The Borderline Personality Disorder Thread

[wigglemuffin]

Are you Ok, PM if you want, I don't mind x

[x-dying-inside-x]

Whats up rowie?

I'm not too bad just waiting for this film to start!

[wigglemuffin]

Oooh, more interesting than what I'm doing, I keep dropping off :P x

[x-dying-inside-x]

I think it's the heat because ive done nothing today yet im really tired!

[wigglemuffin]

Yeah lets blame the heat...bad heat! :) x

[~Grace~]

sorry...im ok just a slip up xx

[wigglemuffin]

We all slip up, the most important thing is how you pick yourself back up afterwards =) x

[x-dying-inside-x]

hunny that doesnt make you naughty at all.
We all have slip ups hunny its part of recovery.

[wigglemuffin]

^^ agreed! We are only human after all x

[~Grace~]

Thankyou...its just that i dont feel right.
Im trying to be cheery but its not happening for me
I feel so dull and low...miserable
I want to do it again

[Bleeding Angel]

Quote:

Originally Posted by hellz

unfortunatly i'll be ok i have a new theory with ods its not get help cos they never do any damage

Sorry but that is a completly irresponsible thing to say. Just because you feel ok doesnt mean its not doing any damage, and just because you have went before and found it pointless getting help doesnt mean its never going to affect you. Your liver can revcover afters overdosing, but it takes 6 weeks, if you keep overdosing on top of that, then it can get get to the point where you have liver faliure, esp if you drink on top of that.

Im tired of peoples attitudes that if they od just because they arnt ill or get ill and feel fine the next day that there is no damage. If people keep oding and adding to the damage it strains your organs and they cant recover. And the sad fact is, by the time you realise you where wrong all along, its too late.

[wigglemuffin]

Try and keep yourself distracted, keep talking if it helps I don't have much advice, but anything I can do to help just let me know xx- to Rowie

[~Grace~]

Thanks Wiggle...my family have all come in now so it will be hard for me too,
I guess thats a kind of distraction xx

[wigglemuffin]

Yeah, thats my way of not doing it sometimes, surround myself with people cos I know I won't do it then...and anytime =) hope you're ok! :) x

[hellz]

Quote:

Originally Posted by Bleeding Angel

Sorry but that is a completly irresponsible thing to say. Just because you feel ok doesnt mean its not doing any damage, and just because you have went before and found it pointless getting help doesnt mean its never going to affect you. Your liver can revcover afters overdosing, but it takes 6 weeks, if you keep overdosing on top of that, then it can get get to the point where you have liver faliure, esp if you drink on top of that.

Im tired of peoples attitudes that if they od just because they arnt ill or get ill and feel fine the next day that there is no damage. If people keep oding and adding to the damage it strains your organs and they cant recover. And the sad fact is, by the time you realise you where wrong all along, its too late.

if that were true i'd be screwed by now i've taken 3 ods this week and been drinking but the fact is that sadly im fine and will remain so.

[lost and lonely]

I'm so sorry that i've not been around.......not been feeling great.....had app with psych on thur didn't go well.....god i'm so ****ed off....i don't know what else to do.

welcome wiggle...

sorry i have no words of advice for anyone...(this makes me feel useless)......

giving out my love kisses and (((hugs)))

[ferretmonster]

Quote:

Originally Posted by hellz

if that were true i'd be screwed by now i've taken 3 ods this week and been drinking but the fact is that sadly im fine and will remain so.

in that case i can go find my stash then

[x-dying-inside-x]

*hugs* littledarkcloud.

Hellz you are doing damage to yourself, it can take weeks for liver failure to kick in and then its too late.

[Bleeding Angel]

Quote:

Originally Posted by hellz

if that were true i'd be screwed by now i've taken 3 ods this week and been drinking but the fact is that sadly im fine and will remain so.

Ugh you know what go ahead then, but dont come back crying when your ****ed. If you want to pretend like its all ok and not harming you go ahead, organ fauilre doesnt happen overnight, it can take weeks. But you obviously dont care either way.

But posting and telling other people its fine and dandy and will cause no harm it not on.

[ferretmonster]

im sorry but i dont know where else to let this out,

i was angry, so angry and upset that people have disowned me claiming to be friends (no this is not a bpd thing it is just some ppl i thoguht i was very close to no longer wanted to be around me once i got ill)and some people who turned on me once i got ill

instead of help i got shat on

and no i was not blameless i know this but it hurts so ****ing much and it still hurts, i want to tell them what cunts they are and the fact they havent once asked how i am

but now i just hate me, ive already binged and purged several times today and i cant hold the urges back anymore

i hate i lost my old life and got given this one, trapped i hate it

i guess im just a **** human being, hey maybe it is the bpd maybe im a horrid horrid person who cant get along with other human beings, i checked my phone thinking i want to reach out. theres not a single person on there no one other than my darling rowie, thats how awful a person i am.