Sarah remember no matter what we are always here for you to talk things through and that will never change!
xx
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
Hi Gully,
i've got emotionally unstable personality disorder.
xx
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
well the ball was cumin into the circle and she contacted me from behind and then i fell over on top of her cus she caught my legs just feeling bad. hhm ill try n post a picture or sumthing.
e;llie im sure ur photos are fine
sarah cud u ask for like a temp cpn or sumthing. or counselling through ur docs.
dani how r u
gully hi.
Really not coping.
Not eating.
Wanting to purge.
Wanting to hurt.
Need to talk to someone.
Got no-one but my psychiatrist.
Still waiting on that phone call.
Why am I such a mess.
Why's my life so crap.
Maybe better if I wasn't here.
I'm friends with the monster that's under my bed
Get along with the voices inside of my head
You're trying to save me, stop holding your breath
And you think I'm crazy, yeah, you think I'm crazy
LDC - you need to make sure you keep eating. One sure fire way of making yourself more depressed is by not giving yurbody the fuel it needs to keep going. And you arne't such a mess; things are just tough right now, but they will pick up. If today is crap, then there is even more reason why tomorrow will be better, cos it would be hard to be worse. It's easy to get caught up in the "it would be better if i wasn't here" but really, who would it be better for? Your parents would undoubtedly miss you, even if it doesn't feel like that right now, your friends would have nobody around to keep them chirpy, just the whole situation would change for the worse. It *might* seem easier for you, but think about it, would it really be easier?
"Keep your heart open to dreams. For as long as there's a dream, there is hope, and as long as there is hope, there is joy in living."
LDC, I want to support but I don't know what to say or do. I'm sorry. Just know I'm thinking of you xx
I'm a bit of a mess today. I woke up crying, proper sobbing, and didn't stop for about an hour. I'm going away tomorrow and I'm terrified. Part of me doesnt want to go. Also I think that if I do go, I'm not as ill as I am, or I feel. I want to cause some real damage, and I'm losing the energy to fight it
Whatever Happened to our Inner Glow?
<3 Sarah, My brilliant, beautiful, RAWR little sis
Lizzie - I know I would be missed by my parents, partner (not got any friends apart from here). But at this moment I just don't feel anything, I'm numb. I have had a fortisip today, but don't want to have anything else, maybe another fortisip later (if i can manage it)
Ev - sorry to hear that your struggling, don't worry about having no words, i get like that too. just knowing your thinking of me helps. I'm thinking of you too, don't stress to much about the holiday.
thanks Claire..
I'm friends with the monster that's under my bed
Get along with the voices inside of my head
You're trying to save me, stop holding your breath
And you think I'm crazy, yeah, you think I'm crazy
well been to gym for my chat, going back wed for induction, OMG its going to cost me 55 quid!!! no one told me that but ive managed to persuade them to let me pay it in two instalments, its for 12 weeks unlimited use of all the gym stuff so i guess when you work it out its not so bad, but still, bit of a shock.
so this week i have ed lady tomorrow, cpn wed, gym wed, and im getting my nails done properly for the first time ever wed! god knows where the moneys coming from!
Well these are going to be easy to hide next week . . . not.
Have managed to stop crying for about half an hour. I'm just so tired, I want to go away and never wake up. I feel so alone, even where there's loads of people around me.
It's almost as if I feel homesick, but I am at home if that makes sense? I just feel total despair, but every other emotion is gone. I want the quiet that SI brings.
I want to be gone.
Whatever Happened to our Inner Glow?
<3 Sarah, My brilliant, beautiful, RAWR little sis
oh Ev im sorry you slipped,
but i completely understand both the lonely feeling and the feeling of wanting to go home even when im home, its odd, im sorry i dont have any advice on it, but just wanted you to know you are not alone x
I just wanted to pass on for anyone who hasnt noticed that Holly has been banned - Its what she derserves and hopefully we will not see her again when the ban runs out. Hopefully that is the end of that chapter. I just wanted to let people know as they might not see or notice but she has been delt with.
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
