Tell Your Secrets! And Be Honest!!

[Namaste]

I really would rather starve that be fat...
But the truth is, no matter how hard I try I CAN'T STOP EATING.
I think theonly way to end my gorging is by ending my life.
I don't want to live like this...
=(

[ashlee_118]

Im so scared 2 take a test if i do it makes it all real it makes what u do and what happened so real and if it becomes real i dont think ill cope

[Kitsch]

Fearing to fall and still the ground below me calls.

I could probably stop myself from falling, but I'm not sure I have the will-power anymore. None of the things stopping me previously hold me back now, and I'm getting sucked into a whirlwind of self-destruction. Perhaps I want to fall. Perhaps I deserve to fall. I reassure you that I'm not going to let myself get sucked into that just so that you'll give me the drugs.


I lied my face off when I said that I would be okay.

I keep telling you that I'm okay but I'm lying through my teeth. It's killing me because I hate lying to you but you have enough on your plate without having to worry about me, and you're far enough away that you can't find out otherwise. You said that I'm your hero; you would be so disappointed.

[SarahBlue]

When I remember how it makes me feel, I want it more. It's been a while now. But I think I am ready to resort back to it. I have given up on myself.

[shieldworld]

I know that when he leaves, I'll have lost everything.

[Strawberry.Bananas]

I can't forgive him for what he did. I'm scared I'm going to do something...to him...that could end me in a lot of trouble.

[*fallenangel*]

At what point will the sadness end and the happiness start????
im so tired of feeling sad
im tired of missing her, tired of remembering how it used to be
im tired of being confused
im tired of IT ALL
i just wanna be your regular happy person

WHYS THATS SO DIFFICULT?????

[guiltyinnocence]

im scared of something beyond my control killing me
i want to die on my own terms

[Popple]

I was getting strange looks in the shop when I was buying the last of my stuff and all I could think was at least after tommorow I will never have to see you again
Im almost looking forward to it being over now just because Im so tired of it all

[Sunshine]

I am ment to be better now and happy and i am! i am happy! but then another part of me feels like im sinking, i don't know why and i cant tell people because then they will keep me in hospital for longer!

ive already been their 3 months! starving seems the only way forward! i can punish myself for feeling scared when im ment to be better and noone will notice maybe i can fade away!

[polly_cocktails]

i know what i need right now...i need the sleep that i get after copious amounts of alcohol...that deep, vodka-induced sleep, that grabs me from the world, no matter where i am or what im doing...thats what i need right now...to not have the ability to think...for my eyes just to shut, and my thoughts switch off..i need that so badly...

[sparkle.]

it's not the best kept secret in the world. I hate myself.
And I wish that you would hate me. I don't deserve anything more, not really.

[Strawberry.Bananas]

I'm going back to cutting. Fuck all this recovery crap.

[Heather47]

One day I won't be friends with you anymore, and you'll miss me.
One day I'll stop just agreeing with my mother
One day my father won't be perfect to the world anymore, and they'll hate you.
One afternoon I'll stop speaking to you.
One day I'll find someone who can deal with me, and my problems.
One day, hopefully soon, something good will happen, and I can finally get away from all of this....

[BlindSpot.]

I love you.

[Popple]

I failed.

[espoir]

ive bought more diet pills.
an old school friend served me.
i know she knew they were for me.
i should be embarrased
im past caring

[*phantom*]

i wish he'd notice me.

[Kiss Me Furfrog]

Its all coming back, so fast...It hurts.
And the truth is, i want it to completely push me over the edge.
I want it to finish me.
I can't live this life anymore.

[greenspot]

I want him to do it! how f***ing selfish am I? I want him to do it so that i can finaly have an exuse to tell people about what i do. At the same time if he did then i'd be afraid that i would too. I'm a horrible person.