I don't want to hang out with you. You tell me to hang in there because it's the only thing you can say. There's so much more you could say, so much more you could offer. Go figure you can't, or won't. Shocking, really.
I wish you would be able to say you understand and REALLY mean it. You don't understand unless you're going through it or have gone through it. Your words mean nothing to me at this point.
And no... I don't wish I'm alive. I wish I were dead. So, FU.
If someone ever says to you "You need to stop thinking so much," call them ignorant in your head and keep thinking deeper. It is this mentality that breeds stupidity and sheeple. Your mind is the most important tool you have. If you stop using it, it will atrophy.
I'm terrified that you're going to see me, laugh, and call off EVERYTHING
and then....of what I'll do
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
I'm still afraid that I'm going to say something, push you too far and then you're going to leave
I'm not asking you to sit there and do nothing while you watch me die
I hope you know that
I'm asking you to help me
in any way that you know how
even if it's just being there for me after a meal
and just so you know, I'll probably hate that
but I do want your help
I love you
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
Please, please just tell me that you hate me. Tell me that it's hard to be my friend. Tell me that you never want to see me again.
It will hurt less that way.
You told me to fly, but you didn't give me any wings.
im not sure if i exist. i dont know if i have an identity. not sure if im supposed to live in another life, in another universe. i dont feel that i belong here, im not sure what to do.
You matter, as you are and not as you pretend to be. I wish I could get through to you to talk to me as a real person. I'm not some computer generated response . I feel and I hurt and I cry.
You have your own agenda, and f'd up view of the world. Don't put me in that mix, I am far beyond all the people that have let you down. Trust me as I have put my trust and belief in you, if you can't or won't then let me go and spend your time with someone who can actually help you.
I love you as a child. I shouldn't, and it complicates my life, but unfortunately its true. So please don't fuck with me. I'm not as strong as you think.
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
~I understand that you're trans, I do, I understand that you want to be a guy, but you have to listen to me when I say that you CANNOT announce something like that as PUBLICALLY as you did today! you can't, people may seem accepting now, sweetie, it's highschool, you don'y announce something like that to the entire world! do you know the horrible things people (gay, lesbian, bisexual, AND transgendered) have been put through?
do you understand that, that's why it took me YEARS to come out of the closet as a lesbian?
you can't just announce something like that and expect everyone to accept it!
I've known you were a trans-individual before you even admitted it, I've known you since my 10th grade year, THAT is how long I've known you were trans.
but please, oh PLEASE don't let this just be a new cool "it" thing, once you get that op. and once you take those hormones there is no going back and no reversing it
and another thing, if you're doing this just because you want Britt to be with you, you're an idiot.
Britt is a LESBIAN, she's only with her husbend because her family would kill her, she's one of those girls that won't come all the way out of the closet til she's 30 and married.
and also, just because I was with you and married you, and you're trans now doesn't make me bisexual
I dated you when you were female, I liked you as female
because obviously I like girls
if you were to walk up to me when you got the op. done and hit on me, I'd probably politely turn you down and tell you I'm not interested, because males arn't my thing. sorry.
fuck, just don't let this be something that you do for attention, if that is the case, then you're a disgrace to the ENTIRE LGBT community
people like you are the reason some gay teens and adults still file hate crimes.
you're being fucking ignorent.
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
~ I miss you, I do, I had no idea what you ment when you said "I'll miss you this week" and then it clicked, you'll be with fam' prolly not have your laptop with you.
I don't think I've ever felt this lonely, you're with me sure, but you're not with me, here, in arms reach, or the closest thing too that. I'm going to have a hard time this week.
I love you, I do
I hope you have fun
I'll deal. I've delt with worse
I'm just excited to be actually with you. you know that.
I love you so, so so much my dark eyed angel, you have no idea
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
I'm planning again. I honestly never meant to... but ever since the other night at my friends house... I've realised all over again what an enourmous failure I am at life.
I can honestly say that in the back of my mind I don't truly want to end my life. What I really want is an end to all of these feelings and an end to all of this emotional pain I keep putting myself through. It's not your fault at all because you have done nothing wrong. This is all my own doing...
Location: In a glass vial in the pocket of a beautiful mind.
I am currently:
I want her!
damnit.
I really do.
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"Sacrifice is the most you can love someone." ♥
“Love was at best an excuse for stupidity, at worst a destructive, dangerous emotion that drove men to acts of annihilation which defied logic. It was a twisted, insidious sentiment used to justify everything from spoiling a child to destroying entire civilizations.”
I wish you'd stop making me feel worthless, or trivialize my problems. I wish you'd stop acting like nothing's wrong - just fucking acknowledge me for who I am.
I hate you.
If someone ever says to you "You need to stop thinking so much," call them ignorant in your head and keep thinking deeper. It is this mentality that breeds stupidity and sheeple. Your mind is the most important tool you have. If you stop using it, it will atrophy.