I can imagine that it would get to you after awhile, be very difficult. But keep plodding step by step ahead... you can make it.
I should be doing coursework but damn it I can't concentrate & don't want to do it anyway. I hate this semester so ****ing much!!!!
*hides*
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
*cuddles*
I know the feeling, I should do practice and essays, but no concentration or motivation and got to go to horn class in 20mins and probably play a piece, I hate these classes nearly always end up having a panic attack, get very anxious.
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
*cuddles Oliver* Sorry that you have panic/anxiety attacks in that class, sounds awful. :( Is there any way that you could drop it and take a different class? what about it makes it so difficult for you?
*sighs* :(
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
*cuddles back* nope can't drop it, as its horn clas so all the horn players have to go, I often end up missing it and staff know why, but I hate having to miss it, but hate going even more. I should be there now, but I'm not, I better go and see what happens.
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
Best of luck, Oliver. *more cuddles* Ugh, it sounds awful!! :(
I'm in the computer lab and there's a person drilling or something at a computer (repair person) - so ****ing loud I hate it, even though I have my iPod in. I hate turning up the music so loud that people around me can hear it as that's one of my pet peeves (heh) so I just gotta endure. I would be in my dad's office on his comp because it's quiet there - but he doesn't have cell service down there and I want to be able to answer my NP if she texts back.
:(
I want to sleep... I am so freaking tired.
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
You'll get there :) I know you will. Just try and hold on. Things will get better for you.
*Cuddles Oliver*
I haven't really read your story yet, but I will tomorrow or so. You seem to hang around here a lot and I can tell by your posts that I will like you, as a matter of fact, I already do.
*Lots of hugs*
So I was going to work today, the Holiday Inn Hotel in Ghent at the Expo needs people. So I'm on the bus to Ghent when the employment agency calls me: we don't need people for today, how 'bout Thursday? GRRRR! I hate interim offices.
Spent some quality time with Tom. Then got home with mum and my brother. I said I'd make some lasagna but then I got the job offer so I didn't do it. Sometimes I hate everything.
*hugs Lynx* (sorry, don't know your first name!!) That sucks about the job... :( But at least you'll probably have work on Thursday. I know, not a huge consolation but maybe it's something?
*hugs Naty* How you doing, love? Also, been wondering, where did you come up with your screenname?! :P It's very original & fascinating (as are a lot on here, but yours especially).
I'm home now, just finished supper & of course want to purge (but won't). Grrrrr. I hate feeling like this. My NP texted me back and forth (whilst I was in class I was texting but I have a feeling my profs would be understanding of the situation) and she said she wanted to have me evaled at the nearest ER. Yeah right. Like I'm going to voluntarily commit myself to a stay at a hospital I've never been to before when so much is going on in "uni world"??! FORGET IT!!!!!
But part of me wants ot be hospitalized, so I don't have to worry about so many things. Like staying safe.
:(
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
Of course it's something. My name is Tineke, by the way. (Apparently it's taken me a few weeks to have the guts to publish my first name.)
I'm sorry that the circumstances aren't exactly permitting you to do something about your issues. Please, please, please don't purge. It is very unhealthy for your digestive system and it makes your teeth rot. Then again, I am glad that you seem to be doing quite well at uni.
That's about all I have to say for now.
Last edited by lynx : 23-02-2010 at 12:41 AM.
Reason: two months? a few weeks, rather...
*cuddles Tineke* thats really annoying about the job, just seen you live in Belguim, thats cool I went on a 10 day music tour to Belguim went round a lot of places, its very nice.
*cuddles April lots* I'm sorry your struggling so much at the moment, sends lots of hugs over to you.
*cuddles Naty*
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
Tineke, what a pretty name. How do you pronounce it? (might be a dense question, I'm sorry if it is :( I can be really stupid at times) How are you doing this morning? *cuddles*
*cuddles Oliver* How was horn class yesterday? did you get through it okay? How are you today?
*cuddles IAL & Ally* How are you two doing?
I am really tired and kind of hungry but I know that if I eat I will want to purge... :( I hate my life so much at times!! It's not fair at all (but no one's is... although some people's seem more fair than others' - am I right?). And right now I am waiting for two men - landlord & his brother - to show up to fix our ceiling, should be okay except I've still got some cleaning I need to do in the kitchen. Getting stuff out of the way, etc. Then I'll be leaving probably since WoW is down and I would just be in the way anyway. :(
I'm so tired of this life... still... want to die but can't talk with my parents about that... stupid me, stupid them, stupid life of mine. *cries*
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
I hate this semester so ****ing much!!!!
