Location: second star to the right and straight on til morning (USA)
I am currently:
*whispers* I lose time sometimes...tis scary
...she stands hard as a stone, in a world she can't rise above...concrete angel
Laura is my big sister~Abbey's my sister~Miste's my fishbowl~Chrissy's my mummy~Daisy is my twin sister~Katy is my purple heart-shaped smiley face
~Zeddy's my invisible protector~Ruth's my auntie~Ollie's my little brother~Kate's my guitar lullaby~Caz is my box of hugs~Kate & Chloe are my sisters
hi Domicile. sounds similar to what i understand of dissociative fugue. clear switching and time loss. i've found its like playing detective. collecting the evidence so to speak. it takes a while
Um thanks for posting this. i suffer from Dissociative identity disorder. there are 4 other personalities apart from me. its gettin out of control. i have no idea when they take over an what they do. its so scary knowin that when they take over they can do anything an i can't control it. i've split and then "came" round again an found out that one of them made me cut myself. and i've threatened my friends that i love to bits and i would never do that. i can't do anything to stop them and with everythin else goin on i find it hard to cope. can u help me? in anyway?
I'm not amazing or special just a regular person trying to get by and help people along the way-Not whole, not complete but torn and broken into bits. can someone fix me?
have you told your friends that you have DID ?
i know it is a hard thing to talk about maybe let them know
that you dont mean for thoese things to happned
While I was at my sister's house, something weird happened. I often have problems going to sleep, and then once I am asleep I'm in a light sleep, aware of everything that's going on. Normally I hear weird sounds, and I feel like I'm hallucinating. At home I have to sleep with the TV on just to make myself feel like the voices don't mean anything, and explain off the screaming...
Anyways, there is no TV in the room where I was staying at Jessica's (my sister's house). I swear there was something in that room. Something was going to attack me. Something was screaming at me, and when I woke up, several things I could attribute to the weather that night, but still...
I do not want to know myself. I do not want to be myself. I know better, so I will strive to be better.
I've always seen faces in patterns too, I thought it was just me. Especially wallpaper. I'm not real half of the time as well, my pysch said it's derealisation. The other day nothing was real, usually everyone and everything else is still real but this time they weren't. It mostly happens when I'm out. Oh and everything goes all blurry when it happens.
My first day of finding myself being able to remember everthing that had happened during the day was terrifying. There's something so scary about being in reality all the time. The thing is, when you ant to dissociate it's almost impossible.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
We're having heaps of trouble with some alters behind a wall.
We know some of their names Blade, Axton, Zyke, Jack and TJ.
It seems like in our inner world, their is a division, between the alters behind this wall, (which is literally a wall) and the ones not behind it, kind of as if there are two networks.....
Our protector can't work it out either.
We could probably be ok with leaving it be, except that they are cutting, drinking, doing drugs, hanging with people who arent exactly "safe"
Its really hard, Our doc is away atm too.
We're struggling.... :(
I have this thing where I just disconnect with myself, and i'm like watching myself in 3rd person, mainly in social situations. It's like... out of body experiences?
But I don't have split identities by any means. :/
I haven't been diagnosed, but I've been researching it a bit because it's started to scare me quite a bit... and everything points to dissociative disorder.
So I mainly just read through this thread to see if anyone else felt the same way.
small, simple, safe price, rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets.
Yeah we have mentioned them before,
We know a vague outline of their history, it isnt pretty.
But we need to know them, we need them to let us communicate with them! It's so hard!
hello
I'm abit nervous to post in here to be honest, I'm not yet diagnosed with any dissociative disorder, but I've been told I have some form of dissociation (by my CPN so not a real diagnosis I know.)
It's relieving to see others explaining things that I actually understand and can relate too.
Sorry usless post
You see a mouse trap
I see free cheese
And a ****ing challenge
Dissociation's not included in my medical diagnosis. [we settle for complicated depression, lol!] But it is in my therapist's diagnosis. It's becoming more and more apparant that I've had dissociation since very young.
My CPN is the only one who listens and tries to understand really. My therepist refused to believe anything I said and insisted that I was mistaking my inner thoughts for something else, until one of the others came through in one of our sessions. Even then she's not too interested in talking about it.
I'm still trying to learn how to order the chaos in my head right now, but it's slowly getting easier I guess. We've decided that Steven (my boyfriend) is our safe person, and whenever any of us feel unsafe or upset or anything we will let him know who is there and what is happening. Though sometimes when one of the others is feeling very bad and upset that doesn't happen, and some just don't want to co-operate at all.
eeee babblings!
I'm so glad this thread is here, makes me feel alot less alone
You see a mouse trap
I see free cheese
And a ****ing challenge
