struggling with voices and orders *update* admitted :(

[random.swirls]

The best thing is to try and calm down so sit somewhere quiet maybe try some relaxation or mindfulness techniques so reduce stimulation etc

[Arienette]

I phoned HTT. I've put on a calming playlist on spotify

She told me about putting my face in cold water. I'm gonna try a cold bath. Found some old quetiapine so took a little as PRN bc I have nothing really. And I'm feeling dangerous. I know it though but feeling it.

I just want to climb buildings but am gonna wait and go climbing at my wall tomorrow anyway. X

[Ballerina123]

calming playlists are good.
plenty of sleep (don't set an alarm)

there is a really good book called "overcoming mood swings" which has tips about managing hypomania. you can get it on kindle.

doing art work is good too.

why does your gf think you shouldn't take prn? if its prescribed then why not take it?

[Arienette]

She didn't think I should take zopiclone as PRN at 6pm. The nurse on the phone said the same. They're gonna get me to see the Dr and hopefully I really hope she scripts PRN for moments like that by ive had 2 very nearly crises since being discharged already.

I took the quetiapine as PRN so that gave me some sleep and worked out for me.

The cold bath technique was quite good. I recommend that although I made so many random noises like I was having sex I started to find it hilarious so, other than that it was effective in helping. Didn't solve the situation. I think the quetiapine solved the situation but it helped.

X

[Arienette]

Yeah that's a good point. I don't want HTT to come over in evening though bc I have activities most evenings and they need to see me take my meds.

And they're talking of seeing me for 3-4 weeks. Which would disrupt me going back to my routines more although I could ask if it's ok to take at night when I'm not under HTT and don't need to be supervised taking them.

X

[Arienette]

Took only a small amount of q and I feel hungover AND ,agitated this morning.

Like zombies and agitation running around my body. Considering the zopiclone although it's completely the wrong time of day for that.

Feel weird.

X

[Ballerina123]

Oh could ask to change it of it doesn't cause agitation or insomnia for you.
It's only suggested to takin the morning because that's what most people experience.
I can't take mine at night because it wakes me up too much but I do know people who take it at night.

[Arienette]

I think when I stop seeing HTT I'll try taking it at night but at but at the moment I prefer the home treatment team to come over in the morning as this fits better with my activities.

X

[Arienette]

I feel more calm now. I saw Annabel this morning. I also heard that my cat died in the cattery.
I just saw the doctor from HTT. She prescribed me clonazepam up to 3 times daily to help.
So hopefully tomorrow I will get that from the HTT
This week has been hard.

They might bring it over tonight.
X

[Arienette]

So I saw the Dr from HTT.

I should keep this to one thread so I'll keep it here.

They're gonna increase aripiprazole to 20mg over time and give me clonazepam 0.5 for up to 3 x daily although I doubt I will use it THAT much but at least it is there so I can stay safe and not be admitted agin because they keep asking me that if I'm safe and I'd rather stay home under HTT than be re admitted.

I'm a bit down this morning be my cat passed away over the weekend at the battery before he could come home.

I've cried a lot but I think I'm dealing with it ok.

She also said about DBT To help me manage my ups and downs better.

I heard its good so I won't turn DBT down.

X

[tiptoes]

I think it would be a good idea to ask them why they are having you take it in the morning before trying to take it at a different time of day. A pharmacist should also be able to answer this.

There is often a reason why different medication have different recommended advice re. time of day or with or without food etc.

[Arienette]

Yeah true. Today my appointment was quite busy and I was distracted by my cat dying but I will ask in due time when I remember.

Thanks. Xx

[Arienette]

I asked. They explained that the risk of taking it at night is the risk of developing insomnia and it affecting sleep

So if anyone else wonders that's why.

Thanks for your support and answers. You guys were pretty accurate as usual. Xx

[Arienette]

Struggling again tonight. I have clonazepam now so i took some.

I managed to go to yoga but doubt I will manage to go to climbing as well. I feel so all over the place.

Annabelle is in my mind and digging her up. I want to go to the shirt stall and throw stuff everywhere because a voice won't stop nagging me about it.

I want to scream and cry- probably still grieving my cat.

I want to just watch TV but I'm too agitated and can't stop pacing.

Climbing might help but I don't feel up to going right now. Ugh. I feel like rubbish.

I need a break from my mind. A break in my head. I'm so anxious.

I want to OD to have a break and make it stop for a few days. Not to kill myself but to have a break for a few days.

I just, I don't know how much more of this I can take.

I'm getting sick of it now.

Am reluctant to phone HTT bc there is talk of discharge on Tuesday then I can work with my cc again who I think will be better because she is very good.

I'm being driven up the wall right now. Ugh! Fml!!! FMB!!!

Xx

[Arienette]

Mourning feels a lot like depression. It sucks.

I wrote on the walls again. In paint. I barely remember. I felt like a trance.

And an urge. I HAD to do it.

In paint across my bathroom wall.

I don't know what's happening anymore. Went to gardening but they changed the times and I didn't know be I've been away.

Have a support group later. I want to go but the travel feels overwhelming and my bike needs maintenance. X

[Arienette]

Now my house is covered in MASSIVE messages. This needs to stop.

I wish I could see my cc soon. I feel like I really need to have a talk with her abou this and I can't until Tuesday when HTT discharge me, and even then it will only be for like 10 minutes. I will ask for an appointment soon.

My head feels very funny today. I haven't had prn nor did I yesterday. I managed. It could be citalopram withdrawal because HTT are being useless at sorting out my citalopram. And totally forgot and now it's been a few days. Seriously!!!
If they don't bring it today I will run to the pharmacy and see if I ordered any pre hospital admission ----

They came with a script.

Feeling v light headed and spacey

[EyelinerAndCigarettes]

I'm proud of you for realizing what's happening can't continue. I can only imagine how distressed you must be feeling.

Can you possibly talk to HTT about how you're feeling until you are able to see your CC?

x x x