“Never lose faith in yourself,
and never lose hope;
remember, even when this world throws its worst and then turns its back,
there is still always hope.”
I wish I had something useful to say.
It's a sorry state of affairs but I feel everyone is to blame, from users to mods & everything.
Maybe blame is the wrong word?
I've all but left, I pop back occasionally, the drama amuses me when I'm very bored.
I'd say more, enough to get myself perma banned, but to be fair, I can't be bothered, at one point I would of, because I wanted to rock the boat & to be all angry angst & I wanted to see this place maybe become better again or at least stop going the way it is.
But to be honest, I don't care anymore so I don't get this post even myself.
I met some lovely people through here, so many wonderful beautiful people.
But RYL as a site? It didn't save my life, it couldn't. Only I could do that.
Infact, to be honest, RYL just made me hate the fact if people knew I self harmed I'd be assosiated with people who had to be bubble wrapped.
I don't want to have to edge around saying words like razor & cut & bleed. I don't want to have to hide scars incase someone else find them triggering. I've come through this & I'm coming through this & I will be the woman that went from a scared child to the woman who overcome adversity. Why do people need to have trigger warnings? I don't get it, surely even me saying my cat died or i'm in the house alone, two simple statements could in therory cause someone to cut & so what, my post should have a trigger warning?
**** that & **** this.
I left quietly because i didn't want to be bubble wrapped & hidden from the world. I went out there & I did it. I don't want people to tiptoe around me incase they trigger me, I want people to think I'm ****ing stronger than that, because I am. & to be fair it ****ing sickens me that some people need to be wrapped in bubbles, but needs must. this place never helped me & it probably never will & no doubt there are many more in my position.
people need to take that leap into the darkness.
as a beautiful lady i met here once wrote to me
leap into the abyss & the net shall appear.
& i said more than i meant to & i don't know why & this may be deleted, i don't care too much so don't know why i've written it, early morning madness my sweets. the drama & the arguments & people standing up for what they want to fight for has been the only reason i've come to view this & i believe they should carry on, if they wish.
You know the mods are watching watching closely.
Or something, I feel I should have chosen a more oportune moment to post, like, not silly time morning.
I'm still trying to work out why I'm still here, normally i'm around for 5 -10 minutes when I'm really bored & the boy is being rubbish & then I decide livejournal is more fun.
