It's ok Rowie, we're all here so just talk them out.
I went for a bit of a walk, and it helped escaping it. I'm not on any anti-psychotics, in fact this is new. Only appeared in this latest cycle of madness.
I was thinking about this, and maybe it probably is best to get it out. Not to make anyone feel worse, but to make it lighter on me. There were days that I came on here, feeling awful, and felt guilty asking for help because I believed your pain was worse and that I was insignificant. There were times I said nothing because you needed more help. And days, time spent in my kitchen worrying about something that wasn't real. It just increased my feeling that whatever I'm going through, whatever this is, isn't that bad. That it's confirming everything I think about myself.
Anyway, that out. Rowie, is there anything in particular triggering you? xxx
Whatever Happened to our Inner Glow?
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i'm sorry you went through that Ellie!
Just remember no matter what we are here to supportyou and you'll never be on your own!
Ok i'm going to open it once i've made a cup of coffee!
I really hope the cyst goes soon Rowie, is it painfully!
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
mum n dad just got back from kev gardens (shes been asking if id be ok on my own all day all day yesterday and got my lil bro to check in at lunch time)
she walked in the door with a flower saying i bring you this all the way from......the front garden lol
they also bought me a rat puppet (as i said he needs a name)
and a weird looking packet of seeds that grows a bat plant! how cool
Ev hope your ok hun, well done on going for the walk hope you manage to distract yourself hun
Thank you Dasher...I wouldnt like you to delete your post.
I agree with what youve said and appreciate you coming to this thread to share.
Im sorry youve been hurt recently too. much love xx
do you know what? I was two and a half weeks free...its not that special though. It was because of ongoing treatment on my arm, not because of me fighting the urges...im not that good. I would have been three weeks free when i saw my doctor on monday...he would have been so pleased. He may have even increased my venlafaxine dose... *sighs*
i opened the parcel! It had two bags, a purse and two tops!
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
Oh Rowie. Well, you managed two and a half weeks; that's something to be really proud of. I'm sorry that it got so bad again.
I'm kind of struggling with the same; the only reason I'm not doing it is that I don't have any kitchen roll. Stupid I know. I might just use loo roll instead.
Whatever Happened to our Inner Glow?
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Im so sorry youre struggling with the same Ev...I know im a hypocrite, but could you try to fight the urges.
My therapist told me to tear up paper to get out the anger/the need out. Ive yet to try it but it may work xxxx
Rowie ~ you did so well! Im really proud of you and still am. You can do it againxx
dani ~ Your parcel sounds great and exciting :)
I got my pram today. Even after having 4 others its still exciting to see.. although more real. Only 4 months and Ill be having a baby again. eek!
The meetings went well today. A lot of hearing the usual stuff and just agreeing Lol but a lot of positive stuff so thats good :)
Differences...are nothing at all if our aims are identical and our hearts are open. GOF
Albus Dumbledore
Like Dasher, I read this thread everyday; I care about how you are all doing and think the level of support here is amazing.
I, too, had my doubts about this story; too many things didnt add up.
Like the countless other 'stories'...
I just want to say, you have an amazing group here, full of the most supportive, caring ppl anywhere.
Pls try not to let this destroy what you have created.
Holly, I hope you do talk (HONESTLY) to your care team...what you did to your friends here was utterly appalling.
There is something very wrong for you to be able to do this.
I hope you also take note of the comments about the level of support you have (not) returned to everyone here.
Tho, i suppose that doesnt matter now...
Perhaps leaving the thread for awhile (or for good??) would be the kindest thing you could do...after ppl have had a chance to get their questions/feelings out.
Hope no one minds another 'lurker' posting here...my heart goes out to all of you.
xxx
