You don't mind me crashing this thread do you because as far as I am aware I haven't been labelled as bpd, it's just been hinted at?
I (finally) have the first assessment appt at a psychotherapy place at beginning of March. They specialise in entrenched emotional difficulties and moderate to sever personality disorders. The letter says that they want to get to know about my current circumstances to see whether to go onto the next assessment. I'm scared they might reject me as my psych and cpn both think this is the treatment that will help. What if they don't accept me - argh! At the same time, I am scared they will accept me as that means raking over all those things I pretend didn't happen or affect me.
Sorry!
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
no reason - you're certainly not crashing the thread - don't apologise! The only advice I can offer you is not to worry about whether or not you're accepted for this particular therapy - if you are, it may be uncomfortable going over things, but no one will rush you or force you to say anything you dont want to and hopefully it will help in the end. Even if you dont get accepted, there will be something else you can try so try not to worry too much (easier said than done i know)! xxx
Sorry you are in hospital Laura (i hope you don't mind me calling you by your name). I've never suffered with psychosis but do have pseudo-hallucinations which become too much at times - I hear voices and somtimes see things. They are worse when I am particularly anxious or down.
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
I havent been diagnosed for the simple reason that I'm too scared to go to my doctor. I have a lot of the traits associated with BPD, but my family wouldnt be able to deal with it =/ Especially my parents.
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Hugs Laura. I haven't got psychosis, only medication induced psychosis and times. I hope the hospital is helping you.
I am going back in to hospital tomorrow. I'm finding it all very frustrating and hopeless. To be truthful, I am trying my best to do things that help me but I'm obviously not doing a good job! I just feel like this whole BPD is never-ending, when does it stop? They say recovery comes from within but I've been recovering from within for a long time now and I just get more and more hopeless all the time. I feel more borderline now than I ever did.
I know what you mean by it being 'final' when you are diagnosed with it. For the past few yrs it has been hinted at me that I have BPD but until I was in hosp a few weeks ago... I had never been diagnosed with it... since being diagnosed though things just seem to be worse. I even had an argument with my counsellor over it... I was saying it was a mental illness but she disagreed and said it was a psyhcial illness... and she was right... borderline has to do with the brain not forming properly and so hence emotions being everywhere and crazy...
I tried talking to a friend about it yesterday but she didnt seem to understand at all. It feels as though this BPD diagnosis is just taking everything away from me and even though I know it doesnt define who I really am.... it is still the centre of my world
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It feels as though this BPD diagnosis is just taking everything away from me and even though I know it doesnt define who I really am.... it is still the centre of my world
i heard today from another patient (who's Bipolar) that they're adding PDs to a special form that makes you exempt from having to do something (can't remember what) relating to benefits - possibly Incapacity, i'm not sure. before it was only Schizophrenia and Bipolar that made you not have to do this thing (am explaining badly, sorry, can't remember!) but next year they're adding PDs. so PDs are finally starting to be recognised as a serious condition. yay!
How come I'm exempt? Dunno, just got a letter through when I claimed saying "due to the nature of your illness you do not have to send any doctors certificates" etc etc
Isn’t it funny how day by day nothing changes but when you look back, everything is different…
you once called your brain a hard drive, well say hello to the virus.
srry to butt in...i just wanna say that i have bpd and i think that lables are...misleading...in my opinion everyone can be any illness during a part of their life and idk...i think that this world would be better if the damn dr's wernt so eager to say we are this or that...idk, just my opinion...its probly wrong but o well....
"why get mad at the things that once made you smile?"
Stay strong everyone! xxx
