The Borderline Personality Disorder Thread

[x-dying-inside-x]

hi everyone.
how are you all?

[~Grace~]

Hi daniella...hows things with you hun? xx

[hellz]

you really hyper today aint u claire? good on u. can i be one fo ur bpd childrens so i can get cuddles?

i have just realised that im watching girl interupted probs a tad ironic. yeah im gonna tell the consultant what the voices are saying and tbh i feel a bit safer with a nurse with me just now. think im going to go to group tomorrow if i can handle it so hopefully my anti pyschotics will start to kick in in the next few days and i'll get going with the cbt stuff but im scared cos i know the 2nd im on my own the voices are going to make me do something stupid.

bit wobbly might put girl interupted off might make me thing bad things or see things in the wrong way. hmmm i keep getting fed valliums every hour or so surely that isnt a good thing?

[ferretmonster]

hey hellz sure you can be one of my childrens *huggles*

starting to slow down now.....

[hellz]

horray for claire huggles just what i needed

[~Grace~]

You sound much better today hellz....im so glad. Big huggles from me too hun xx

[hellz]

yeah its probs just cos im full of vallium but aparently my anti psychotics only take a few days to kick in too so everything is looking a bit better. big huggles straight back at ya rowie hun how are u today?

[~Grace~]

Im kind of ok.....just ''there'' if you know what i mean...neither one thing or the other which i suppose is good.
Am glad the meds are helping hun and its so good that youve told them about the voices.
Now they know they should be able to give you meds to keep them in control xxx

[hellz]

glad ur doing ok rowie, and i know i've said it loads and loads and i probably sound like a stuck record but thanks for everything over the last wee while u really are a gem.

hmmm im dying for a pee but i just cant go with a nurse watching (sorry none of u really needed to know that but anyway)

[~Grace~]

can you not go in private? Im so sorry hun.
Hey...we all look after each other on 'our' thread...i think its really special that we do. xxxx

[ferretmonster]

hey hellz, u sound so much better today hunny its so nice to see :)

im just in the middle of cleaning the rats out but someone *ahem dad* has stolen my compost for their diggin box so mums just popped out to get some bits including compost so im just waiting for her return.

[hellz]

im afraid not rowie im not allowed out of a nurses sight for even 2 seconds at the moment but then i cant complain cos im not really able to make sure im safe on my own just now.

yeah im feeling much better claire still wobbly but i know im safe and medicated! might sound like a stupid question but why would ur dad steal the rats compost?

[ferretmonster]

lol he used it to plant something out i think, its ok they now have a fresh bag and this time they actually are using it!!! yay

oh high has calmed down now and im just wondering whether to spend my very last pennies on a dvd or if i can manage to wait .....ive been looking for it for ages tho...want itttt


im glad your safe hunny x

[ferretmonster]

opps it is done :D

[hellz]

what dvd was it claire? x

[ferretmonster]

taking over the asylum, has got a baby david tenant in it :)

[Bleeding Angel]

removing..

I guess the point is i cant help anyone. And right now i cant be a part of it.

[ferretmonster]

*hugs mari*

i know what you mean hun and although im sad you feel you need to do this i completely understand x

[~Grace~]

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*Hugs Mari*

I can relate. It has happened to me with a friend and it such an incredibly difficult situation. I needed the support of my GP to even things out and even then it wasn't easy. Please be kind to yourself and do what you need to do. x