Perhaps it's time to find any positives that you can in the situation ... any good feelings et cetera. Always here for you Dayna.
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
Sorry Dayna if I could offer advice on that I woul but I have really bad luck when it comes to love sorry. *Safe and suportive hugs*. My internet is driving
Can I just say ... Ahhh, men! *throws hands up in the air*
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
*Pokes head out of denial tent* Cool snow, never seen it. Wish I could. Hope you are having fun in the snow Helen. *Pops back into the denial tent leaving hugs and hot chocolate for all*
Gee it's been busy in here, feel like I've missed loads :P
My friend finally replied to one of my texts. On new years day she replied with a snide comment about how I didn't help enough to clean up the sick.
She's replied to tell me she can't come out with me. She avoided my phone calls on Saturday night, and I know she did because I phoned her three times and when I asked my mate to phone her she answered straight away.
I think she didn't come out because I was there. There was a pause in the conversation where my other mate said 'uh yeah she is, there's a bunch of us here' and then she said she wasn't coming. Can't help but think she'd said 'is Arwen there?'
I'm in one of those 'states' where all I feel like doing is lying in bed.
I've got a few things which need doing, but all I feel like doing is lying here.
It's also all I've done today so far. =\
Ravyn: Yeah, we finally had the talk we needed. I still feel terrible though ;-;
Zowie: *Hugs back* I'm sorry to hear that you're getting such trouble off your mates >___O
Lucy: Mmm, I know what you mean. I hardly want to do anything today, either
Kat: >__< *Hugs tightly*
Mary Anne: Don't worry about it, it's perfectly understandable. But I'm glad to hear that you've gotten rid of his number. I might not know your situation, but I've read enough to get the impression that the less contact with him, the better *hugs*
*Hugs anyone she missed*
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Like I said earlier, I feel. Like. ****. I think I had a mini-breakdown last night or something. I think all the pain about this whole ****ing situation that I'd kept more or less to myself came tumbling out. After our conversation, my mood kept swinging dramatically. I was fine one minute, then blinking back tears the next. And I was okay when I came offline to get ready to go to bed, and sort of crumpled. Kept struggling with horrible thoughts of suicide again, as well x________x.
Went into the living room, and the tears just started. And I cried. And cried. And cried. ****, I actually ended up collapsing to my knees and clinging onto the Goddamn armchair just for something to hold, and sobbed myself stupid. I could hardly stop.
I don't have trouble with crying. I well up, and tears fall easily, but it's just crying for more than a few minutes that I have trouble with. It tends to stop after five, tops, and it's really rare when I cry for more than that. Last night, I must've sobbed for about half a ****ing hour. I ended up walking around the house sniffling and ****, praying my housemate couldn't hear. Only calmed down when I finally got into bed, and then couldn't sleep, and the tears started again. Not as bad, but even so x_x. So yeah, I'm irritable thanks to lack of sleep, and I just generally feel like absolute ****ing ****.
