Angel_Girl thats really cool! I'm helen if you ever wanted to know *joins in with the goofy smiling*
What i came here to say was God is really great :) He's been doing some really good things for me and I just wanted to share. If any of you have a youth bible you'll know they have great little stories in, but anyway i was reading one the other day and it was talking about how worship could be just appriciating the world God made for us and it's just like when someone compliments you on something you've made. After reading that I went outside and looked at the sky and I was completely blown away by it, i can't explain it but i saw it in a whole new way and I saw how amazing creation is. I'm praying you guys can all have little revelations of your own because its pulled me back to God in a big way, also 75 days free today so yay for God!
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'The nights of crying your eyes out give way to the days of laughter' Psalm 30 v 5
well hello salanna and tom and deena and sarah and everyone else! i'm jacie.
sarah, yeah i think you are a bit older than the rest of us but we could use that around here :) until you showed up i was the oldest, I think. i'll be 19 in december.
I just wanted to praise the Lord and thank Him for being there always and I know I only have to look and he's there without fail. I couldnt be this strong without the Lord, I would long ago have killed myself, but he saved me and now I follow him. My faith is more a personal thing and I feel I have a personal relationship with God, I read a few books on religion and my bible, but I dont really go to church although I do go to a church organisation called Girls Briagade, which I love, Ive been there 8 years this October. Everyone on here is in my prayers.
Then wear the gold hat, if that will move her;
If you can bounce high, bounce for her too,
Till she cry "Lover, gold-hatted, high-bouncing lover,
I must have you!"
Thomas Parke D’Invilliers
I wanted to start posting on this thread again, because for a while I had nothing to say, but now I do. I want to ask people in here, cause this is how I'm currently feeling, and we talked and sang about this in friday night prayer last week.
Does anyone know that feeling that you feel like if you do one more thing, it will be "the last straw" for Jesus, yet you know in your heart that he won't mind? Cause I know that when I SI I am moving away from God, I'm trying to use something else to take the place in my life that only God fits right into.
Also every time I pray lately one question comes to my mind. Why does he keep forgiving me? I mean, I am far from a very good christian, but I'm still here, praising his name in prayer 3 times a week, since I feel that is the least I can do.
I beg and plead with God in every prayer meeting to make the urges go away, and to make this night of praise more than just something to keep me out of my dorm room during the most dangerous part of the night. I just don't know why He has given me all of these wonderful christians to hang out with so I don't end up drunk out of my rocker on Friday nights. I don't deserve any of this, I deserve to be alone all the time!
Yea, this turned more into a rant, but I felt that I could say something on here, and maybe receive some guidance. Thanks guys.
...this would be funny if it weren't so true.
My little town in Jersey needs a lot of prayer right now. This boy I grew up with, elementary school all the way through high school, just died from a rare form of leukemia. he was fine, a few months ago when we all graduated. he'd been in remission for 6 months or so, we all thought it was gonna be okay, and...now it's not. the viewing is thursday night. pray for his family
1)def praying
2)you're in jersey?! whereeee =D
i know of like 3-4 people on here from jersey period =p
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
"Does anyone know that feeling that you feel like if you do one more thing, it will be "the last straw" for Jesus, yet you know in your heart that he won't mind? Cause I know that when I SI I am moving away from God, I'm trying to use something else to take the place in my life that only God fits right into.
Also every time I pray lately one question comes to my mind. Why does he keep forgiving me? I mean, I am far from a very good christian, but I'm still here, praising his name in prayer 3 times a week, since I feel that is the least I can do."
i have no advice but i definitely know how you feel *hugs and prayers*
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
hi =) i'm eryn
and i feel that way all the time horseridinbbe!
you know whats really cool tho?? i haven't even wanted to si since i got saved really...its pretty cooll...every once in a while i struggle with it but i honestly haven't had much of a problem with it....i think God's taken it from me for the most part because he knows i can't concentrate on getting rid of two things at once lol...but i think god's pretty cool =)
HorseRidinBbe07: south jersey :) hit or miss? (lol battleship reference) and, i looked at your profile...you have the same birthday as my best friend, which also happens to be my one-year mark. XD
thesufferercomplex: yeah. i feel that way a lot. actually, i came to some conclusions today about all of it...since i heard that my friend died of leukemia, i've been suffering from a case of survivor's guilt. he was a good person, so many people will miss him...i found myself wondering why him and not me. it isn't that i want to die, more like i wouldn't mind. and way less people would miss me, than him. there's nothing i'd miss a whole lot, nothing i'm doing that couldn't be accomplished by someone else.
...so then i caught myself thinking like that. lol. and i asked myself, "if you don't care about dying...why are you still alive?" not in a physical manner, but a spiritual one. in a dying-to-ourselves type way. and i came to a conclusion with the help of a silly little metaphor that proves i watch too many medical dramas...
so...picture God as an ER doctor. (lol, i know, bear with me...) and now we have a patient, who happens to be biologically dead. we've got all sorts of things to fix that nowadays, CPR and AED's and whatnot...so, the doctor brings the patient back to life. fine, good, happy ending...great for all involved, i guess. now, let's say we've got another patient. i know an ER nurse that ended up crying in the middle of her shift because of a suicide case that resisted treatment. that girl (the patient) fought all attempts to save her life, even while she was unconscious. because in her mindset, life hurts and she wants no part of it.
now, let's talk scripture. paul mentions a million times that we have to die to ourselves to truly live, that we don't live, but christ lives through us...the old has died and we are living the life of a new creation, etc etc etc. or that's what's supposed to happen, see patient scenario numero uno. but i, and i have a feeling some of you, are not patient #1's. we're the spiritual suicide cases who know how much it hurts to really be alive. dying to ourselves? sure, no problem! we will, in fact, use all means necessary to make it happen...drugs, alcohol, SI, eating disorders, sex, living in a fantasy world...we'll do anything to kill off our souls, just so we don't have to feel the pain. and that isn't normal. it means we've been hurt, badly, because what else is gonna make you resort to that but the loss of hope? we know what living means. it means letting people in and getting hurt by them, it means being disappointed again and again and again, it means being betrayed by those who are supposed to love us. and if that's what life means to us, why wouldn't we fight it?
but dying is only half of the equation. not only do we have to die to ourselves, but we have to allow the Great Physician to do his part and raise us from the dead. it's the point of this whole thing, after all. so many of us are crying out, "why are you doing this? just let me die! stop it, life hurts!" but we don't even know what real life is like, because we've never experienced it. we don't even know the 'fake' life that the others around us know...we only know the pain.
so, i guess what it comes down to, as usual, is faith and courage. can we open ourselves up to the possibility of being hurt again, so we can live? can we trust God with our lives and not just our deaths?
Then wear the gold hat, if that will move her;
If you can bounce high, bounce for her too,
Till she cry "Lover, gold-hatted, high-bouncing lover,
I must have you!"
Thomas Parke D’Invilliers
central jersey's obv better ;)
and cool @ someone having my bday AND that being your year mark =]
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
Prayer team -
Just a reminder that we agreed to be honest about our struggles.
and I think we should all be praying for each other.
This is hard on all of us...
Just remember that the fact that satan is attacking us means that he is afraid of the good we might do.
Stay strong.
Well, hello Tom, Helen, Sarah, Jacie, Eryn and everyone else. :D Just to mention - I'm 21. How old are you, Sarah? (if that's not too personal)
My state of mind, body and soul is extremely good at the moment. I feel so much happier since I stopped SI. Prayer gives me the necessary strength and you guys give me support.
