Mood Disorder Thread

[Kija]

yay! to your meds starting to work! thats fantastic!
xxx

[plastic rose]

I really really felt better for about a day a week or two ago. Then I remembered that I am a hideously ugly failure and have no friends. I think my meds are 'working' as well as they can, but I just can't overcome the feeling that I'm disgusting and I repel and repulse people.

[starnight]

I'm sorta like that in that I feel nobody likes me and everythign I touch falls apart I just have o confidence, but I'm getting CBT and I find it really helpful.

Wouold you think of mabe some talking therapy for how you feel?

[one_step_closer]

CBT would be really helpful for thoughts like that.

[silentdancer]

i have to admit, iv been quite similar. while im feeling a bit better on the whole...there are certain feelings/thoughts that im really struggling with.

however, i realised i havnt self harmed since starting meds either :) its the fact that i hadnt noticed more than anything else which tells me im improving :)

xoxo
kaye

[Ranger Fairy]

I'm feeling terrible my mood is plumting really fast and badly. I keep sleeping, crying, I can't be arsed to much at all, eating too much, I can't constrate very well and starting to have thoughts of more then SI. I feel so awful confused to which disorder is causing this, I have an offical dignois of Bipolar and BPD. And if it BPD a meds change won't do **** all. In fact I basically have to wait until things change. I feel like an idioit saying this to my cpn (i'm seeing her at 11:00am tomorrow) because its quite possible it is BPD and the only thing she can do then is tell me to distract and keep busy and fight the thoughts. I feel like whats the point if she cant fix it and is likely to piss me off, parorize me or rly upset with comments like just keep distracting its a mood swing, fight againist it.

I'm sorry
xxx

[finding.my.wings]

hi- im back and my depression has got worse- even though im on meds. guess i have to go back to the doctor. :(
really jsut wanted to let everyone know how i am- which apparenlty isnt good. hugs would be appreciated.

[Kija]

*hugs*

[finding.my.wings]

Quote:

Originally Posted by Kija

*hugs*

thanks.

[Sigma]

Advice/information needed!

I've been talking to friends IRL who've taken ADs, because I need to decide whether to try them (tried one sort about 10 years ago, it made me feel a lot worse rather than any better, constantly blank and tired, and too nauseous to eat which didn't help). The general consensus was that they had a specific issue that was causing problems, and the ADs gave them the 'space' for a period of time to do something about it (change job, get through a break up etc).

My concern is, I don't have specific issue. I'm up and down a lot, can be perfectly happy while I have something to focus on, then I 'crash' when I stop being busy. But even when I'm 'crashed', I can feel better quite quickly with an external input (I just don't seem to be able to do it for myself). I've been like this ever since I can remember, certainly back into primary school though it probably was at it's worst in my late teens/early 20s. But I manage to work full-time, do post-grad study etc alongside the crashes and SH.

I also am worried about the effect of taking them on my employment opportunities, not where I am at the moment because they're supportive, but when I apply for jobs in future. As it is, I lie on occ. health questionnaires, but I'm happier lying about something that happened 10-15 years ago than something that's happening now.

So, my question is, for people diagnosed with depression, have ADs helped you, and if so, in what ways? If you don't want to post then feel free to PM.

[plastic rose]

First of all, I'm not a doctor and this is not a replacement for proper medical advice. You need to be assessed by a psychiatrist. At the end of the day, I can't say whether anybody should or shouldn't be taking medication. But here is my non-professional opinion.

If your depression is mild-to-moderate, I suggest you try talking therapy and other non-drug treatments like exercise, good diet, a support group and maybe some vitamins or other supplements before you resort to antidepressants, for two reasons. Firstly, recent research shows that if you're not severely depressed, i.e. seriously mentally ill, antidepressants are no better than placebos. Secondly, antidepressants can cause unwanted and unpleasant side-effects, and once your brain becomes used to the medication, they can have serious withdrawal effects. All antidepressants carry an increased risk of suicide.

Psychiatric medications are often heavily criticised but for lots of people they are a vital part of treatment. If somebody is so depressed they don't leave their bed for weeks on end, clearly they can't be expected to go to therapy, a support group, or to do some exercise. That's where medication comes in. Antidepressants have helped make my depression more manageable. They are far from a cure, but they lifted the deepest, blackest part of my depression so that I could find some space to breathe.

I hope that answers your question somewhat.

[Chloe.]

Hey guys. You don't know how happy I am for this thread. (: I've been diagnosed with a mood disorder, but now, my psych thinks I may have bipolar. It's a big shock. Bipolar runs in my family, so you would think I would expect it. Not reallly. :/ My mom has bipolar and understands me better than anyone, but sometimes it's not enough, because she's not a teenager. Anyway, I'll stop rambling.

[Kija]

welcome to the thread iskittles! i'm bipolar too, ever want to chat about it i'm here, tho i'm not a teenager no more! getting diagnosed is a weird thing, i think it took a while for the full impact of it to hit me!

cant-erase-it - you doing any better?

xxx

[Chloe.]

Thanks. (:

[loo-loo]

:( got depression and really bad today!! just feel the need to share!! :((

[Chloe.]

Hello, I'm back. So my friend thinks I'm lying about having bipolar. She's really triggering me right now. She's my best friend, too. I don't know what to do. She thinks it's just hormones. It's not! Sorry, rantish.

[Ami]

*hugs* She might just be finding it hard to deal with. Please take care.

I have psychosis not otherwise specified with an affective element. I am so deeply depressed at the minute. Everything has gone so wrong. I am literally in the depths of despair.

[Chloe.]

I hope you feel better, Girl Afraid. xx (:
Eclectic*a, I'm sorry that people don't understand. It's tough. ):
*hugs everyone*

[Sigma]

thanks plastic rose... wasn't asking about a diagnosis :) more about people's experiences. helpful summary though!

[Kija]

chaotic resolve - i think you should definately ring, i dont know anything about lamictal, but a mood stabilizer sounds like a good plan!
let us know what you do and how it goes! hope you get it sorted out.
xxx