ok to eat loads sometimes and its important to have these social things with your family hun!
How is everyone tonight?