hunny please go and get yourself checked out, it better to be safe than sorry.
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
im not too bad just watcjing tv. got a hell of a lot revision to do tomorrow.
how are you?
xx
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
I am okay, just opened a bottle of wine and watching a rom com - go me!
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
Im not in a great place. I keep laughing inapropriatly cos Im nervous and its upsetting my partner :/ I was trying to talk and all the things I said sounded really unhealthy to her, but I couldnt help laugh. Mood swings have been so bad today.
*cuddles everyone*
Ev, please go to the MIU, take a taxi if you wont ask for transport from NHS services. You need to go and get them sorted out.
I keep laughing but its everything i read about the scheme, my flatmates must think I am mental, a few hours ago I was in here myself shouting ;fuk sake andy and fukkin come on and fuk sake, then im laughing random when i read things about the scheme like and now im sitting watching a rom com and crying a bit
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
i was going to start it tonightbut ive just not got the energy soo i'll do it tomorrow.
i need to write notes on at least 6poems, then notes for jane, rochester and bertha so it will take me a good few hours but it gives me something to do because all i keep thinking about is Lucy's birthday.
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
now i am watching a beautiful mind, just seen dr nash getting some ect, oh well fun fun, good film tho it is
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
I know I pretty much talking to myself as nobody else is online, but I wanna do harm, I wanna cause harm now
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
I'm sorry for interfering in this thread since I don't comment in here. I do check it at least twice a day though and have done for about a year or so (I also have a tentative BPD diagnosis amongst a couple of others).
I am sorry things are so hard for you at the moment Holly but regardless of that is it really fair of you to post and suggest you have done something serious to hurt yourself? You might not say it directly but it is hinted and that coupled with the content of your other posts and the fact you are drinking is enough to worry people....especially people that care about you.
Soz pomegrante and thanks for your comments, yeah I do understnd where you coming from, I have been drinking, I am upset and I have had some thoughts, but I am in chat atm and see tbh, some fukkers out there really are spinless bastards, I don't wanna go like that, people not phoning for help as there is an ipad in it for them, fuk off....
Sorry if I have worried anyone tonight, I am okay and have taken my nightly meds, yeah I been drinking but hopefully will sleep soon..
xxx
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
I don't mean to be harsh Holly...I really don't and I know (from reading the thread) that you have some really crappy and stressful stuff going on at the moment with your Mum etc. You have every right to be upset, you don't have to apologise, I guess I just wanted you to think about how other people would feel if you had done something to yourself and then posted about it.
I'm glad you are ok and have now taken your night meds. Hope you sleep well and apologies for interfering in you guys' thread.
Don't apologise you are more than welcome to post, and I thank you for your concern. I aint doiing great, I have had a bottle of wine, some cider and atm all I have left is another can of cider, so not really enough to write home about really, when its done, I will be too probly...
I have taken my nightly meds as I said, have another can of cider here, my last and when its done, I am most certainly done...
Got a bit angry as there was a prat on chat, who was moer interested in an ipad than saving someones life, seriously, some people need to get a grip..
Anyway, hope your okay too xxx
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
I think there will always be idiots on the internet, especially on chat rooms etc but the key is to ignore them and remember that some of them may be automatic responses rather than real people being morons.
Hope you sleep well....I may venture in here at little bit more in the future.
