Two years ago you would still be alive and I wish I had the goddamn courage to go and see you. You were not even ill I didn't need the courage for that but you were somewhere "unfamiliar" and it scared the hell out of me to make my own way there. I can't believe something so simple prevented me from seeing you for so long before you died.
When they told me and I bust into tears I remember regaining enough composure to say to my dad "I hadn't visited her in so long. Do you think she knows I loved her?"
4 yrs have passed and it's not getting any easier. I don't even want to sleep right now. I miss you so much. I don't want to let you go. I love you and miss you so much. xxxx
sometimes being strong means not holding back the tears but letting them fall
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my fur baby girls are my life <3
r.i.p my beautiful girl jackie. i will love you always no matter what - 6/5/10
I had another one of those dreams, like the one before, where you had not really died. Where you came back to life just before you were lowered into the ground for eternity. This time you were just at home and I sat and wondered what it was like to be embalmed and why nobody noticed you were alive.
And how I had been given a second chance with you.
I wake up confused about if this really happened or not and if you're still here.
I wanted to release a balloon for you today but I was scared of hurting a bird. I hope you understand. I feel like I know you on some level and know you wouldn't want anything to hurt.
I don't know if I would have got to hold you today. I know how tough you were; a survivor, you were holding on. I've never written or said anything to you before and suddenly there feels so much to say. I feel like my heart is breaking. And I'm just so sorry.
You are awesome your smile and laughter brightened up the room and drunk Hannah was even better you are going to be missed so much
Sleep tight angel
Uob forever
I wonder if any year will ever get easier, I don't think I have ever allowed myself to grieve for you, I didn't know you after all...or did I? We spent 6 months together I'm sure that we must have formed some sort of bond. I wish that I could have done something, I wish I could have saved you.
I wonder if youd be like me (a better version obviously) if we would have fought if we would have liked and done the same things. I wonder how different my life would have been with you in it.
I hope wherever you are now you can see me and that you're watching over me. I hope you liked the butterfly it left you and it reminds you that 24 years on you will never be forgotten. I will never forget that I should have grown up as half of a pair not alone. You will always be in my heart and you will always be my sister.
I hope you had a party up there. I love you with all my heart and I always will ❤️
I still think of and love you. Forever my number 1. I'm sorry I didn't do more.
The only thing more unthinkable than leaving was staying; the only thing more impossible than staying was leaving. I didn't want to destroy anything or anybody. I just wanted to slip quietly out the back door, without causing any fuss or consequences, and then not stop running until I reached Greenland.
Elizabeth Gilbert
I miss you so much, Mum. I always think about what life would be like right now if you were still here. I think of what I'd be doing right now and stories I'd tell you and things I'd say to you. We'd have so much to talk about if you were here. I don't know how I'm going to get through the rest of my life without you and it hurts so much. I've been thinking about you a lot. I wish none of what happened had ever happened, you truly deserved so much better. It would be beyond amazing to meet you again, although I don't believe in any of that stuff. I'm just glad you're not in pain anymore because I know you were suffering and you would have rather left, and I completely understand. I will never stop missing you and I will always think of you every single day for as long as I'm alive. I love you forever <3
"Tell me one last thing," said Harry. "Is this real? Or has this been happening inside my head?"
Dumbledore beamed at him, and his voice sounded loud and strong in Harry's ears even though the bright mist was descending again, obscuring his figure.
"Of course it is happening inside your head, Harry, but why on earth should that mean that it is not real?"
I feel like I'm floundering around trying to make things work, because before you always sorted it out for me, always made sure I was ok and that everyone was doing their jobs properly. You'd probably have some choice words for a lot of the people I deal with at the moment!
I'm sorry I haven't been able to visit much. Home doesn't feel like home anymore, and I can't bring myself to go very often. I hope the bulbs I planted grew. I don't know much about gardening, but I had a go. I'll get something sorted out so it looks pretty all year around. Dad's gone all weird and won't really talk about you anymore, otherwise I'd get him to sort it out.
I'm really sorry I didn't go straight home when you called. I could tell from your voice something was wrong, but you said I could come home after exams. But even though you said that I still had this feeling I should ask to go to the train station immediately. But I didn't. And then I was planning on going down that weekend despite your insistence. I was going to be there in, what, 3 or 4 days? I guess I just wasn't fast enough. It's been over a year and I still feel guilty. I'm so sorry.
I hope P's up there with you. He's a such good boy. Pet him lots for me please. I don't know if they have Bonios in heaven but if they do he should definitely get one of those too. Please tell him what a good dog he is. I miss him a lot too.
It's weird H, I can't stop thinking about you. You'd probably be a moody teenager now, driving us all up the wall. You never had a chance and that is what hurts. I hope you are forcing P up the wall up there.
I miss you, a lot. Sometimes I think that will never change, that I will never find a way to fill the massive hole you left. I wish things were different. Love you.
the anniversary of your death is coming up and I keep having dreams about you.
I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I still don't understand why.
I feel guilty because I feel like it was my fault in some way..that I didn't do enough to help you.
I miss you. I'm sorry.
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
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