If only you'd ever speak to me
the way you once did
look at me the way you once did
pull to me the way you once did
but you don't
you don't feel anymore
you don't care anymore
it's all gone
it's all gone
There are times to stay put, and what you want will come to you.
But there are times to go out into the world and find such a thing for yourself.
I aint no abacus but you can count on me.
just aint in the f*ck!ng mood for being attacked for no real reason
k yeah i was out of order but there is no need 2 be like that i was p***ed off and i just wanted em 2 know that
im just ****ing pulling my f*ck!ng hair out wiv this ***** f*ck!ng f*ck
i dont f*ck!ng need it attack me for having an opinion f*ck!ng t!t a*** w**k
im off
gonna knock myself out with these new sleeping tablets
i think thats the best thing all round
goodnigh.
You drink too much, turn into a giggling idiot who takes the piss out of his emotionally unstable daughter, but that's ok, because you've forgotten by the morning? What's happening to you, dad?
You promised you'd try and stop smoking. We shook hands on it. I'm moving my whole world for you at the moment, trying to get better when I really see no point to it, just so you won't have to deal with my suicide, and you're doing nothing. That really hurts me. It's not even the smoking that gets me, it's the meaning of it, the thought of having someone there whose struggling with change and overcoming demons with me. I feel like either you think this is easy for me, or you have some special reason why you can't try. It's always excuses "I'm stressed with nan", "I've got a toothache", "I smoke when I'm in pain" - what on earth do you think I'm in? You keep letting me down, and you don't even realise what you've done.
You're more like me than I ever realised. We're such opposites and yet we're completely the same. I love you.
"Be nice. Think happy thoughts. Champion silver linings. Love all things (not just cute things like babies and kittens) & when you do love - love like they do in power ballads (you know like on a cliff with the wind in your hair and your eyes shut, knowing you'll never know love like this). Watch out for dog poo. Smile at people - even grumpy ones. Remember anything is possible & whatever you do always try to look on the bright side."
p.
i'm so sorry honey...
whatever it is, i swear i'll try and help...
but if you don't tell me what i've done...
i can't sort it out...
i love you...
unfortunately not in the way that you want me to love you...
i'm sorry.
x
j.
oh dear...
i don't wanna see you get hurt...
me and you are super duper similar...
but stop trying all this stuff...
it's stupid...
i know you're a totally lovely girl...
so please don't throw it all away!
i love you so much honey!
x
m.
haha thankyou honey!
i love you!
you're totally fab...
it's so weird...
we've only briefly met...
but i've told you more than i've told some of the people i've known for ages...
thanks darling...
i love you <3
x
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