The Borderline Personality Disorder Thread

[ferretmonster]

hey ellie! hope your ok you red hot momma,

thanks, its bloody hard work, didnt think it would be as hard, but ho hum.

wheres my rowie? *hurmph*

im watching true blood and trying not to be norty

whats everyone else up to?

[dark faery princess]

I know I've just talked to you but heeey! Am very proud of your hard work *huggles*

Roooowiiieeeeee?? How are you? I'm sorry I haven't been around much, hope you're ok *huggles*

Oh true blood...Personally I was thinking of reading some Anne Rice Vampire chronicles, or maybe watching a bit of TWILIGHT - afterall sparjly vampires do it better... and of course to see the oh so sexy Jacob... JK!! hehe

Actually I'm attempting to tidy my room now I'm not being distracted by a certain ferret :P hehe. I'm going out tonight - gotta work out whether makeup will cover my face before I see PEOPLE

xx

[14MillionMiles]

Sorry if this is too much guys, I could just really do with a bit of immediate support.

I've got some really itchy healing wounds and it makes me want to injure even more, as I feel like because they're healing I'm not "good" enough at SI. I'm also alone today, and because I drank last night (not much) before taking my mirtazapine I slept really heavily, meaning I didn't wake up this morning when my OH went to work at 5.30. And now I feel like he won't come back, and that he doesn't love me anymore.

Have worked myself into a bit of a state really, and could do with a bit of help.

Sorry

[Hollz]

Don't have much to say but just wanted to give you a hug, please just ignore the itching, put on some gloves or just try and keep yourself occupied, and why wouldn't he come back, surely he will be back soon after work?

[14MillionMiles]

Thank you.

See, rational brain understands that. Mad brain (which is currently in control) doesn't. Mad brain thinks that because I didn't wake up and properly say goodbye I am a BAD partner.

Still feeling very triggered.

I feel ridiculous; especially whinging to you! Thank you so much for listening, but you're much more important. How are you doing? x

[ferretmonster]

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Originally Posted by dark faery princess

I know I've just talked to you but heeey! Am very proud of your hard work *huggles*

Roooowiiieeeeee?? How are you? I'm sorry I haven't been around much, hope you're ok *huggles*

Oh true blood...Personally I was thinking of reading some Anne Rice Vampire chronicles, or maybe watching a bit of TWILIGHT - afterall sparjly vampires do it better... and of course to see the oh so sexy Jacob... JK!! hehe

xx

know i know your mentally ill ;) :P

*blows kisses and bubbles*

[Hollz]

Well if I was in a relationship and at the moment I'm not, and my partner wanted to me to wake up and say goodbye at 5.30 in the morning, I'd tell them to royall fuk off, when I'm at work and well I'm off at the moment butmy earliest start is at 7am and I used to creep about the house so not to wake up my mum, dad or brother, even though my dads so loud and every time he sneexes I wake up, especially when he was in the spare room which was beside my bedroom, in my own flat well I aint had no early starts as I aint been at work really since February and since I been in this flat, think I signed off work before I moved here, even though I did go back phased return for a few weeks, didnt start sany earlier than 9. Sorry I am rambling about nothing.

I'm okay, I'ce been on a cleaning binge around the flat, washed all the floors, unpacked the microwave I bought the other day, put my washing out to dry, have a mass of ironing to do but think that could quite easily go to a shop and be done for me, coz I hate ironing.......my mum always took it to the shop, she hated it too, who knows how will my dad cope, I don't even know if he can iron a shirt, or my wee brother...

I am just sitting watching tennis at the moment, I have a bet on, 4 people to win, so far its 2/2 and need Andy Murray and Tsonga to win tonight, if they do then I'll be a grand up, I don't really care to be honest if I win or don't, its something I can do that I shouldn't but wont harm me physically, so I know people can tell me not to gamble but its done and is keeping me distratced from everything else.

I will be going up to my mum and dads for dinner anyway, always do on a Sunday you know, just going to have a take away tonight, no one is cooking anyway, last Sunday we all had a barbeque and it was nice even though I ate too much, tonight my mum won't be there and its going to be very weird :(

Omg just this time last week, we was all sitting outside, I had callum, kara and johnny all playing on the swing and I was running about trying to play football with a bunch of toddlers, my mum couldn't light the barbeque and sent me to the shops to get matches as her effort with burning paper was not working and the clicker doesnt work on the bbq, coz we dont have a gas one no more, I stuffed myself and had 3 burgers and jelly n ice cream mmmmm

I just feel so on my own though as my brother is married, my sister is married, my wee bro has a gf and who do I have, no-one...

sorry just set myself all there crying, I will be back after I've been up there, hope everyones ok

xxx

[14MillionMiles]

Take care of yourself love xxx

[dark faery princess]

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Originally Posted by Hollz

Well if I was in a relationship and at the moment I'm not, and my partner wanted to me to wake up and say goodbye at 5.30 in the morning, I'd tell them to royall fuk off

HAHA good on ya hollz! Same here x

[dark faery princess]

*hugs* Hollz, you're not on your own hun *cuddles*

x

[14MillionMiles]

Ooops.

[dark faery princess]

Oh and Hollz, I'm not approving of your gambling here, but I hope you win, you could do with some good news.

I can't stop thinking about you and what you must be going through. I'm sorry it's such an awful time for you. I hope dinner at your rents house isn't too weird

x

[dark faery princess]

Pub tonight. YAY.Can't wait. I dunno if anyone follows sport at all, so hollz, you may be the onlyperson that appreciates this... The leicester Tigers drink where we are going tonight. Most of them are arrogant arses and their academy players are even worse! I punched one of them last time and pulled his hair cos he called me a c*nt.

Made me a bit of a legend. Except I was so drunk I woek up the next morning, like shiiiiit everyone is gonna hate me! But htey all thought it was awesome lol

x

[youngatheart]

Hollz *hugs*

How is everyone tonight? What are you all up to?

[dark faery princess]

Just pub for me... There was a fight outside in the street just now - we all went out cos it sounded like some girls were being attacked.

What about you?

x

[x-dying-inside-x]

hi everyone how are you all?
I've not long got back from my nan's. i really need to start my revision notes for English but i've not got the energy tonight, so looks like a day of revision tomorrow!
xxx

[youngatheart]

ellie ~ hope you have a great time at the pub! cant wait til I can drink again :)

dani~ how was it at your nans? what are you studying in english at the moment?

[x-dying-inside-x]

yer it was ok, my nans not that good but im sure she'll get better soon.

I've got my english exam in just over a week so i've got to do revision notes on the poems we have done, jane eyre and wide sargasso sea.

[x-dying-inside-x]

have fun at the pub hunny!

[Hollz]

ahhhhhhhhhhhh fukkin come on andy murray

ugh