Tell Your Secrets! And Be Honest!!

[OneManDisco]

I want to be noticed just as much as I want to be invisible.
I wish it was that easy to be noticed.
The consequences are too severe.
Plod along.

[Misunderstood.]

Strangely enough, I prefered watching myself type a fool of myself.
If this had the slightest chance of being funny it be laughable.
I already miss you.
I must seem so pathetic.
I decide to make one [to me] major decision and even in doing that I make a mistake.
I honestly don't know what I'm doing here alive.
Mum wants me to get a job.
I honestly don't think I'm upto it but the pressure brought on by her expectations is awful. It's like I have to majic myself well somehow.
I'm very unhappy with this existence and it can't end quickly enough.
I idealise suicide on a daily basis.
I won't organise seeing my psych sooner because medication cannot change the way I am....and nor can I.

[*fallenangel*]

After deciding i never wanted to fall in love again
Im falling for the most innapropriate person I could
why do i do this to myself???

[Samzi]

I just want someone to talk to. Someone who makes me feel wanted. I don't even want to talk about myself. I just want to talk about...anything. I want to just talk. I want to feel like someone is thinking about me. I want to get a text here and there, come home to an e-mail. Feel like I have a friend.

But I know no one cares enough to waste time on that.

[Strawberry.Bananas]

I'm finally rediscovering who I am.

[Samzi]

I lied to my accounting teacher to get her to let me do a lab I missed. I told her I had to go out of town for a funeral. In reality I could not be motivated to care about it.

[Popple]

Im so scared and I am pushing everyone away but really I want someone to see through it and save me before it's too late..

[Kuwairo]

Elaine.
I just saw you on facebook.
I don't hate you any more.
You're pathetic.

[ChocolateOrange]

I wish someone could save me. I realise I cannot be saved. I am a ticking time bomb to my death which will happen very very soon.

[lungs locked lips locked]

Im drinking vodka because I hope to get so drunk, that I either have the balls to run a bath and cut at 2 in the morning, or just cut here, deep, in my room.

*fingers crossed* heh.

[Kuwairo]

I have worked out a way I can die.
It's particularly unpleasant, but I'm not sure I care.

[Kazo]

All I ever wanted was a family that actually cared about me. I thought it would get better after I moved from my abusive mother, but now I find myself missing her... At least she cared enough to abuse me. I bet no one would even notice it if I just died.

I wish someone would notice...

(And I hate myself for wanting that kind of attention)

[Popple]

I'm sick of people telling me I look like death..
Yes this is what it has done to me..
Get over it!

[ImaginaryFiend]

i never really stopped and i'm not really okay i just wish you wouldn't ignore me it hurts so much

[Ingenue]

I lied to you the other day.
When i said i wanted to look through your room for them.
I didn't.
I actually searched through your room for them. I was that desperate.
I didn't find them though. And the truth is I hated you for keeping me safe.

[Leo Pard]

You couldn't have come along at a better time. Honestly. I need you.

I wish I had alcohol. I need to drink. I guess it's to quieten the voices in my head but I don't know. I don't need alcohol like I need cutting or whatever.. but I just can't help but wonder...

[IcarusDrowning]

I don't see a point to any of this...I'm going to be found out any day now and the disappointment everyone is going to feel will be crushing.

If only there was some way out

I would do anything not to feel like this.

[polly_cocktails]

i feel disgusting...i havent had a shower in 2 days...i can't be bothered to do anything, i feel weak, so so weak...everythings falling apart again...and there's nothing i can do to stop it...

[((deleted))]

I love a man who is far, far too old for me. But I can't make these feelings go away. And they scare me.

[theity]

I think thoughts so terrible that I am afraid of going out in public places because someone might be able to sense it on me.
Sometimes I do think I can see these things on others.
Sometimes I think I want to find someone just like me.
Sometimes I think I am a monster.