*hugs ShyGirlEiana* i don't know what to say, except i think you're doing really well to recover, and being happier doesn't mean you can't need other people. even the happiest people in the world need the people around them.
*hugs Mim* Thanks :) Yeah, it's frustrating, because part of me knows that being happier doesn't mean I can't need other people...but it's still how I feel. I think it might have something to do with growing up as isolated as I did - out on a farm, with no kids my age around really - and just growing up in the family environment I did. Expected to be independent, be able to do everything on our own, etc. But now that I've figured that out - I think I'll bring it up with my therapist next week :)
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and ShyGirl, i don't suppose i could share your corner just a little while? i think i need soem company i'll try not to take up your space :)
And I'm sorry I didn't reply for a few days - you are always welcome to share my corner, Mim There is plenty of space - and plenty of comfy blankets, pillows, and teddy bears! And in response to your latest post - it is perfectly okay to be self-indulgent when you feel like poo! Caring for yourself and just being real kind and gentle with yourself is a good thing to do when you're feeling bad. *offers cuddles* Anything you want to talk about?
*hugs Asphyxia* You are not lame...I think being scared is normal. I know I definitely was. Well, I have been quite a few times, actually. Asking for help is hard. It took me over a year to tell anyone about my depression. But please keep trying! It's so worth it in the end. Why do you feel like a bad person (If you don't mind sharing)?
Why do you feel like a bad person (If you don't mind sharing)?
I'm not quite sure, because I haven't actually done things that would support this notion I have of myself. It's just this constant underlying feeling that I have...a negative loop playing inside my head 24/7. I also have excessive amounts of guilt over nothing, so I'm sure that doesn't help.
ShyGirl: thank you *accepts cuddles* i won't bore you with it now, it'll pass eventually
Asphyxia: i have similar feelings. have you told a doctor about it, explaining like you did in your post just here? apparently it's treatable, though not having been treated for it yet i don't know any more than that.
Asphyxia: i have similar feelings. have you told a doctor about it, explaining like you did in your post just here? apparently it's treatable, though not having been treated for it yet i don't know any more than that.
Yeah, but I haven't been to anyone long enough to sort through it...Like, I've been to 3 people in the last 2 years, and I think they see it as just a serious self-esteem issue...However, my first therapist did allude to a couple of disorders, now that I think in retrospect...Mostly avoidant or borderline type stuff. (It doesn't help that I've read case studies and course of treatment for both. Some of the questions were too familiar...)
The psychiatrist just said "I need to work on it," and the last psychologist just sat there and nodded her head. *frustrated*
I just need to get the guts to call someone. Fast.
sounds very annoying. i'm not one to talk on the courage front, but i hope you tell someone soon - who are you thinking of calling?
A psychologist in town...I got some names from the first 3. Ha.
Yeah. I'm calling today. I can't deal with this. I can't even articulate how bad I feel, and in a week I will be living alone. I can just sense it's going to get worse...I'm going to become a total shut-in.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
-crawls onto castle-
helloo?
i'm meant to be in bed, s'only 11 though. maybe i'll go in a minute. i don't want to, i want the night to hide me for ever.
fyi: i'm corner~sleeping tonight. f* scared for the morning
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-crawls onto castle-
helloo?
i'm meant to be in bed, s'only 11 though. maybe i'll go in a minute. i don't want to, i want the night to hide me for ever.
fyi: i'm corner~sleeping tonight. f* scared for the morning
Why are you scared for the morning?
The phone call went well, though I was nervous. I was all worried about insurance stuff b/c I'm still under my parents'....but I kind of don't care at this point! Whatever. At least I am going, right?
There is plenty of space - and plenty of comfy blankets, pillows, and teddy bears! And in response to your latest post - it is perfectly okay to be self-indulgent when you feel like poo! Caring for yourself and just being real kind and gentle with yourself is a good thing to do when you're feeling bad. *offers cuddles* Anything you want to talk about?
I was all worried about insurance stuff b/c I'm still under my parents'....but I kind of don't care at this point! Whatever. At least I am going, right?