My brain is frying!!! and it's all to do with getting together my senior sem paper's outline... :( I don't know how to do it and I don't know if I have enough stuff and I can't seem to concentrate and and and...
Oh well.
I don't know.
I am broken.
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
Oh, and if you want a package too, then you should get one sent to you sometime. I ordered 2 pieces of clothing and 2 Avril Lavigne CDs through a thingie I can get some discount on. They were on sale anyway.
RYL FAMILY
Jo (Newlife) is my daughter
Kat (Katnovia) is my sister
The paper's on suicidal ideation & coping mechanisms... I'm having trouble finding enough references for it. Plus it's kind of triggering... but I don't want to pick a new topic now since the paper - 15+ pages - is due in less than a month!!
Yeah, I've ordered stuff in the past while... e.g., just got 2 Plumb cds that were only $7 and $8 each. So that was nice... it's just, if I could get all the packages that I WANTED I would be ordering constantly!!
I feel like ****.
*hides*
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
*cuddles April* sorry you feel so bad, anything I can do to help?
I'm looking forward to trans group tomorrow, but then sunday I have to finish my essay for monday and tidy my room. Then monday email going out to staff and some pupils informing them of ny name and pronoun change and that I am trans, really anxious about it, have rehearsals/lectures on monday so worried how people are going to be. Its really stressing me out as I have the whole weekend to think about it and get worked up.
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
Awh Oliver *cuddles gently* I hope that the "transition" (sorry for the pun, unintended) goes smoothly... I can see why it would be so stressful!! Will be thinking of you in the next few days... remember that you are an amazing person no matter what you feel like.
I don't think there's any way to help except listen... and you've done a lot of that - oh and everyone, thanks for that, btw, you all have been awesome.
Am not doing well at the moment. VERY anxious, and I'm driving my husband up the wall with my anxiety, put him on edge, etc. It's very frustrating and I wish that I could stop breathing so deeply etc., but it feels like I can't get enough air in my lungs. Am so scared of... I don't know what. Uni I guess. I just need to calm down and relax... maybe I'll go read summat for a bit, I dunno. Maybe some tea would help. What do you guys think? :-/
*hides some more*
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
"Mad World" originally by Tears for Fears, but Alex Parks is the best one that sings it that I've come across. Used it in a suicide presentation that I had to do (groupwork) for sociology of deviant behavior last semester...
♥
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
*cuddles April gently* I'm sorry your feeling so anxious, it really sucks, is there something that can calm you down? some relaxing music, a book/magazine too read. Has anything in particular made you anxious?
Transition is actually the right word to describe it as, its known as a transition from one gender to another, I hope it goes ok aswell, its only 2 more weeks this term then home for easter hols, then I plan to come out to my mum and then can hopefully get name changed legally. But yeah the next few days could be major stressful.
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
*cuddles Oliver & Kat* Well, I'm glad that I used the right word. :) Best of luck in the coming days, as I've said... I'm sure that everything will be fine, maybe a bit rocky at first but will even out. You're strong to be able to do this - I'm proud of you. :)
We just went to bed; I calmed down after writing a few posts on here, which was really good - and watching some VeggieTales silly songs on YouTube. I know, I know, it sounds funny, but still. Heh. Aaanyway... thanks for the suggestions. :) Appreciated as always.
Drama on FB for my husband... ugh... people getting defensive because he tried to help. I really don't get some people's reactions. :(
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
*cuddles April* I am doing alright, uni is still a bit stressful but I am getting through it. Managed to get a bit of work done today so am happy with that. How are you doing?
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
Yey for getting work done... haha. *cuddles* It is stressful, but you can do it. :) I am having "fun" with my senior sem paper outline... NOT!!! My brain is totally gone. :( I was supposed to email it to my professor over break, too, and I totally haven't. I feel so bad about that.
*sigh*
Tineke, Oliver, Katy, how are you all? *more cuddles*
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
*cuddles April and Kat*
I shouldn't complain, as had a good day, trans group all day which was awesome, then went round to a freinds from the group and just got back. But now all I want to do is curl up in a ball and cry, I'm really triggered, my back and chest are also aching like hell and I know why and could do something about it, but being in a vulnerable state enough as it is, I would freak out even more. PLus I have to finish my essay tomorrow, for monday.
*hides in corner*
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
