We all flirt with the tiniest notion
Of self conclusion in one simplified motion
You see the trick is that you're never supposed to act on it
No matter how unbearable this misery gets
"You make it sound so easy to be alive
But tell me, how am I supposed to seize this day
When everything inside me has died?"
Shaking like a dog shittin' razorblades, Waking up next to nothing after dreaming of you and me I'm waking up all alone, waking up so relieved While you're taking your time with apologies,
I'm making my plans for revenge
Red eyes on orange horizons If Columbus was wrong I'd drive straight off the edge
I'd drive straight off the edge
Taking your own life with boredom, I'm taking my own life with wine - It helps you to rule out the sorrow,
It helps me to empty my mind
Making the most of a bad time
I'm smoking the brains from my head
Leaving the coal calling the kettle black and orange and red This kettle is seeing red
I've got a big fat ****in' bone to pick with you my darling
In case you haven't heard I'm sick and tired of trying
I wish you would take my radio to bathe with you
Plugged in and ready to fall
Shaking like a dog shittin' razorblades,
Waking up next to nothing after dreaming of you and me
Waking up all alone, waking up so relieved
While you're taking your time with apologies
I'm planning out my revenge
Red eyes on orange horizons
If Columbus was wrong I'd drive straight off the edge
I'm seeing red
I've got a big fat ****in' bone to pick with you my darling In case you haven't heard I'm sick and tired of trying
I wish you would take my radio to bathe with you,
Plugged in and ready to fall
[center]" I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside."
There's nothing here in this heart left to borrow!
Join Date: Sep 2007
I am currently:
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so ****ing far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind
Faith,
is not something that I grasp
it's something that I fake,
as I'm slipping, as I'm falling through the cracks,
Faith
without actions is a mask,
for making the same mistakes
as I'm slipping as I'm falling through the cracks.
I loved you, you made me, hate me.
You gave me, hate, see?.
It saved me and these tears are deadly.
You feel that?
I rip back, every time you tried to steal that.
You feel bad? you feel sad?
I'm sorry, hell no f*ck that!
It was my heart, it was my life, it was my start, it was your knife.
This strife it dies, this life and these lies.
And these lungs have sung this song for too long, and its true I hurt too, Remember; I loved you.
I've lost it all, fell today, It's all the same.
I'm sorry, oh,
I'm sorry, no.
I've been abused, I feel so used, because of you.
I'm sorry, oh,
I'm sorry, no.
I wish I could have quit you.
I wish I nevermissed you,
And told you that I loved you, every time I f*cked you.
The future that we both drew, and all the sh*t we've been through. Obsessed with the thought of you, the pain just grew and grew! How could you do this to me? Look at what I made for you,
It never was enough and the world is what I gave to you.
I used to be love struck; now I'm just f*cked up.
Pull up my sleeves and see the pattern of my cuts!
Seems like all we had is over now you left to rest.
And your tears are dried up now, you just lay without a sound.
Seems like all we had is over now you left to rest.
And my fears are over now, I can leave with my head down.
MCR is my CPR
Think Happy Thoughts
'Cause all of the stars, have faded away. Just trynot to worry, you'll see them someday.
Cut my life into pieces, this is my last resort
Suffocation, no breathing Don't give a f*ck if I cut my arm bleeding
This is my last resort Cut my life into pieces, I've reached my last resort
Suffocation, no breathing Don't give a f*ck if I cut my arm bleeding Do you even care if I die bleeding?
Would it be wrong? Would it be right? If I took my life tonight? Chances are that I might Mudilation out of sight, and I'm contimplating suicide
Cause I'm losing my sight, losing my mind Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight, losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
I never realized I was spread too thin Till it was too late and I was empty within
Hungry, feeding on my chaos and living in sin Downward spiral, where do I begin?
It all started when I lost my mother
No love for myself and no love for another
Searching to find a love upon a higher level
Finding nothing but questions and devils
Cause I'm losing my sight, losing my mind Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight, losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Nothing's alright, nothing is fine I'm running and I'm crying I'm crying, I'm crying I'm crying, I'm crying
I ... can't ... go ... on ... living ... this ... way
Cut my life into pieces, this is my last resort
Suffocation, no breathing Don't give a f*ck if I cut my arm bleeding
Would it be wrong? Would it be right? If I took my life tonight? Chances are that I might Mudilation out of sight, and I'm contimplating suicide
Cause I'm losing my sight, losing my mind Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight, losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Nothing's alright, nothing is fine I'm running and I'm crying
I ... CAN'T ... GO ... ON ... LIVING ... THIS ... WAY
Can't go on ... living this way Nothing's alright!
So I run, hide and tear myself up Start again with a brand new name And eyes that see into infinity
I will disappear I told you once and I'll say it again I want my message read clear
I'll show you the way, the way I'm going
So I run, and hide and tear myself up
Start again with a brand new name
And eyes that see into infinity I was almost there
Just a moment away from becoming unclear Ever get the feeling you're gone? I'll show you the way, the way I'm going
So I run, and hide and tear myself up I'll start again with a brand new name
And eyes that see into infinity
Are you listening?
Can you hear what I am saying? I am not here, I'm not listening
I'm in my head and I'm spinning Is this who you are?
Some sweet violent urge
A weak fallen man
With the promise of an end?
my candle burns at both ends
it will not last the night
but ah my foes
and oh my friends
it gives a lovely light!
I cannot find a way to describe it It's there inside; all I do is hide I wish that it would just go away What would you do, you do, if you knew What would you do
All the pain I thought I knew
All the thoughts lead back to you
Back to what was never said Back and forth inside my head I can't handle this confusion I'm unable; come and take me away
I feel like I am all alone All by myself I need to get around this My words are cold, I don't want them to hurt you If I show you, I don't think you'd understand Cause no one understands
All the pain I thought I knew
All the thoughts lead back to you
Back to what was never said Back and forth inside my head I can't handle this confusion I'm unable; come and take me away
I'm going nowhere (on and on and) I'm getting nowhere (on and on and on)
Take me away
I'm going nowhere (on and off and off and on)
(and off and on)
All the pain I thought I knew
All the thoughts lead back to you
Back to what was never said Back and forth inside my head I can't handle this confusion I'm unable; come and take me away
I'm gonna wake up, yes and no
I'm gonna kiss some part of
I'm gonna keep this secret
I'm gonna close my body now
I guess I'll die another day
(Another day)
I guess I'll die another day
(Another day)
I guess I'll die another day
(Another day)
I guess I'll die another day
I'm gonna break the cycle
I'm gonna shake up the system
I'm gonna destroy my ego
I'm gonna close my body now
I think I'll find another way
There's so much more to know
I guess I'll die another day
It's not my time to go
For every sin, I'll have to pay
I've come to work, I've come to play
I think I'll find another way
It's not my time to go
I'm gonna avoid the cliche
I'm gonna suspend my senses
I'm gonna delay my pleasure
I'm gonna close my body now
cigarettes and chocolate milk, these are just a couple of my cravings.
everything it seems i likes a little bit stronger a litle bit thicker a little bit harmul for me. if i should buy jelly beans have to eat them all in just one sitting everything it seems i like is a little bit sweeter a little bit fatter a little bit harmful for me and then theres thouse other things which for several reasons we wont mention everything about them is a little bit stanger a little harder a little bit deadly...it isnt very smart.
Blessing all the birds that died so I could live
be a woman, be a woman
Location: In a glass vial in the pocket of a beautiful mind.
I am currently:
If we could break down those walls to set you free, we would cause we out here, and we miss you.
If we could build a ladder that tall to come up and see you, we would cause we down here, and we miss you.
rhap·so·dy - an ecstatic expression of feeling or enthusiasm. ♫
"Sacrifice is the most you can love someone." ♥
“Love was at best an excuse for stupidity, at worst a destructive, dangerous emotion that drove men to acts of annihilation which defied logic. It was a twisted, insidious sentiment used to justify everything from spoiling a child to destroying entire civilizations.”
What's happening to me!?
I'm dying from the inside!
Body hurts too much to feel!
Pressure adds to pain! Deliver us from evil!
Straying out of sanity!
Why can't you let me be!?
Is nothing else important? Does my mind mean more to you!?
'cause if I carry on!
Deliver us from evil!
Screaming for your vanity!
Will darkness turn to light!? (WILL DARKNESS TURN TO LIGHT?!) Can someone wake me from this nightmare?
Here we go, here we go
The tank is empty, let it dry
I'm suffering! A passion ending, so the world ceases turning
The tank is empty, let it dry!
So now I hope you see!
I'm nothing more than human!
Making plans for enemies!
But here we go again!
Deliver us from evil!
Crawling back to insanity!
Will darkness turn to light!? (WILL DARKNESS TURN TO LIGHT?!) Can someone wake me from this nightmare?
Here we go, here we go
The tank is empty, let it dry
I'm suffering! A passion ending, so the world ceases turning
The tank is empty, let it dry!
I'm suffering
What's happening to me?
I'm dying from the inside...
Body hurts to much to feel...
Pressure adds to pain.. Deliver us from evil...
(Through evil..)
Pressure adds to pain...
You're evil, we're evil, I'm evil!
Will darkness turn to light!? (WILL DARKNESS TURN TO LIGHT?!) Can someone wake me from this nightmare?
Here we go, here we go
The tank is empty, let it dry
I'm suffering! A passion ending, so the world ceases turning
The tank is empty, let it dry!
