*cuddles everyone* i'm sat at home cold and alone trying to write an essay, mum and sister are stuck at the supermarkt because the traffic isnt moving because of snow.
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
"hugs imogen back" thanks.
I dont know what is wrong with me. I should be happy, sixteen months and two weeks free is meant to be good..... im meant to be happy with myself....im meant to be on the road to recovery.....but i still cant talk about the last few months, I havent been to counselling in months and I am craving so much right now. It hurts.
Im not looking forward to christmas, like a "normal" person should. Im dreading it. The first christmas without Pop. Im hoping its going to be cold and wet, not sunny and hot like it normally is.
My family will go beserk if they found out I have self harm on the brain.... Im trying to fight the urges for everyone else. I dont know what I want. I am confused and thinking about the reasons why I am confused, I am scared to think about it, let alone talk to someone about it.
Nan is here, for I dont know how long. She is 91, frail and deaf.
So im not "exactly" home alone. But I can still do whatever I want.
Just fustrating.
I feel so alone.
I cant talk to anyone in the "real" world, because everything is too painful and I feel that i am being a bother on here because I talk too much.
"buries head in hands"
I feel that I will let everyone down.....
Im just not coping, the way everyone thinks that I am.... Im not coping at all. Its too hard for me to talk about or write about. No one wants me cutting again. I dont know what I want.
*hugs* your not bothering anyone and dont worry about it being long, its good you got it out. 16 months is amazing, but that doesnt mean you should be happy, you have to take your time and recovery is a long process. I'm very sorry it will be your first christmas without your pops, that will be hard.
I'm here if you ever want to talk, just pm me and i promise you will never be a bother
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
“Never lose faith in yourself,
and never lose hope;
remember, even when this world throws its worst and then turns its back,
there is still always hope.”
