I'm sorry if you dont like me feeling like this! I cant help it....I love you and thought you were gonna help me through this?!?! Maybe not....Its been ages since it all went t*ts up and yet....
I'm sorry!
"People have abused you lots in the past? Why do you then abuse yourself more?" - Quote
Sometimes I feel like I'm alone, Sometimes I feel like I'm not that strong, Sometimes I feel nothing at all, Sometimes I feel vulnerable, Sometimes I feel a little fragile
You knew. You KNOW. But you haven't tried to help me. I didn't even know you knew, till Laura said something on holiday. But you've only distanced yourself from me. For that, I want to say f*ck you. But I also want to thank you, for not telling anyone.
But if i still believe you love me, maybe i'll survive.
So i tell myself you're coming home, like you've done a million times.
PLEASE, I NEED to have that chat with you! It's killing me! It's taken me this long to acquire the balls to tell you how I feel. Don't make me lose them! Please be in tomorrow, and please please please go for a drink with me!! I need to get it over with now!!
My RYL Family:
Too Shy is my Little Sister! Kiran is my Purple Pot Plant!
i miss you. i love you. i need you. i cant do this alone. your there when i need you least and not here when i need you most....... forgive me but i am who i am
I'm struggling so much :( I don't know who to turn to, I want to talk to you but I know I can't so there we are. You are great though, thank you for everything, I appreciate it - a lot.
I am trying to remember things you've said that have helped and what you would suggest I do now.
I really miss Karl :( I really am struggling.
Hugs. x
I'm weak and I can't be without you. I need you back. It's right - it's so right. We were made for each other. We are literally meant to be together. We will be together.
I can wait for you... Because I know we'll be together again. Because we're designed for one another. It's ok... but please... wake up... *kiss*
Strict_Machine: argh! *rants*
Small_Light: *joins in*
Small_Light: *throws pillows at adult mental health services*
Small_Light: *changes it to pillows with bricks in*
Strict_Machine: *changes it to pillows with bombs in*
Strict_Machine: (*bombs of peace and love of course!*)
I hope you don't feel I've deserted you. Because I've tried not to. I've just been a bit scared incase I say the wrong thing. We're at the opposite ends of the spectrum and I'm not sure what to say other than I love you so very, very much. I was reading stuff from days gone by and I realised just how much you supported me and were there for me. Now it's my turn to do the same for you. Don't be afraid to call out for help though; people can't be there for you if you don't talk to them in the first place... if you wait for them to come to you they'll just assume you're ok when you're not.
I can't bear to see you go through so much pain. If I had one wish I'd use it on you because you truly deserve more than this. You're a beautiful person, both inside and out. One day you'll realise it for yourself.
Love forever,
Wigeon xxxxxxx
AMY.
You're not as messed up as you think you are,
Your self-absorption makes you messier.
Just settle down and you could feel a whole lot better,
Deep down, you're just like everybody else.
