Hiya everyone. Today I made it to 5 days SI free. Two more days and I have a week. Thanks to everyone who has offerred support and hugs. I'm now at a place that not that long ago I thought I'd never reach. My two best friends IRL are also pulling for me here... they are the only two IRL who realise just how hard I'm fighting.
*offers hugs to anyone who needs them*
Hopefully by the time my 1 month free bracelet arrives I'll be well on my way to that goal.
I seriously need a smoke ..... *walks out to the smoking shelter for a quick fag... or 6*
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
*Wanders in with a weird look in his eye* i cant take it *cries*
I GeT Lei'd In Vets
~An Angel Or A Charlatan?~
"i'd rather hate you for everything you are, than ever love you for something you are not, i'd rather you hate me for everything i am than have you love me love me for something i can't BE!"
*takes up the hug offer* any one need a drink i have coffee tea and some sqaush and i think i have some coke and some sprite somewhere lol and i am sure i could find anything else you fancy
I GeT Lei'd In Vets
~An Angel Or A Charlatan?~
"i'd rather hate you for everything you are, than ever love you for something you are not, i'd rather you hate me for everything i am than have you love me love me for something i can't BE!"
WHY FFS IS IT THAT PEOPLE ALWAYS TELL ME THEY LOVE ME WHEN THEY ARE ABANDONING ME?
WHY IS IT ALWAYS MY JOB TO TAKE CARE OF PEOPLE BUT NEVER BE TAKEN CARE OF?
Bro, thanks, but I don't want to share space. What you've created is way too nice for lard ass river trash like me. I wanted to crawl in because it was dark and quiet. Besides, games make me want to lose my lunch.
*finds a trapdoor into the basement. Makes magical rug that will hide the door once i'm in.*
*screams until sick*
*cries until exhausted*
I felt so awful today that I
1. removed the orange ribbons from the antenna of the suv
2. broke the elastic holding my bracelet together. I think most of the beads landed in the med case but i'm not sure.
The ONLY thing that kept me from turning myself into ground round today was the implicit promise I made to my friend in the meeting on Thursday night.
*resumes screaming*
My husband is my best friend.
In forgiving others, we are not exonerating them. They may not deserve exoneration. Rather, in forgiving others we are giving up our anger over the fact that what happened is not what "should" have happened or that our life is not the way it "should" have been.
*thinks* i really need to be up tommorow... *builds a sleepy place in a corner... picks up a teddy of an owl (bobble) and falls asleep crying*
I GeT Lei'd In Vets
~An Angel Or A Charlatan?~
"i'd rather hate you for everything you are, than ever love you for something you are not, i'd rather you hate me for everything i am than have you love me love me for something i can't BE!"
*continues to scream and sob.*
damn it, damn me for caring so much and damn me for being so needy
My husband is my best friend.
In forgiving others, we are not exonerating them. They may not deserve exoneration. Rather, in forgiving others we are giving up our anger over the fact that what happened is not what "should" have happened or that our life is not the way it "should" have been.
Susan. STOP IT! You are not a fat lard ass anything! I'm sorry you're hurt so much! I wish I knew what had hapened, but you're wonderful!!!!! I don't want you to hurt yourself. I don't think you need to. You got through so far, you can KEEP getting through.
"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind."
Hello all. Today I made it to 6 whole SI free days. I had to stop one of my best friends in the world from killing himself, and tell my other best friend to admit that she had done something dangerous so we could take her to the hospital. She's going to be in there for tonight at least. I feel like crap. I feel like it's my fault that these guys are going through hell. I feel like the only way it can ever get better for them is for me to disappear completely. Maybe I should.
I'm going to go and hide in the smoking shelter and cry until I run out of tears.
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
See my new post in my sober 14 years thread.
For some reason, after crying a good deal of the day yesterday and being 2.5 hours short on sleep, my eyes are burning.
Please pass me a 2 liter bottle of diet pepsi, and some caffeine gum?
*schemes*
*cuddles everyone, curls up into their hugs and cuddles*
My husband is my best friend.
In forgiving others, we are not exonerating them. They may not deserve exoneration. Rather, in forgiving others we are giving up our anger over the fact that what happened is not what "should" have happened or that our life is not the way it "should" have been.
