I played WoW for a bit but couldn't concentrate on it. Anxiety at the periphery... can feel it lurking. I think I need a hot bath with salts. And supper.
Wrote one paper - on Hildegard von Bingen - and have another one to write before tomorrow night. Gahhh. :(
I really feel like ****.
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
*cuddles April* um doctor who is about a time lord called the doctor who can travel in space and time, in a TARDIS (time and relative dimension in space) and he can regenerate before he dies, so its the still the doctor, but he looks different, it started in the 60's i think and then stopped in 80's, but they brought it back a few years ago and the 10th doctor has just regenerated into the 11th doctor, so next series will be 11th doctor. sorry for the rambling.
Sorry your feeling bad, anything I can do to help? *sends cuddles*
*cuddles Naty and Heather* how are you both?
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
Hrm sounds interesting. :) How are you doing this evening?
No, don't think there's anything you can do to help other than be there for me to talk with as you already have been. (Thank you so much!!) Am struggling so much right now... I cried in the hallway whilst waiting for class today (was half an hour early) and hoped no one noticed, felt like such a bloody idiot.
Now I just want to b/p. Or do something drastic. I hate myself so so so SO MUCH. :(
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
*cuddles* I'm here for you :) Sorry your had a bad time in uni, I had some of those moments in school, they're not nice.
You dont need to do anything drastic, there are others things you can do, watch something, listen to some music, do something you enjoy, something thats going to take your mind of stuff.
I'm doing ok, went to LGBT youth group tonight and it was really good, only sort of knew one person there, but met loads others and we did a cool thing in groups, drawing a house which is energy saving, which was really cool. Stressed out though because I'm really awake and I've been awake and busy all day and only had 4 hours sleep last night, really need to get some sleep tonight, want to be up at 7 so I can go for a run before class at 9.
*cuddles Naty* I mentioned Dr Who earlier and April had heard of it but wanted to know what its about.
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"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
IAL, why are you hiding? *pulls from corner and cuddles*
Yeah Naty, I did ask Oliver about it - had heard of it, as he said, but was not sure what it was about. What is your dissertation going to be about it? (sorry, that sounded awkward grammar-wise, heh) I mean, how's your dissertation going to include Doctor Who?
Oliver, I try/tried to take my mind off of stuff & it just doesn't work. Even WoW doesn't work much anymore. :( I need to write a paper or else I'd be on there now... it's just 5am and I have class from 12:30pm until 9pm... so it's going to be a loooong day. :( Lots of diet Mountain Dew & lots of Klonopin, damnit.
:(
How is everyone else?
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
*hugs everyone* I have counselling tomorrow, which will be interesting i think.
Erm thinking of doing gender relations in dr who (like the companions and how the dr reacts to them and stuff), but i need to go check its an ok topic with a tutor before i throw myself into this!
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Naty, I'll check your r/v thread once I have time. Right now I'm waiting for my mum to get here so I can go get bloodwork. It's snowing again and and I don't think my car would do very well on the back roads we have to go on (she only has 2WD and my mum's car has 4WD, so yeah - better for snowy/slippery!!).
I'm so tired. Got up a little before 5am today, won't be getting home until around 9pm tonight. Gonna be a looong day. At least I got some time on WoW... haha. Like that's any consolation. >_< Also finished up my Women & Spirituality homework... it was a reflection on how crisis can provide danger yet opportunity. I talked about my current crisis (ED-related) so yeah, I dunno, it might be interesting. :-/
I feel so stupid. Want to rant but don't know if I've got the time for a proper one in my r/v thread. :(
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
