I'm sorry to hear you're going through a rough time. Can you talk to your psych about a meds change, if he agrees?
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
I feel horrid. Horrid headache, eating makes me vomit because of what the Voices say.
I WANT THIS TO STOP, but I have Things to do, missions, there are plans for me.
What did she mean? I hate this, why does everything have to be hidden amongst layers and layers of ???? Words escape me. I'm going blank.
Psych isn't going to change my meds anytime soon.
I'm torn. I want to complete my Tasks. But I just want to end it. I feel so very alone and yet I want to be alone. I don't know whether I can hold to the 7 or 11 week deal.
I'm mostly cogent now, but They are escalating,i can't do it. I really don't think I can do it at all.
Well your psych doesn't seem like he wants to help. Unless of course he is waiting to see if the meds take a longer time to kick in.
You don't need to complete the Tasks.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
I'm feeling the same at the minute as you are. Im not in hospital though.
Im sorry you are going through this. Remember voices are just noise - nothing else. You can get through this. I have no other words, but you're not alone in the situation.
I am sorry things are so rough for you at the moment, Rara.
What did the Psych say the plan of action was when you were admitted? When are you next due to see them, it may be worth letting them know how things are right now and asking if the medication can be reviewed.
I wish there was more I could do to help, do know I am thinking of you and hoping things settle soon. Oly is right though, you do not have to go through with the Tasks, however-much They may insist on it.
*gentle cuddles*
Roiben x
If the Human brain were so simple that we could understand it, we would be so simple that we wouldn't.
Thank you Roiben. Hugs.
I am probably seeing him today. When I saw him just after I was admitted he asked me what I wanted out of it, what our goals were and how long/duration of stay. I'm still booked to be admitted on the 15th, so (if i were "well" I could go home until then and come back (again).. But I'm having trouble knowing the answers to the questions.
I don't want to be here but my mother won't have me at home at the moment. She was sleeping on my floor, she was worried about me, that sucked.
Whether in hospital or not, what do you want, Rara? I would imagine you would like to feel a little more rested, and less threatened and taunted by them?
Can you think of the things you would like without the constraint of being on a ward. Then, look at what being on the ward can help you achieve or begin to achieve out of that?
I know ward stay can be more stable and secure, and I imagine it helps your Mum to know you are safe and being cared for.
Do you think you could discuss the medication option with them - so that, should they decide to change the meds they can do so under safe supervision.
I hope that you will find a time when you are feeling less rough and more able to be at home - I do think that right now, it is good that you have decided to stay in the ward. It sounds like it was a hard decision to make, and I understand how confusing it can all be.
I am rambling, so I will stop. Sorry. My head is very confused and muffled this evening...
Roiben x
If the Human brain were so simple that we could understand it, we would be so simple that we wouldn't.
I always appreciate your replies Roiben.
I do want to feel more rested and feel safe from The Spies/creatures.
I don't really want anything. I think I want to want things. If that makes sense. I want to be able to draw and write again, I want to study, I want to hang out with my friends, spend quality time with my brother. But I want to want them. I want nothing, except to want. Then I want nothing. Apathetic. I don't know how to combat the apathy and lack of motivation. Except for just trying to 'do' things.
I will try and bring up the medication issue when I see him next.
You aren't rambling at all. Thank you
That makes sense to me, Rara. It sounds like you have lost the enjoyment you used to get from doing things, and the motivation to do them. These are both worthy things to bring up with the psych.
*safe hugs*
Roiben x
If the Human brain were so simple that we could understand it, we would be so simple that we wouldn't.
I hope I get to see him today, I missed out yesterday though I am becoming suspicious of his motives. But nevertheless I will bring it up with him though I may have already mentioned it.
I'm struggling a lot today and it feels like it's only getting worse. It's 9:46am and the Voices and Spies are really bothering me, underststated.
Thank you Roiben
I saw my Dr today. Showed him my journalling. He is going to change my meds just doesn't know what to yet.
Feel the same as yesterday. If not worse and much less productive
Sorry that I haven't posted. I hope that the meds change will help. What do you do when the voices start talking? Do you confront them or try to block them out, or both?
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
No worries at all Oly.
I hope it helps too.
What do I do? It depends, sometimes I try blocking them out with music. Other times if I feel able music and another task:Lego, drawing etc. Other times I just get consumed.
Today I've fluctuated between handling things ok and really not handling things well. A bit all over the place. Voices constant.
I think he will be putting me on aripiprazole. But he's concerned about the cost.
I'm feeling terrible at the moment. Voices are screaming. Spies everywhere.
