omg lucy im so sorry.
i feel like everyone has left you.
i ent to your grave and no one had been, im so sorry, i feel so bad.
i miss you.
xxxxxxx
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
Hiya hun. I still think about you everyday. Your never far from my thoughts. I hope your ok with everything thats been going on. It's weird them being together but i think they need each other. They will never forget you, none of us will. I can't believe it's been 7 months. i can still still see your face and hear your voice "innit" lol!!
Nan,
I never thought losing someone would be so hard. You'll have been gone 2 years in February...2 years. Granddad will have been gone 4. It's gone so quickly yet so slowly. I miss you so much. So much that it hurts, constantly. I want so much just to be back with you or for you to be back with me. You weren't just my nan you were my best friend...my second mother, the one person that could make me feel better with something as simple as a smile or a hug. That's what I miss the most. Everything seems so hard without you around. Everything good that happens I want to come to you with, for you to be proud of me but I cant. I want to call you when things go wrong...for you to tell me that they're being stupid and you'll have a cup of tea, some biscuits and a hug ready for me when I get home to make all the bad things go away. I want you back. No one can ever do for me what you did. I still cry when I see your house, I cry when I hear a song that reminds me off you, I cry when I read the letters you wrote to me, particularly the one that wishes you were here for my '16th, 18th and maybe even 21st birthdays'...you didn't make my 16th nanny...I'm sorry...I should have found a way for it all to go faster. I'm sorry I pushed you away at the end nanny...I didn't mean to, I didn't know you were so ill...I didn't know it hurt you...I think I was trying to protect myself by pushing the people I loved the most away, looks like I ****ed that one up cause it hurts more now knowing I could have been with you in those last months but I wasn't. I was at my house round the corner talking to people on this stupid laptop. The laptop that took over my life in that time. There's so much that reminds me of you...I can hardly stand to look at it. I know the image of you and the pain will fade but I dont want it to. I dont ever want to forget you cause I risk forgetting everything you did. I'm confused. Always confused. I need you back. I need a hug and a smile and the jewels on that one t-shirt you used to wear that I used to play with while you played with my hair. I feel like a child again when I think of you...I was always your baby...why did it have to change nanny? Why did you have to go. I hope you're happy now you're back with granddad...I hope you're watching over me. Everything I do, I do to try and make you proud. I love you nanny, I love you Granddad...I'll see you soon. I promise. Xx
I didn't know you very well but the times we spent together were fun. Although you were ill you such a bright, bubbly, funny person with a heart of gold.
I'm so sorry you felt you had to hang yourself
I'm so sorry I didn't do more to help you
I'm sorry I didn't find out sooner
I'm so sorry I don't even know where you are to lay flowers at your grave.
neil.
i miss you so much.
i wish that you'd told me you were going to do it. i'd have done it too.
i don't blame you though, you had a hard life.
everyone misses you. even your parents. they went to pride07.
chantelle's sister died on 7/7, i hope she's looking after you up there.
i love you.
you were the best friend i've ever had.
wait for me?
Angels have no thought
of ever returning you,
would they be angry
if I thought of joining you?
Hi Gran, wherever you are.
Well, it's that time of year again. I can't believe how fast time flies. It seems like only yesterday I was staring at your face as you lay there in your coffin....
That's something I'll never ever forget.
You looked so peaceful.
I wish so much that I could find the peace that you've found.
I keep promsing you that I'll be coming to join you soon and I'm not intending to break that promise.
I don't know.
Part of me thinks it makes the most sense to join you now, so that this week can forever be that week of grieving, so it doesn't get spread out through the year, y'know?
*shrug*
I miss you
And I know dad misses you too
I wish you were here to take care of him, to take care of them all, so I can just leave.
Yes, I've turned into a complete slefish freak, but I'm sure you love me anyway....maybe.
Oh, I have good news! Aunty N and aunty S are talking again! After all these years, they're joined to the hip, like best buddies and such. It's nice.
I wish you were here so we could all be a family again.
Kam's doing well after his surgery, he should be home soon. And you've got all these great-grand kiddies running around....
Eh. I'll shut up now.
Miss you....
The only time you will find real light is when you're searching in the dark..
I've been thinking about you. I miss you. I'm not going to see you for your birthday. I'm not going to see you over Christmas. This year, I was going to drive there. I could have told you about school. I could have told, oh - how? How could I forget his name? He looked after you and was there at your bedside and I'm so wrapped up I can't remember his name. ****.
But I remember you. Phyllis. I've graduated now. I got out of hospital. I've grown up - but I still miss you. I want to know where your grave is so I can grieve. At least I can visit Alyssa so I can talk with her. I want to talk to you. I remember seeing you go. I'm going to find you soon. I'm going to find you Nan.
Phyllis, Alyssa, thank you for watching over me. Thank you for helping me through it all, the exams, through hospital, through everything. I wish I could see you again. Just for one last time. Life goes on without yo and I don't think this is fair.
Gran,
11 years today, it was. I was just an innocent little child, who had no idea what was going on. But I remember it all so clearly. I remember that was the one and only time that dad actually hugged me. It feels weird remembering that. Him hugging me. It's like he's a stranger or something.
I wish you were still here with us now. Looking after me. Protecting me. It's not fair! You shouldn't have died. It should have been me. And now it seems as though I'm dying in a similar way to how you did.
I need you here with me.
Dad needs you here with him.
You're his strength.
If you were here, in person, I could tell him about all this **** and you could help him through.
I'm not strong enough for the both of us anymore.....
We're going out tonight
All 3 of us
And we're going to have a good tme and I'm not going to let dad get all mopey or anythng
I'm going to have nice shower now and then I'm going to walk over to visit you
It's raining stupidly but I'm going anyways
Maybe I'll buy you some fresh flowers
Try and neaten up your grave as best as I can
11 years
I can hardly believe it
I love you and miss you....
The only time you will find real light is when you're searching in the dark..
9 months today Dan, god it doesn't feel that long, I hope your ok up there Burg everyone's still missing you down here..we haven't forgotten, we never will. Bet your having a laugh looking down on us all. We found out this week that idiot that knocked you off your bike got away with it, none of us can believe it..Keep watch over all of us. R.I.P babe, never forgotten x
hunny i miss you.
i want you back.
i want my best friend back.
please save me from who i am.
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
There's nothing here in this heart left to borrow!
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i miss you more than words could ever say!
wrap ypur arms round me, make me feel safe
please just tell me evrythins gonna be okay!!
i love you, i'm just sorry it wasn't enough..............
i'd tear down the sky 2 c ur face again!!
love and miss you
<333
XxX
i wish you were here to make life a bit more easyer for me.
i keep seeing you and it hurts.
i hate having ptsd because you died becuase it makes remembering you so much harder.
i remember the day you died like it was yesterday.
i just want my best friend back.
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
There's nothing here in this heart left to borrow!
Join Date: Sep 2007
I am currently:
howdy phillamina lol jus watched dazed & confused, the first time since...............
where were ya??? i needed ya! u didnt say it wiv me!!
"you jus gotta keep livin man l-i-v-i-n"
miss you so much it hurts!!
i want you back........... i need ya back
love you forever!!
<333
It's nearly a year. I remember seeing you at the christmas party. I didn't realise you were that ill. I though you'd pull through. Just like me. I can't believe you're gone. I remember you talking to me when I first came in. Tried to reassure me and let me know what I was in for. You showed me your wig, we chatted about things. I'll never forget that. But you're gone now. I survived but you didn't. I'm sorry. I wish I could've said thank you to you for helping me that time. I hope you're in peace now and not suffering. The cancer can't get you now. I don't really know what to say but I still think of you. And the others. I hate cancer so much for what they've done to you. But I hope things are better for you now. Love to you all xxx
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