Triggering (SI/Abuse) - Love and Razorblade Ecstacy

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[Casca]

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"I guess you could say that Mer always has problems with guys not
trusting her with other guys, which I find very hard to believe
because she is the most trustworthy person I know. Now you know and I
know that she is a very sexual being, she loves to flirt, but I know
in my heart that she would never do anything past that with anyone.
Mer would never have sex with anyone..." Seb hesitated. "Not even
me."
"What?!" Arhen gasped. "You mean you guys haven't had sex?"
"THAT IS NOT A QUESTION FOR YOU TO ASK!!" I yelled, glaring at him.

"It's ok," Seb sighed." I love her and she love me, but no, we haven't made love yet..."

"But...that one time...I thought you guys were..." Arhen stuttered in absolute shock.

"I have not the slightest clue what you are talking about." Seb cocked a brow. "The two of us haven't gotten past second." He then quieted his voice. As Seb was explaining his intimate love life, I found it quite amusing to watch the change in Arhen's espressions. On could tell that this was shocking the hell out of him. "God knows we've tried to, but every time we try, she gets really panicked...and scared. I would never want to scare her even more by actually trying to...you know...enter her."

"But is kind of understanddable, you know, considering what has been done to her." I shrugged.

"Yeah, and my heart goes out to her. It makes me feel so bad. Every time we try to make love, she ends up in tears. She apologizes, and it isn't even her fault. I feel so...so selfish. The love of my life is trying so hard to please me and make me happy that she is pushing herself to far. I tell her it's OK, but deep inside, I feel that she is still so disappoined in herself. I would love to have sex with her, there is no hiding that, but I don't want to hurt her anymore than she has been. I am more willing, now more than ever, to wait for her to be ready."

"Aww..." I sighed, "if that isn't love, I don't know what is!" I looked over to Arhen, who was blushing like mad. "Now this never happens...Arhen is blushing..."

"Spoken like a true gentleman," he said, placing his hand over his heart. "You definitely deserve a woman like Mer."

"Umm...thank you?" Seb said, kind of bewildered by the statement. "Well, I'm off to get things ready to get this party rollin'!" He started making his way out of the water.

"I wonder..." Arhen asked, stepping infront of me, and gazing into my eyes, "if we will ever fall in love like that?"

"I think..." I answered, wrapping my arms around his waist. "...we already have."

He said nothing, but actions always speak louder than words. He took my face into his hands and placed his lips to mine. I slowly closed my eyes, allowing myself to be taken by Arhen's embrace. I wrapped my arms around my lover's neck as the passion between us rose. The moment seemed...almost unreal. It was such an out-of-body experience. It was almost like I was floating above the two of us, just gazing upon our moment of ecstacy.

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Things have been a bit hectic since I've last updated. I kinda got mauled by one of my campers at the once-monthly respite we hold and I am finally healing from it. Haha, I really do love my job. My mother always thought my years of moshing would never amount to anything. Just look at me now! Really though, it isn't so fun when your camper, who is twice your size, tries to punch a hole through your spinal cord...then tries to take a chunk out of my bosom while we are trying to calm him down. (Ha, I was promptly given some personal time to ice the girls. :P) But yeah...one of these days I'll have to write of my adventures this summer. The good stuff, too. I just like to rant about the bad stuff...it is more interesting. XD

Anyways, I am doing much better now and preparing for the October respite. :) You guys are the best and I love you all.

Much love, and stay safe!

_Mer

[Shinpad]

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Hope college is going good :D

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[pretty_in_pain]

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[Casca]

Here is another update. Enjoy!

"C'mon, guys," Sara yelled from the dock. "It's time to get this party rollin'!"

"We're coming," Arhen yelled back. "Don't get your panties all bunched up in a knot!"

"I think you need to leave my girl's panties out of your mind, thank you very much!" Dan yelled back to Arhen. "Her panties are her business and my business...though you can keep C.C.'s panties in your mind as much as you'd like."

It was king of depressing that our moment of passion had to end, but I know it wouldn't be the last.

"You heard the lady..." I smirked. "Time to get our asses inside."

"Yes..." A sly smile made its way across Arhen's face. "And what a fine ass it is!"

"Come on, horndog," I laughed, grabbing the rim of his jeans. "Let's go inside."

"Ohh, I like a dominating woman," he growled as I led him onto the beach.

"Oh, ****!" I blurted out.

"Huh, what's wrong?" Arhen asked.

"I am soaking wet and I have nothing to change into!"

"Don't worry, I can get you some clothes to change into."

"But..." I cringed, tightly gripping my arms. "What about..."

"Don't worry about a thing, sweetheart," he assured me, kissing me on the forehead. "I've got every thing under control."

"OK...I'll take your word for it."

When we finally got back inside, the sudden stench of smoke filled my nostrils.

"Either the house is on fire," Arhen hesitated. "Or Mer is having a heated conversation with this Sam fellow."

It's true, Mer always smokes whenever the conversation starts to get heavy. If she didn't, all hell would break loose. The nicotine makes her somewhat calmer and much more reasonable.

"Well, what's wrong with being a voyuer of violence? Huh?" Mer was lounging upside-down on the couch in the living room. Still clad in a bikini, she was puffing away on her cig while talking on her phone. She took a quick drag from her cig before speaking again. "At least I'm not a voyuer of SEX! Now that **** is ****ing disgusing!" Now she was wildly motioning her hands as she spoke. It was like her cigarrete became an incence stick.

"Heh, now she's Italian..." Arhen snickered.

"A quarter Italian, thank you very much!" Mer yelled, then continuing her phone coversation. "Well, yeah, I'd rather be a sadist than some pervert. Anyways, it's been nice talking to you. I got things to see and people to do." She hesitated. "Hah, I knew you'd love that one. Ok, bye!" She closed her phone and flipped upright on the couch.

"Are those the usual subjects you two talk about?" I giggled. She took a drag from the cig, then withdrew it from her mouth.

"Of course not," she exhaled a pillar of smoke. "There's always sex, violence, and how certain events could've been avoided if there was a brothel in the vicinity at the time. Ya know, the usual stuff."

"Uh, yeah," I shrugged. "If that's what you call Normal."

"Ok, I think we need to be getting dry now," Arhen chimed in.

"No arguing there, I am so goddamn cold!"

"Alrighty then, Cecilia. How bout you go into the laundry room and hang your wet clothes on the rack to dry.

"But..." I gasped.

"There are some towels that you can cover up with/dry off with till I bring you some dry clothes.

"Ok, had me worried there," I exhaled in relief. As long as I'm not naked, I'm fine.

"Let's get goin'."

He walked down the hall to his room and I made a turn into the laundry room. Once inside, I made sure to close the door behind me. I started to strip the drenched articles of clothing off of my body. Once my skirt and panties were on line, I wrapped the bottom of me in the towel because I needed some mental preparation to take off my shirt. Once everything was alright in my head, I took of my shirt and bra at the same time while bringing the towel up to cover the rest of me.

"That water did not do wonders for my arm..." I thought to myself, grabbing another towel. "The cuts are open now." Indeed, most of my wounds have opened now. I'm guessing my cuts fused to my shirt, causing them to open when I took it off. Some have even started to bleed. I began to gingerly pat my arm to remove the excess blood, then adding compressions to stop the bleeding...

There was a sudden knock at the door!

"Oh, no," my mind screamed.

"Umm, one minute!" I half-yelled.

What the hell am I supposed to do? Nothing is more suspicious than having your arm wrapped in a towel...especially when there happens to be blood seeping through it. That is not a good way to keep something like this secret for long.

Now the door was beginning to open.

"Oh, no, no, no! What the hell should I do?"

[Zanniie]

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[Casca]

I just saw Zack and Miri...and it gave me an idea for a side story that goes along with Love and Razorblades...and no...there is no porn involved XD...thank you very much...but yeah. Go see it if you haven't...it is so precious and somewhat adorable moments are littered throughout the movie (even romantic in a way<3). Haha...there are a few extremely raunchy scenes that you have to endear to get to them. I just thought that I would let you know that. I am going to start writing the story soon...but don't worry, I am still going to write a few more updates of the main story line until I actually get into the side story...but yeah...that movie just made me so giddy...haha!

Expect the next update soon!

Much love,

Mer

[Casca]

Without even thinking, I quickly jerked my arm out of sight as the door opened.

"Hey, C.C." Sara greeted cheerfully in her slightly southern accent. "Just making sure everything's alright."

"Yeah, everything's just fine," I lied through my teeth. "Just waiting for Arhen to bring me some dry clothes."

"That's good," she smiled. "We are going to be watching some of the Saw movies, is that alright with you?"

"It's great!"

"Alrighty then!" Sara stepped outside the room. "That's all I needed to know." She turned around and shut the door behind her. The second the door stuck fast, I exhaled a huge sigh of relief.

"Holy ****!" I exclaimed to myself, bringing my arm in front of me. "That was so..."

Before I could finish the thought, the door flung open. I frantically tried to move my arm behind me again, but my nerves seemed to stupefy my reflexes. Once I realized who came through the door, I was able to relax my nerves.

"Holy ****, Arhen! "I yelled, "you scared the **** out of me!" Arhen was standing, dumbfounded, in the middle of the doorway. It looked like he was holding a pile of clothes with what looked like a bag on top.

"Aw, man!" He apologized," I wasn't thinking, sorry!"

"It's alright," I chuckled. "You know I'm just trying to hide my arms, and doing just that is wearing my nerves thin." Knowing that my visitor was a safe one, I brought my arm back out in front of me. "I'm not ready for this to come out into the open yet." I saw Arhen's eyes fixate onto the towel that was covering my arm. He set the clothes down beside him and closed the door. I heart started to beat faster and faster as he walked up to me. It was fluttering when he took my left hand into his own.

"You don't have to tell anyone until you are ready to do so," he smiled, gently removing the towel. "Just take care of yourself till then." He picked me up and set me on top of the washing machine. "Now I think it's time to take care of this arm of yours."

He walked across the room and grabbed a box that was sitting on top of a chest. It looked like it was filled with assorted medical supplies. From this box, he got out such things as gauze, steri-strips, medical tape, and hydrogen peroxide. He set all the articles next to me, still keeping the peroxide in is right hand. With his free hand, he took some cloth and poured the peroxide onto it. I began to cringe as he started patting the cloth onto my wounds.

"****!" I writhed due to the searing pain of the peroxide," that stings!"

"Sorry, that can't be helped," he said, gently patting my arm with the cloth. "We gotta keep these wounds clean." Once he was finished with the cloth, he tossed it into a basket, then taking some steri-strips out of the box. He used a couple of them to close some of the deeper wounds off. I hadn't realized that I had gotten to the point of where I was making cuts that severe. When he finished closing them off, he took the roll of gauze and began wrapping my arm up, starting at the wrist. He had gone up to my elbow by the time he finished. He used some medical tape to hold the gauze into place.

"All done, sweetheart!" Arhen smiled. "That should do it."

"Thank you!" I smiled back," thanks for taking care of me." I placed my hands on the side of his face as our lips met. I can't even remember the last time I felt like this. All's I can say is that it feels great. Though...there is something telling me that these good feelings aren't going to last for long.

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[Feel_Good_inc.]

Very good. can't wait for more.

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u are fabulous
theres not a single mistake
yes ur fabulous
the bestest bestest of best
oh yes u are so fabulous
u help me make my day
oh ur indeed fabulous
in thats no doubt
*trails off*
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thats all i got for now
basically what im tryina say is
UR AMAZINGLY FABULOUSLY AMAZINGLY COOL
i shut up now
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[Casca]

I was happy that Arhen could nurture my wounds, but I couldn't help but feel vulnerable with my arms still showing.

"Arhen, did you bring me some clothes?" I asked.

"Yes, yes, don't worry your pretty little head," he assured me, handing me a bag. "Open it."

I was overcome with glee when I pulled out a teal and black striped long-sleeved shirt.

"I love it!" I smiled, wrapping my arms around him.

"I'm glad you like it," he snickered. " I picked it out myself, with no help from Sara or Mer."

"Just for me," I kissed him. "I'm so touched!"

Arhen wrapped his arms around me as our lips joined again. Our bodies were pressed together as the passion grew. It was getting so hot and heavy that I began to lose touch with things occurring around me...like my towel falling down to the floor in the middle of passion.

To tell you the truth, I didn't notice that I was naked in the arms of my man. Arhen was the first to notice. He began to gently caress one of my breasts with his hand...and to his efforts, he found that it was a bare breast in the palm of his hand. That resulted with his eyes springing open and his pants to grow. My own eyes opened when I felt his growing hardness on my leg.

"Um..." Arhen gasped, still holding me tight. "Cecelia, your towel..." I stared, in partial horror, deeply into his eyes.

"My towel isn't on me anymore, is it?" I sighed.

"I'm afraid not..." he quivered, becoming more aroused by the second. "I am so sorry!" He was still holding me tightly, his erection getting harder.

"Accidents...happen?" I was shocked...but not ashamed by what was occurring. "How bout I get dressed now..."

"Yes," he exasperated, redirecting his hands to his pelvis, which was now fully at attention. He used one of his hands to pick up the towel that was at my feet and handed it to me. I didn't put it back on...I kind of lost control of my body at that point. "I'll see you in the living room...and you are beautiful...all of you." He left the laundry room, leaving me to my thoughts.

I hugged myself, trying to decipher what had just occurred. The whole ordeal left me grinning from ear to ear. My body did that to him? Really? All my life I've been told that I was too fat or to skinny...but not right now. To Arhen, my body is beautiful. All of it...even my arms? I am so happy...he loves my body...exactly the way it is...who would of thought?

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Sorry it's been so long since I last updated. I've been so busy! I would absolutly love to hear what you think about my story so far. I had such terrible writer's block and mabye some input will help me break it. :)

Take care, loves!

Mer

[Netti]

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[pretty_in_pain]

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[moonbeamangel]

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