I'm VERY sorry for missing yesterday, I was under strict commands from my best friend to skip it and go sleep, the night before I was up unitll 5am finishing off some work that needed to be handed in for 10am then I had a whole busy day ahead of me and didn't get back untill late. Maybe you people can forgive me? :)
Today has been simply; awful. Toby had his appointment today to go back to hospital and make sure his wrist is healing right, after his X-rays they found his bone not to be healing right how they wanted it too so he needs to have an operation or he'll have a bent wrist for the rest of his life. So this was at 10amish and he wasn't allowed to eat from then to 9pm when the operation started. I hope it went okay, he has to stay the night at hospital. He is ment to have it popped back into place and wite insertied into his wrist. I know it'll all be fine, but he's not a 'normal' child and I hope he won't be too stressed about the whole ordeal and the general anesthetic.
He has been asking for his Woody and Buzz Lightyear all day and kept asking the doctors and making sure they wasn't going to kill him, in general fear of them doing it. :) I'm sure they all love him for he is amazing and amusing. However much he annoys me in the house. I love him.
This Image is for him, I have a simular one for tomorrow as well. I hope so much everything will be okay. I can't stress that enough.
This is just shot two from yesterday, I really don't like it, but thats for you people to judge. Not me. I think my face could have been stronger. And I got so wet wading through this field, it has been raining all day and stopped at 10pm when I took this
Tobys operation went fine, I knew it would. But he came home to be the most angry, stroppy little boy ever, he was shouting and getting frustrated at anything and anyone. I think thats just aftermath of the anesthetic and the feeling of having no sleep once you wake up. It was difficult to be gracious towards him sometimes, but well managed it all I think. However, mum couldn't cope with it well. She just put him to bed, well he did want to go to bed, He's like that. :)
The world cup has finaly begun, England play USA tomorrow and that'll be interesting. I'm not an overly massive fan of football, I just enjoy watching England play. Only thing I half watch.
I feel like I've been tired forever, I can't remember a day I felt well rested. and I miss my friends who live far away. :(
I am so jealous of people who have nice eyes. My eyes are so boring, just dark dark brown, almost black. Even the doctore who was looking into my with a blinding light said my eyes are almost black and he could hardly see my pupil. Why can't I have at leat light brown eyes with a cool looking Iris, all I get is black. Ah well. I guess I'll just have to appricate other peoples. :)
I wanted to try the whole black boarder thing, I don't think it turned out to badly. And todays, been okay, I've just been waiting for England game for alot of it, which was a fail. Our goal keeper did the bigest slip up of his career and made us draw the game 1-1 ah well. I hope we'll still get to the top of the group tables. I should be seeing my dad tomorrow if he manages to get here on time is another story. I've been told to stop getting topless so much in my shots, so I am trying not to, I think it'll be hard to make some shots as effective. Maybe thats just me though?
Sometimes I hate my face, I have so many scars on them, I wish I wasn't such a careless child an feel of my bike those two times on either side of my face. Or getting to close to my brother in his: 'If I'm annoyed at anything I'm going to find you and scratch your face era' That was painful. . That has it's few scars. They are faded but you can't see them well in this image very well either and you won't on the left side on the image cause I eddited it that due to many bite maks from mosquits and nats. -.-
Happiness, why are you not visable in my life in this current moment in time, It been long since we've been aquainted. :)
I can't post day 43 I don't think so anyhow. I think it could be triggering to some people. It's just of my chin to below my eyes and with a nose bleed type thing going down past my mouth. It's fake obviously. I'll mail an admin with the link to the picture to see if I can.
Edit: Infact, after reading the rules more in detail. There is no point asking the admins if I can post it, I'm not allowed to post anything with blood in it. Nevermind. sorry guys. Infact, one of my pictures probably should be removed from here. I'll leave that to the admins, if they decide if it should go. And It's against site rules for me to give my Flickr url away 'cause as it has that on it. So you can't ask for that if you want to see it. :)
There is nothing more beautiful than a parents love for their child.
From my last picture to this is a bit of a juxtaposition
This is Liberty, shes a little older than this now, but I love this shot and wanted to show it. Besides that I didn't really want to take picture of myself last night. sorry for this stupidly late post, I was 3 mins away from my usual posting time and I just fell asleep? Why am I always tired nowadays? I can only sleep 5 hours before I wake up again, with no alarm and I can't sleep when I wake up, so I have to get up. It gets annoying.
Today has almost been a perfect day, It was very random, I went into college the usual time of 9:15 and the teacher decied to drop the lesson plan go to the photography exibition in our Castle Museum. Which is pretty cool, as we're students we get in for free. The exibition is that of David Baily and others, Shots of old bands like The beatles, The who, The Rolling stones, Kinks, Jimmy Hendrix and everyone else. It was actually pretty cool, so that put me in a great mood.
I then went to treak off home and as I was in a good mood I took the nice way home along the river and through the woods. I ended up being at the river from 11:30am to 5pm, I stumbles across my father who was fishing since 2am, as fishing season started that day. So I spent alone time with him for the first time in. . Forever. We had a good talk and stuff and it made me appriciate him alot more and how much he is struggling. He is ment to be on a £22 an hour as a builder - foreman and whatnot. But there is NO work so he is really struggling hard first time in 12 years he's been jobless. Damn goverment.
But yes, then I got this shot and another i'll post tomorrow. I love that forest so much. Last of all, I went to the chip shot and got a large sausage and chips. To finish the amazing day off. :)
How did you do that one? Obviously you've used two pictures to make one, but how make it so flawless? you cna't tell which part belongs to which picture
"I would be almighty in my own world of art, even if I had to paint my pictures with my wet tongue on the dusty floor of my cell." -Picasso
"No, painting is not done to decorate apartments. It is an instrument of war." - Picasso
'I have scars becuase I have a past; but they, like my past, do not define my future'
I had a tripod set up obviously and was in varius positions and had all the pictures. But I went with those two as they looked the best, to put them together and basicly used the clone tool on photoshop and put them together and changed all the settings I needed to make them look the same. It's really not difficult. You jsut have to have the same lighting 'cause they were both taking within 10 mins of eachother. I always shoot in RAW too, it always helps. :)
Clone tool is the tool that looks like a stamp a couple under the spot healing took, depending on your version. Basicly you press alt and click on a space you want to clone - copy and then where every you click on the picture it starts copying that area. If that makes sense? Try it out and you'll get it.
And Raw. . hmmm how can I explain it simply. . Ok, it's a format you have you on a Digital SLR, like you could take pictures in Jpeg but thats a processed image so when you edit it and change settings and what not it can destroy pixels, however that makes it sound bad, it's really not. So a RAW file is an unprocessed image for more advanced editting, you'll need a converter for, it should come with your camera if it does RAW. It's just better to edit and alot easier to get what you want in a picture. So you can edit all the colours, tones, light/shadows level contrast alot better than a Jpeg plus loads of other things. Sorry if that was a bit jumpled. It's hard to explain it online. :)
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Excuses do not hold
I'm struck with my affliction
An inner perfect storm
Why didn't someone warn me
To save me from my self
The pain is self inflicted
The decisions were my own
Take my hand and learn from my heartache
50/ 365
I'm actually quite worried about this image and the responses I may get. I'am very tempted to change this to comments off and I'm not going to be posting this to any groups.Wwhat you see here is the shame of my past. I'm a new person now with new feelings. The fact that 1 - 10 people do this or something like it, scares the hell out of me it's just so many people, so I think there should be more of an awareness to it. I wish so much it never existed. . . I'm proud to say I've not done it for a LONG time andnever again. I humbly apologise to anyone whome is offended by this image.
There is so many amazing things in life to look forward too, I can only wait in anticipation too see what there is to come. I really hope in time my scars will fade and I can wear t-shirts again without feeling like i'm being stared at. One day. :D
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