You're infatuated with me, and I act like I'm in as much turmoil as you, but the truth is that I'm not having too much trouble shutting that part of my brain back off. Just friends. I didn't think I'd be able to do it, but it turns out that maybe I can. Maybe. I'm sorry that you're struggling so much, and I wish it were the other way around.
sorry
i care about you
i want to help you and i dont know how
i would never tell her the things youve told me.
i refused to tell her why you want to die
i just want you to get help
i care about you
sorry im only trying to help
After all this has passed, i still will remain
After i've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain
I'm actually a lying, brooding, manipulative and distrusting little bastard. I hate it when people have ulterior motives. But I've got them myself, as well.
I haven't been to lectures in weeks.
I'm going to get kicked off the course.
I've disappointed you again.
I'm dreading what I'm going to do tomorrow,
You cannot get through a single day without having an impact on the world around you What you do makes a difference, and you have to decide what kind of difference you wish to make.
n#1: I am so scared i will hurt you if tell you how i am really feeling
#2: why do i feel this way after so long....
#3: i never quit i just found ways around it
#4: you never cared and truthfully niether did i....
#5: O.o.... tis all i can say
I GeT Lei'd In Vets
~An Angel Or A Charlatan?~
"i'd rather hate you for everything you are, than ever love you for something you are not, i'd rather you hate me for everything i am than have you love me love me for something i can't BE!"
I'm a bad person..and that not just 'depression' talking, it's the truth and I never realised it til now.
Do evil people actually realise they're evil?
Grandma thinks I am being sick cause I am ill..
I am being sick like I was when I was little..
I feel disgusting
The smell
The taste
Everything makes me sick..
It hurts so much..
You're entirely bonkers. But I'll tell you a secret. All the best people are.
Mom forgot to lock up the ativan.
90 little pills calling my name.
And I'm running for them.
RIP Mike [4.1.06] RIP Grandma [8.2.08] Jon&Nicole[1.6.09] Sometimes when i say "oh i'm fine..."
i want someone to look me in the eyes and say "tell the t r u t h"
chris i still love you. i thought not seing you would ease the pain. but it hasnt. i still think of you everyday. wishing i could just see you. talk to you. hug you. for you to tell me you loved me like you used to. you're still my aa mum and i love you with all my heart. all the support you gave me. im forever grateful.
im still scared of men. petrified in fact. i cant trust them. they all hurt me.
im in so much pain...i feel like im dying...like months of struglling physically and emotionally...pushing and pushing myself to the limit...drinking to the point where i pass out, smoking weed till my body feels paralised...then getting up after a few hours sleep and going to work...putting on a brave face, smiling laughing, searching desperately for happiness...cutting...its all caught up with me...even pain killers arent having any effect, im in so so so much pain...i wonder how many i'd have to take to kill myslef...to end it all...to stop the pain. im so sick of being in pain. i dont want to struggle or suffer anymore.
