I'm relieved to hear that Helen, even though you have been going through some hard times just recently. *hugs you*
*offers hugs to anyone who can accept them*
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
Last night I had my boyfriend, my best friend and her boyfriend over to watch a film and drink a few beers. It was nice, but quiet. We haven't seen each other in so long it just felt...awkward. They left pretty early so I just went to bed.
Feel kinda low today, before they came over yesterday I had a lot of self-hatred going on and I think it showed when they arrived. I was quiet and withdrawn.
Meh. Hope everyone's doing better than me xxxxx
I realised that I have consistently been forgetting to take my mood stabiliser. I think I'm doing better without it, but I don't think that other people around me are likely to agree. I'm constantly thinking of harming myself and suicide, and really wanting to make an attempt to end my life. It really doesn't help that it's this time of the year and I have practicaly no self-esteem. Which is fair enough because I'm a worthless individual.
Anyway ... one of my closest friends keep saying that he's fat when he is anything but. This really doesn't help my brain because everytime he starts going on about how fat he is and so forth my ED side kicks in and wants me to a) stop eating completely and b) work out till I pass out.
Meh. Sorry I'll stop placing myself as a burden on all your shoulders.
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
*offers hugs and cuddles around to those who want them*
Please don't feel that you are a burden Kahlia... here is a safe place where you can let your feelings out... even if as we've been discussing people can't always handle the truth, i think here as we share similar feelings and struggles, it's easier to share...
I hope that everyone here will be having a better day today than yesterday...
take care
Remember there's no such thing as a small act of kindness.
Every act creates a ripple with no logical end. ~ Scott Adams
I'm relieved to hear that Helen, even though you have been going through some hard times just recently. *hugs you*
*cuddles* I'm happy too, but I've been to hell & back because of that sick bastard. I got days off uni & everything *shudders* I'm scared people at uni will think I made this up. Ah well.
I guess Helen that you will have to cross that bridge when you come to it. You can't do anything about it before then.
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
Sorry haven't been around for a few days, been kinda ill and that, but anyways. There was something Kent said at church today, that just... it made sense, y'know? It almost gave me a kinda purpose for my life, it was kind of surreal, but at the moment, I'm feeling sorta ok about everything.
~Friends are angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly~
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
*snuggles alex* tis not true- thats why <3
message if you want <3
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
I really feel like giving in to my self injurious behaviours at the moment. I keep thinking that there is no point to my being alive. Especially as we are coming up to that time of year again. It's an evil time. Meh. Now I want to cry as well, and there doesn't seem to be a reason for it.
*sends hugs to all*
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
Howdy peoples.
I had my talk with my lecturea on friday and it wasnt too bad. he was quite understanding but there was no talk about what if I dont get stuff done on time.
Am getting worked up about the assignments and the forced buying of presents for the people I actualy care about but have no money.
How are you lot doing?
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Memento Mori
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Live your dream? Or Dream your life?
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I can't hug people in real life and online it makes me feel like a lier.
Aww lil' sis *hugs Alex* you are a wonderful person and I love you soooo much... please take care hunni.
*curls up in her corner*
I'm in my corner, I'm curled up, now why can't I just die..?
I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.
~ Marilyn Monroe
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