Claire-Rose-I am so glad to hear you resisted those urges last night and it's great that you've made an appointment to see a doctor too. You can always request to see a female doctor if that would make you feel more comfortable, but nevertheless it's awesome that you plan to attend and I really hope it results in you getting the support that you need. Well done for going for a walk too!
Ailsa-Yay! Well done you for getting over your fear. It just shows what a great time we can have if we feel the fear but do it anyway!
Jenna-That's AMAZING! You have been so utterly fantastic when it comes to pro-recovery-ness lately that you deseserve one of these, and these, and this. Also this thread and STOP! Do this NOW! are just incredible and do so much when it comes to nudging people towards a happier and healthier life. Be proud of yourself, you're amazing.
Jodie-Needless to say you are also a decidedly awesome and wonderful person! I know a little more now about how hard it must be to battle those commands but you're stronger than you think and I know you can fight this. You are such a genuinely caring and intelligent person with so much to offer the world and you deserve ALL the happiness.
Lorraine-You're so right. What a mature conclusion to come to :) Are you getting any support at the moment with your negative feelings?
You cannot get through a single day without having an impact on the world around you What you do makes a difference, and you have to decide what kind of difference you wish to make.
i have not done this quite yet as my mind isnt really working today but I am going to TRY and ring someone about how on earth im feeling as the texts i've sent are getting replies but I sort of feel like I need to hear there voice as well so they seem a little bit more real to me. does that even make sense to anyone?
WELL DONE EVERYONE!! IM SUPER PROUD OF YOU ALL xxxx
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Jenna, well done on the nomming front! Also, a big cheer for resisting urges to send bitchy PRs and stalk ALL the people! :)
Jodie, that's a huge accomplishment - don't underestimate what you're doing by challenging these thoughts, it takes a huge amount of effort and bravery, so well done!
Lorraine, well done. That sounds like very positive thinking right there! Going out and doing stuff is really good, and I hope you had fun, but it's also important to rest yourself afterwards and not feel guilty for doing so, and that's exactly what you did! So well done :)
Claire-Rose, well done lovely <3 You're being so brave and amazing, and you're definitely not a ball of grossness. I've also said this before, but a huge well done on making the appointment and not freaking out about it being a male doctor - you'll do fine *nods*
Annie, that makes sense - I hope you're able to make that phone call.
Thank you all for your support. I'm trying to make sure I do post in here, as I've been feeling like I'm doing none of the heroic things. However, last night when I was triggered, instead of isolating myself and harming, I decided to get my friend to sleep in my room with me, so that I wasn't alone and couldn't hurt myself. She didn't know what was going on, but was still a big help!
"And sometimes when our fights begin,
I think I'll let the Dragons win...
And then I think perhaps I won't,
Because they're Dragons, and I don't."
Today I answered the phone 3 times without having a panic attack. Two phone calls were for jobs I'd applied for the other was to say I have an assessment in a few weeks for a voluntary position abroad which made me really excited!
I also emailed a local charity to arrange a meeting to discuss volunteering there.
I didn't self harm myself physically today, despite things being and feeling really horrid.
Instead I went for a long walk in the rain in Hampstead Heath woods, it helped.
Somebody who comes with bad memories has been in contact, and my new foster siblings arrived today but I've been brave and not done anything 'drastic'...
And there will come a time, you'll see, with no more tears. And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears...
Annie: Phone calls are hard for me too, so I know this will be a big thing. Well done!
Ailsa: Well done sweetheart! You're doing so well, well done for keeping up with resisting urges, and seeking help from your friend.
Kia: It sounds like you're coping well! A new foster sibiling must be exciting, but I can also understand emotions around it, so I'm glad you're managing to stay brave.
I went to my doctors appointment today, and he was actually really nice (Although i did need my mum in the room with me). Getting reffered to a specialist at a different hospital to what I normally go to, so, fingers crossed!
And yet, by heaven, I think my love as rare,
As any she belied with false compare.
I went to see my doctor and have been put back on medication, and taken it, despite really really wanting to be free of it, I decided to do whats good for me.
"If only everyone could know and live with their inner craziness…people would be fairer and happier." Paulo Coelho
Well done happydays I understand how hard it is to accept that you have to take medication I begrude having to need to take mine too. I hope it helps you.
Hellokittymad congratulations on getting the job and into the last year of college
I have survived the day minute by minute, hour by hour
Today I have gotten up early, showered, eaten properly and applied for some more jobs. I also had to attend a stupid, complete waste of time meeting, today without panicking.
Hello folks! Well done everyone for being super-heroic!
Ailsa- well done for asking your friend to sleep in your room, so that you'd be able to keep yourself safe. That was an excellent plan!
Annie- I hope you managed to make that phone call, that's a brave thing to try to do :) Congrats on your job and making it into college :)
Claire-Rose- Well done for resisting urges, that's great! I'm glad the doctor was helpful, and I hope the referral will be equally so!
Conor- Well done for making the GP appointment, I hope it goes well!
Katie- well done for finding a safe and relaxing alternative to self harming.
Kia- congratulations on being so brave and not taking 'drastic' action! [I'm enjoying your phrasing there!]
Laura- Well done for managing those phone calls, and for being pro-active about organising volunteering! And also good show on getting yourself up early and having a productive day.
Lorraine- I hope you had a fun pub lunch and it's great that you didn't feel
guilty about napping- you're very right about depression being a very legit reason to need more rest! And btw, I love your hugging emoticon, the one with the big long arms :p
Sarah- Well done for surviving. Sometimes taking the day a little bit at a time is the best way to go about it!
singing potato- what a fun username! And well done for standing up to your father. I hope that made you feel empowered :)
xxhappydaysxx [I think I know your name, but only from a meet board, so not sure if you use it on the public forums]- Well done for taking the medication, I hope it really helps you!
In Jenna news, I am six weeks free of self harm. I'm not sure I deserve any praise for EDness though. :-/ BUT IN LIGHTER NEWS, I've been managing my mood swings a little better these past few days I think, and not been horrid or argumentative to my girlfriend [I hope she would agree with this statement!].
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Laura, well done for answering the phone! Especially as it was for job stuff, your efforts paid off! Also well done for e-mailing the charity :) AND a big well done for yesterday's heroics! Attending stupid waste of time meetings is incredibly frustrating, so well done for doing that without panicking.
Katie, well done for not self-harming physically, and for going for a walk instead. That was very brave and sensible of you.
Kia, well done for keeping yourself safe amidst all this stress! <3
Claire-Rose, again, well done for going to your doctor's appointment. You were so very brave, and it all went fine, so your bravery paid off :) I hope the referral goes ok.
Sian, again, well done on going back to your medication. I think it was the right choice and I'm very proud of you.
Annie, well done for going to college and getting into your last year! Also congratulations on your new job :)
thumbelina [someone whose name I don't know, shock horror :O], well done on surviving your day. I know how hard that can be sometimes, and taking it little by little got you through it, so well done :)
Conor, well done on making another GP appointment. I hope you get your referral and it's helpful to you.
Megan(?), well done for standing up to your father again - that was really brave.
Jenna! A HUGE well done for being 6 weeks free of SH! And well done for managing your mood swings, and ALSO sending a SRS BSNS e-mail when in ceeb mode. Sounds like a productive day so far :)
I weighed myself this morning [bad idea] but overcame the ensuing panic and urges to eat none of the food, which, despite my being whale-sized, was not a good OR healthy plan. [Thank you Claire-Rose for listening to and correcting my whinging at some stupid time in the morning not conducive to useful thought].
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"And sometimes when our fights begin,
I think I'll let the Dragons win...
And then I think perhaps I won't,
Because they're Dragons, and I don't."
Well done you for getting over your fear. It just shows what a great time we can have if we feel the fear but do it anyway!.gif "thumb")
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. Also this thread and STOP! Do this NOW! are just incredible and do so much when it comes to nudging people towards a happier and healthier life. Be proud of yourself, you're amazing.
